Not feeling well this morning. I can't eat like I used to. Any kind of spicy or heavy food these days causes me repercussions the next. Old age sucks.
Taught all day. Started at 8, finished at 4. Not a bad group. No major issues. Didn't feel like cooking so had taco bros. Paying for it. Not much else going on right now.
I know I shouldn't jinx it, question it, or complain about it but...
Two days. Two days of silence. Why? What changed? Not my diet. Not my habits. Weather has been the same mostly. So what changed? Why? I wish I could understand the triggers better. Is it because I talked to C about some things? Is it because I got things off my chest? Is it because I made it past my birthday? How much was mental and how much was physical? The pollen is gone. Was it allergen related? I wish I had answers but I am happy to have had two days.
Last day of vacation yesterday. I did mostly nothing. We were both home. We took dog for walk. We cleaned. We played video games. We watched a documentary. I did check in and answer some emails so I didn't come into a shitstorm this morning. But otherwise a nice way to wrap up. I teach the next two days and then have some stuff to do Friday. This week is solid and will be over before I know it. Just have to get through two days of this class. I can do it. I then have 3 days of teaching the week after next, and more in August. Should start getting busier as we reach end of year.
I had a good birthday. Not going to lie. I was well wished by about 15 people wish is more than I expected. Made me feel cared about for sure. I spent the day moving at my own pace, took the cat to the vet (she's fine, blood work), we went to K-Pot, our friend came over for cake and two games of Scrabble. All in all, a good day. This is my last day off and I plan on relaxing. I did check email and I have a shitstorm to deal with tomorrow but that's a tomorrow problem. Today I will be ignoring it all.
Happy birthday to me.
I have had about 12 hours of silence. It's so nice. Finished the laundry room floor. Pics tomorrow. Today I do nothing. Dinner and cake tonight.
24 straight hours with no relief in my head. This is insane. It has to stop. I hate everything and everyone right now. Fuck living. This isn't living.
We made our own fireworks last night. The only thing worth celebrating was us. Heck yeah.
My head is still the bane of my existence. I fucking hate it. Driving me nuts. For real. I did go through clothes yesterday. Made some tough choices but have a good pile for donations and my closet looks much more organized. Small victories.
Hair appointment today.
Woo. America Day. Woo.
Like there's anything in this piece of shit country to celebrate right now. Deputized ICE agents? A corrupt supreme court? A toddler in charge? What pray tell am I celebrating? White people? Slavery? Get fucked.
Been up for a while. Just been doing some shit already. I did sleep in until 6:15 which was nice. I got through my meeting yesterday and am officially off for the next few days. I got one thing off my 10 item list do... no wait, two things! Only 7 left to go and I should get one to two done today. Picking up my cake today too.
I had two friends reach out to me yesterday for different reasons. One was sharing a life update. I am so proud of how far they have come with everything. Of all the people I know, they are in the top three for people who deserve to finally be happy. The other was checking in on me. Appreciate both of them.
Sending C off to work and then doing my list of stuff.
This is it. I have ONE meeting from 10-12 and then I am done for a week. I have my small list of projects. I will sleep in dammit at least one day.
I recorded a how to video yesterday. That was good. Made brats for dinner. Made a new dessert. Functioned.
It was so bad last night that it was slipping into my dreams. I went to bed at around 10 because I couldn't be awake any more. But then when I did fall asleep it was in my damn dreams. At 1:30am I took a Claritin to see if it would help. Guess what? It did. I was able to sleep at least. Not perfect but at least now I am functional. If this has all been allergy related I will stab someone in the face.
Got my templates done, got the meds, ordered my cake. Picking cake up Thursday. Made chicken caesar wraps for dinner. Watched half of the thunderbolts. I want to like it but meh. It's just so formulaic. Same marvel junk. I will probably finish it today. I also have to record a tutorial video today. Fun stuff but almost done for the week!
