ANA Y4 D96

Hour 18. Yesterday around 1pm it just stopped. Just gone. Let's see how long this round lasts. Drainage issue my ass.

Took dog to groomer yesterday. Took three hours this time but she looks great. I went to the store while I waited and got stuff for the week. Got home, cleaned, took her for a walk, made chinese food at home, played games, watched a documentary. I am so much more productive and happy when my heading isn't screaming. When I don't want to smash it through a wall.

Today is holiday and I plan to take full advantage or at least as much as I can. Tomorrow is dentist at 8am. Yippee. 

ANA Y4 D95

No better. I'd kill myself but I have too much to do today. Story of my life. I cleaned the house yesterday hoping it would help. It did not. We went out to dinner and I had a horrible time. Felt rushed the entire time. Felt off. Tired. Done. But again, too much to do. Off to the fucking groomers.

ANA Y4 D94

FUCK ME. I had a silent day yesterday and now it's back. There goes my "weekend theory". Not work, not weather, WHAT THE FUCK IS IT? FUCK.

Worked. Made gnocchi. Played games. Watched a movie. Recommend Together. Good movie. 

ANA Y4 D93

Had a hard time falling asleep last night. Tossed and turned until almost 1am. Of course the day I have to be up early and used an alarm for the first time in a while. This is life. Have therapy in 90 minutes. Have bills to pay. Have work to do.

Moderate day. It was there but light. Got some work done. Spent outside time. Went to the store. Made enchiladas for dinner.

Three day weekend. Woo. 

ANA Y4 D92

Faint today but getting stronger. Will be full blown my midday.

My niece is in hospital. Had a full on mental breakdown from doing too much. She's 25 I think? Was responsible for her mom, her job, school, dealing with her parent's divorce, too much. She isn't eating right, sleeping right, and just collapsed. No further details yet.

 Stayed up way too late because I was just frustrated. Three day weekend coming but C works the whole thing. Fuck. 

ANA Y4 D91

 See, I don't get it? Yesterday was silence. All day. Nothing. Yet this morning around 5am while I was fading in and out of sleep it started and is now going strong. What changed? What's different about yesterday and today? Weather? Same variables as far as I can tell. Window was open both nights. Weather about the same. Stress levels about the same. So what is it? Why is one day good and another shit? This is what's driving me nuts. It's so inconsistent. I can't go more than 30ish hours before it comes back. Argh.

Made taco bowls for dinner, took dog on walk, watched tv, worked. Nothing out of the ordinary. 

ANA Y4 D90

Yesterday was another bad day. So bad I broke down and made the call. I have an MRI scheduled for September 11th at 5pm. At least I will have more answers. Now of course ironically so far today has been silent. This is the issue; the inconsistency is driving me nuts. I started work on a new class yesterday. I might be able to get it done this week. We shall see. We went on a good walk. I was going to make canneloni for dinner but sadly they went bad. Not sure how, but they did. Ended up ordering out. Oh well.

ANA Y4 D89

I'm calling the hospital today. Money be damned I need this MRI. I tossed and turned all night because this shit permeated my dreams. I don't know what to do. I had one day. One. It started again around 11:30am yesterday and hasn't stopped. The cat is losing fur again. I swear I am giving her meds correctly but she isn't doing better. I am so stressed out. Nothing is helping. Back to square one.

ANA Y4 D88

Good day yesterday. Around 11 I decided I didn't want to be in the house and took dog for a short 1 mile walk. We got out, we touched grass. Was good for both of us. Made ribs for dinner then we took a second walk  for about 2 miles. C was a little upset last night even though she won't admit it outright. One of her friends she has known since childhood is getting married today. All of her other friends are in the wedding except her and one other. She wasn't even going to be invited. Because conservatives. The B&G didn't want the possibility of drama by having someone like her or me there. I know it bugs her deep down even if she says it doesn't. We ended up going on a late night taco bell run together. 

No plans for today. Just see how it goes. 

ANA Y4 D87

Even though my head was screaming the whole day and night, we had an incredible time last night. It has been a while since I have been to a concert and new EVERY SINGLE SONG even the new stuff. I knew every word, every beat, every moment. It was so awesome. For 60 that motherfucker looks good, sounds good, and puts on one hell of show. Our seats were amazing. We saw everything so perfect. Our parking was right next to the stadium. We were out of the garage in under 5 minutes. I parked us right pointing to the entrance. My venmo plan worked perfectly and we had food, merch, and booze and still have over $100 even after paying the dog sitter. No stress at all on the financial front. I got a $90 hoodie and didn't think twice. C got a really cool shirt. He played songs I haven't heard live in years. He also did a dual stage setup where he would vanish then appear on the other one. The light show was awesome too. So happy.