Scream
Another rough night. Tossed and turned. Woke up multiple times. Weird dreams. Hot then cold.
Weather stupid. Rain most of the day. Summer sucks. Only good season around here is fall. Is it fall yet? Didn't do much of anything. Okay with that. One week until I go to KY. This week should be uneventful. We shall see.
Silence. Was touch and go for a while though. I woke up a few times during the night. Sometimes they were screaming, sometimes quiet. The weather is dropping by 15-20 today and there is rain on the horizon. The pressure is all over the place.
Yesterday was rough. I had a million things to do and got zero reprieve from my head. Here's a list of everything I did yesterday:
That's probably not even everything I did, but that's still a hefty list. My head screaming the whole time. Around 7 C needed to run an errand and had me drive. I was just on edge the whole time. Everything was over stimulating me. I did somehow manage to record videos. Went to bed around midnight. Today I am doing NOTHING.
Back to screaming.
Was awakened at 3am by idiots shooting off fireworks. Tis that season. Morons.
LONG day yesterday. We ended up not going out. C had a BAD day. I had a boring as fuck day. Second day of vendor proposal/training. All I did all day was sit in a conference room for the last two days that could have 100% been done remotely. The whole point of this was for the vendor to pitch some bullshit software that my boss and I both know is bullshit but the non technical people are all excited about. It's a damn chatbot people, that's it.
We had indian last night. Went to bed. Taking car in for service this morning. Then grocery store.
Silence so far
Woke up around midnight to crazy thunder and lightning. Seems to have passed. Yesterday was all day meeting. I will elaborate more tomorrow after today's session. Made salmon for dinner.
Scream
The kid's grandpa passed away yesterday. I knew hom since I was 13. That's a long damn time ago. Must have been around 85 or so. Sad.
Was productive yesterday. Got a lot done at work which is good because today and tomorrow I am stuck in all day meetings. Made peanut lime shrimp for dinner. Streamed. Went to bed.
Scream
It kicked in yesterday too. During my 4 hour new employee bullshit. 30 people in a room. Forced socialization. Forced activity. It was hell. Pure HR and marketing hell. My social battery was drained after that.
It's hot. Real hot. Not happy.
Scream sigh
Had a productive Sunday. We did yard work together. Did C's laundry. Had pizza for dinner. Recorded some videos for the channel. Took a good nap. Home today, in the office all the rest of the week. Boo.
Back to screaming. Oh well.
I had one day of relief and I will take it. Had a very busy day yesterday. Got my hair did. Very happy. We did a new cut and style. I really like it. Did laundry. Cleaned the house. Recorded two videos for the channel. Made char sui pork for dinner. Went on a late night walk.
I reconnected with my old friend yesterday. He's had a lot of shit happen to him over the years, some good some sad. It was nice catching up. I am glad he is doing well. I am also glad he is supportive of me and my journey. You never know how someone is going to feel about things. Especially when they knew you in your old life. But it was nice.
Have to do C's laundry this morning. But that's the only task on the horizon.
Silence
And maybe I can hold it today. I don't have to drive anywhere except to my hair appointment. Maybe, just maybe I will get a full day of relief. Here's hoping.
Spent the day watching videos and learning software. On my way to a credential in it. The plumber also came. $510. BUT we do appear to finally have hot water again. I took a shower last night and had to turn it down! I am really hoping our problems with water are done. Live streamed. Paid bills. Went to the grocery store. Made burgers for dinner. Was a busy day while doing not a whole lot.
Excited for my hair appointment in 3 hours.
