ANA Y4 D304

Back to the screams. Slept like absolute shit last night. Don't know why. Couldn't fall asleep to save my life. Done with all this. Just want to go away. I want to be done with everything.

ANA Y4 D303

Silence.

Went on a three mile walk yesterday. Taking dog to vet this morning. Two more days until interview. 

ANA Y4 D302

Silence. Thankfully.

Sweat like a pig all night. I didn't turn the heat up but for some reason I was hot as hell all night long. With C at work yesterday didn't do a whole lot. I managed to take dog for a walk. This is the week of my interview. Stressed. Week 9 of being unemployed. 

ANA Y4 D301

Screaming. Had a small break yesterday but here we are.

Busy day yesterday. I was up early. Did laundry, cleaned the kitchen, and straightened the living room before I took the dog to the groomer. Got back, C had done more cleaning. We worked together to get the house ready for company. Around 3 I started my lasagne. C's coworker came over around 5. We had a nice time. Food was good. We watched a movie. She headed out around 10. We went to bed around 11.

Nothing planned for today. 

ANA Y4 D300

Still screaming.

There's something wrong with the bed. My back has been killing me. I've adjusted it twice. I think with the rapid weather changes it's been losing pressure like car tires. But I am in serious pain this morning. I am so done with everything. Taking dog to groomer in a little while. Having C's coworker over for dinner. Making lasagne. 

ANA Y4 D299

Back to screaming. Bad screaming too.

Stress levels are high again. Fuck everything. 

ANA Y4 D298

Silence. It broke yesterday around 1pm. Been doing good since.

Quiet day. Weather also broke. We got to go on a walk. Another today too. Supposed to be really nice today finally. Might even make smashburgers outside tonight. We shall see. Just playing the waiting game. Waiting for interviews. Waiting for responses. Nothing else to report.  

ANA Y4 D297

Screaming

Couldn't sleep again last night. Tossed and turned from 10:30 until midnight. Got up until 1:30. Just stressed out. Got two rejections yesterday which didn't help my mood. I have one week until my onsite. I need this job, bad. I have to take it no matter what. Which is making me feel trapped. Made chinese pork for dinner. Watched tv. Froze my ass off. 

ANA Y4 D296

Head back.

As promised I didn't sit on my ass yesterday job wise. I applied to four new jobs, followed up on things. Nothing is done until it is done. I have one more week until my onsite. Things could change. It snowed here yesterday which really sucked. We had hoped to get outside, but nope. Made wraps for dinner. Watched a movie. 

ANA Y4 D295

Silence. Good.

The weather turned yet again. We tried to go for a walk because it said it was nice out. We failed to look at the 'feels like' which was 10 degrees less. The wind was biting and it was freezing. We barely made it 30 minutes. I felt bad for the dog, but fuck that. Today it will be back down in the low 30s. Are we done with this shit yet? Seriously.  I am over it already.

Did laundry. Made tuna for dinner. C's boss messaged last night and she might have to go into work today. We will see. I have one more week until my interview but I am still applying for shit until then. Nothing is solid until the dotted line is signed.