ANA Y4 D40

Happy birthday to me.

I have had about 12 hours of silence. It's so nice. Finished the laundry room floor. Pics tomorrow. Today I do nothing. Dinner and cake tonight.

ANA Y4 D39

24 straight hours with no relief in my head. This is insane. It has to stop. I hate everything and everyone right now. Fuck living. This isn't living.

ANA Y4 D38

We made our own fireworks last night. The only thing worth celebrating was us. Heck yeah.

My head is still the bane of my existence. I fucking hate it. Driving me nuts. For real. I did go through clothes yesterday. Made some tough choices but have a good pile for donations and my closet looks much more organized. Small victories.

Hair appointment today. 

ANA Y4 D37

Woo. America Day. Woo.

Like there's anything in this piece of shit country to celebrate right now. Deputized ICE agents? A corrupt supreme court? A toddler in charge? What pray tell am I celebrating? White people? Slavery? Get fucked.  

ANA Y4 D36

Been up for a while. Just been doing some shit already. I did sleep in until 6:15 which was nice. I got through my meeting yesterday and am officially off for the next few days. I got one thing off my 10 item list do... no wait, two things! Only 7 left to go and I should get one to two done today. Picking up my cake today too. 

I had two friends reach out to me yesterday for different reasons. One was sharing a life update. I am so proud of how far they have come with everything. Of all the people I know, they are in the top three for people who deserve to finally be happy. The other was checking in on me. Appreciate both of them.

Sending C off to work and then doing my list of stuff. 

ANA Y4 D35

This is it. I have ONE meeting from 10-12 and then I am done for a week. I have my small list of projects. I will sleep in dammit at least one day. 

I recorded a how to video yesterday. That was good. Made brats for dinner. Made a new dessert. Functioned. 

ANA Y4 D34

It was so bad last night that it was slipping into my dreams. I went to bed at around 10 because I couldn't be awake any more. But then when I did fall asleep it was in my damn dreams. At 1:30am I took a Claritin to see if it would help. Guess what? It did. I was able to sleep at least. Not perfect but at least now I am functional. If this has all been allergy related I will stab someone in the face.

Got my templates done, got the meds, ordered my cake. Picking cake up Thursday. Made chicken caesar wraps for dinner.  Watched half of the thunderbolts. I want to like it but meh. It's just so formulaic. Same marvel junk. I will probably finish it today. I also have to record a tutorial video today. Fun stuff but almost done for the week!

ANA Y4 D33

I started in on my vacation project list yesterday. There's a couple of things on my list I can only do if C is home to keep helpers at bay. One is now done. I can't do the next one until next Sunday for the same reasons. I managed to finally finishing painting the walls in the laundry room. Next is the floors. But I can't do it with helpers. So it waits. But that's okay. I feel accomplished just getting something done. I also did her laundry, cleaned all the floors, made ahi for dinner, took the dog for a walk, and didn't let zippiedoodleitis ruin my life. Small victories people, small victories.

I only have to make 2 1/2 days this week then I am on vacation. Today's tasks included writing some templates for moodle migration, ordering my birthday cake, and picking up a scrip at the vet. Go me. 

ANA Y4 D32

You know those ads for meds that are like "don't like zepotalism stop you from living you life!"? That's how I acted yesterday. I ignored my head the best I could I just did as much as I could. Sometimes it worked, but for the most part it didn't. But I tried. I detailed my car. Like 3 hours of hand washing and cleaning. That made me happy. I installed a new cat door. I cleaned. I did laundry. I did a million little things to distract myself. At least I felt productive even if I felt like killing myself. I will go out with a clean house and clean underwear! Going to do the same today. Going to paint the laundry room. Knock out one of my vacation tasks early. Let's see how that goes.

ANA Y4 D31

Had a small window of silence yesterday. Was so nice. From like 1pm on. But now it's back again. It's mild this morning but it's there. It's at a functional level right now. Let's see how the day goes.

Few more days and I am on my break. I can make it.