ANA Y5 D119

Scream. Day 7.

A week of this nonsense. C is sisk. I am tired. Fuck all this. Just done with it all. 

ANA Y5 D118

Scream

We had a good art prize. It was our fifth one and although this has been a rough year, our streak is unbroken! We left around 7:30am, got in a little after 9. We saw all sorts of cool art, had early dinner at a tiki place, came home, I livestreamed, we went to bed. I walked almost 9 miles yesterday according to my watch. Now to do nothing today. 

ANA Y5 D117

Scream 

Was up at 2:30am yesterday. Made that doc appointment. Worked until I had to leave. Was in and out in 15 minutes. Pretty cut and dry diagnosis. On Cipro. Worked the rest of the day. Paid bills. Had pizza for dinner.

Going to GR today without the dog. Art Prize baby! 

ANA Y5 D116

Scream

Going to urgent care at 8:15. UTI. Lovely. 

Spent the day optimizing and refactoring my loads. Got it down to under 5 minutes. That was my day. Watching paint dry, er no, sql running. Easy confusion. Made lamb for dinner. Played games.

Time to pay bills. Joy. 

ANA Y5 D115

Scream

Spent all day staring at a loader. But after 9 hours I got everything working. I am running one final check this morning before this goes off to a qa server. Hopefully it will run.

Was so tired last night. Made butter chicken and fell asleep on the couch at 7:30. Crawled into bed 2 hours later. Just a couple more days and we get a break. 

ANA Y5 D114

Scream

I fucked up at work yesterday. I wrote bad code that loaded 189m rows of data instead of 18.9m. It was bad. I pegged server cpus, I had to stay late to try and roll it back. I didn't get home until 7pm. Nightmare. Got home and ate leftovers and went to bed. I was drained mentally. Here's hoping everything will be okay today. 

ANA Y5 D113

Scream

Worked, made char sui for dinner, took dog for walk, played games. Good day. 

ANA Y5 D112

Silence

I am finding that six hours seems to be the sweet spot for me for hours of sleep and a silent head. More or less and I get screaming. No science behind that. Just observation. Regardless, it correlates. I need to track it and see. I can do a 30 day dump from my phone.

Did laundry, took care of house stuff. We went to sams club last night. I am now going to track our regular grocery spending for the next 6-8 weeks to see what we buy and how much. We should ONLY need perishables like dairy and produce for the next six weeks. If that holds true then the expirement is a success. By my calculations we got 40-45 meals from what we bought. More with leftovers. We shall see how it goes. Took us 2 hours to put everything away and packaged. Worth it though.

Today I have some work but nothing too pressing. 

ANA Y5 D111

Back to screaming.

I stayed up too late last night and now I am paying for it. Head is screaming, I feel like I have wasted the morning. I hate it.

Did laundry, cleaned, made dinner, streamed, took dog for a walk at like 11pm. Went to bed around 1. 

ANA Y5 D110

Silence so far

Had therapy yesterday. Discussed options for medications to help me when things get too loud in my head. We will see what happens when I talk to my primary. Worked all day. Finished moving files over. Had quesdillas for dinner. Watched a good movie. Good day overall.