Scream
Spent all day staring at a loader. But after 9 hours I got everything working. I am running one final check this morning before this goes off to a qa server. Hopefully it will run.
Was so tired last night. Made butter chicken and fell asleep on the couch at 7:30. Crawled into bed 2 hours later. Just a couple more days and we get a break.
Scream
I fucked up at work yesterday. I wrote bad code that loaded 189m rows of data instead of 18.9m. It was bad. I pegged server cpus, I had to stay late to try and roll it back. I didn't get home until 7pm. Nightmare. Got home and ate leftovers and went to bed. I was drained mentally. Here's hoping everything will be okay today.
Silence
I am finding that six hours seems to be the sweet spot for me for hours of sleep and a silent head. More or less and I get screaming. No science behind that. Just observation. Regardless, it correlates. I need to track it and see. I can do a 30 day dump from my phone.
Did laundry, took care of house stuff. We went to sams club last night. I am now going to track our regular grocery spending for the next 6-8 weeks to see what we buy and how much. We should ONLY need perishables like dairy and produce for the next six weeks. If that holds true then the expirement is a success. By my calculations we got 40-45 meals from what we bought. More with leftovers. We shall see how it goes. Took us 2 hours to put everything away and packaged. Worth it though.
Today I have some work but nothing too pressing.
Back to screaming.
I stayed up too late last night and now I am paying for it. Head is screaming, I feel like I have wasted the morning. I hate it.
Did laundry, cleaned, made dinner, streamed, took dog for a walk at like 11pm. Went to bed around 1.
Silence so far
Had therapy yesterday. Discussed options for medications to help me when things get too loud in my head. We will see what happens when I talk to my primary. Worked all day. Finished moving files over. Had quesdillas for dinner. Watched a good movie. Good day overall.
Silence
Much better day yesterday despite my ears. Being home makes all the difference in the world. Not sitting in dumb traffic or sitting in an office just for looks. We made nachos last night. C cooked and I cleaned. Was very nice. New phone came. But cleaning old one off first. Therapy this morning. Much needed.
Scream
I spent most of yesterday pissed off. Pissed off I had to be in an office for zero good reason. Pissed off my head was screaming. I brought that all home with me and was a pain to be around all night. I need a solution to everything.
Scream
But it's because it was loud as fuck last night in the restaraunt. So I am not surprised. We had a great night. Good food. Good laughs. Good sex after. Not bad after 4 years together. I worked all day, came home early, got dolled up, we went to dinner, had a great night.
Silence
Today is our anniversary. Four years. Wow. Time flies. It never stops.
We're going to dinner tonight. We will go to art prize later in the month. Too much going on with work for both of us.
Off to work.
