ANA Y4 D318

Silence.

Yesterday was insane. We dealt with an ant invasion in the kitchen. I got all the paperwork from Dart but then an email saying they are working on the number so I am still in limbo. We took the dog for a walk and almost melted. Honestly I guess that's it? It just seemed way more intense when it was all going on. I really need to hear back today to know what the situation is. I am a ball of anxiety. I did go through all the paperwork and my benefits will be good. I will be on BCBS instead of UHC. But I can keep the same prescription service. More importantly, my monthly contribution towards insurance will go down $300 a month. The advantage of working for a big company. I was paying $400 out of pocket before and my new plan will be $122 a month. That makes up for some of the potential salary deficit. 80 hours of vacation in the first year, possibly more if they change the job tier to accomodate my salary. Same dental and vision plans, just cheaper. Tentative start date of 3/28 based on drug test and background check. I don't expect to have any issue with either of those. I just need to hear back today. I am going crazy.

ANA Y4 D317

Scream.

Well, I have good news and I have bad news. Good news, I got an offer. Bad news, it was WAY too low. Like 2009 numbers low. So I am technically in the negotiation phase. I am hoping to hear a revised number today. Even with the revised number I am not stopping my interviews with other companies. They are still offering more. We shall see what happens over the next 24-48 hours. 

ANA Y4 D316

Still screaming.

On the positive side, the weather is nice. We went on a three mile walk yesterday. Went out for fro-yo. Pulled out the blackstone for dinner. Something to be happy about. Did laundry. C had a hair appointment. Was a decent day except for my head. 

ANA Y4 D315

Back to screaming. I had a full 24 hours of silence. It was beautiful. But alas, here we are again.

Did laundry. Took dog for walk. Made a pork tenderloin for dinner.  

ANA Y4 D314

Silence.

For once I have real things to share. Had a fun time outside the house last night. We took a friend to K-pot for dinner. It wasn't horribly busy either which was nice. After dinner we came back here for cake and socializing. Was good to interact and have time away. Before we left though I got an email from yet another company wanting to do an interview next week. Nice way to end the week for sure! This means I now have three BIG companies interested in me. I can do this. I can make it. I have to make it. 

ANA Y4 D313

Silence.

Couldn't sleep. Went to bed around 10:30, got up 11:45, stayed up until 1:45. Did bills. Sat around all day stressed and waiting. This is my life and it's ending one minute at a time.

ANA Y4 D312

Still screaming still waiting. Nothing to do but stress. Nothing to do but go insane.

ANA Y4 D311

Scream.

Interview went well but...

They are a huge, old company. There will be at least two more rounds of interviews plus a case study round. Which means this will take weeks. I don't have weeks. I am running out of options. I am running out of money. It's a really good fit too. It's a perfect role for me. I just don't know if I can wait them out.

Made salmon for dinner. Whee. 

ANA Y4 D310

Scream. Which really sucks because I have another interview this morning. I was doing my daily applications and I applied for a job at The Hartford. Within two hours they had reached out for an interview. This is a job right up my alley. Something to get excited about. Director level, fully remote, solid company. I do not want to make a bad first impression. I have got to push down everything going on in my head. I need this fucking job. Like now.

ANA Y4 D309

Scream. It kicked back in around 10am yesterday and hasn't stopped. The mental dread of another monday? The impending doom on the horizon?

We had a slow morning and then headed to C's sister's around 1. Got there a little after 3 as we had to stop twice for the dog. Hung out until 8pm and got home around 10. It was a quiet time just visiting. Nothing exciting.

Please send me all the good vibes this week. I need them.