Y12 D250

 I do so enjoy these rare days where I can wake up without an alarm. Where I can sleep in until 7am and not feel guilt or that I have wasted the day. They've become a bit of a novelty for me. I can always tell the difference in my state too when I am allowed the privilege of sleeping in. My tinnitus isn't going full bore from the second I wake up. It's such a silly little thing but it's the difference between waking up already annoyed and waking up calm.

It's snowing out. Been snowing all night long. I'd say there's a good 2 inches or so outside on top of what was already there. Scheduled to keep snowing until noon then pick up again tonight. Going into Feb covered in snow.

Went to three grocery stores yesterday. Vape shop. Did laundry. Water change on big tank. Went over to our friend's place to do tech support on some smart switches he bought. Had lamb for dinner. Watched a little tv. Not a horribly exciting day, just sucked in the morning having to get up early for the store. Otherwise, pretty uneventful.

Going to enjoy today before the shit of next week. I only have three days of classes but they're big and full of non-technical morons. Going to be a lot of people unmuting and wanting to talk. This is going to be rough.

Y12 D249

 Up. Grocery store. Whee.

Got through my last day of teaching. Went until 4:30. Group was good. No issues.

Had spaghetti and meatballs for dinner. 

Went to bed.

Y12 D248

 Very tired this morning. Need more sleep please. Very cold too. It's in the teens outside. No more snow thankfully, but very cold. Correction, it's 12 outside. I just doublechecked. 12. That's cold. Too cold. No wonder I have a $200 DTE bill this morning. Whee.

From 9 - 6 I taught. Again, my whole day focused on one task unfortunately. Made salmon for dinner. By the time dinner was done and eaten, it was after 7pm. Not much else to do when it's that late. Next week will be worse as I have two days that are 11:30 - 7:30. Fuck salespeople who don't care about people's lives. Rat bastards.

I don't know what else is going on. Oh, I did think of something before I went to bed. I am trying these days to be a better human being. Just in general, you know? But I sometimes forget not everyone has a screwed up brain like I do. I want all of you to know something: I think about you. I am the worst at keeping up interpersonal relationships. I just am. I was reading how this is an issue with brains like mine. So remember that no matter who you are - my sister, my Socal friends, my Bay Area friends, my OR friends, my Australia, Canada, or UK friends - I think about you. I hope you're doing well and that life hasn't beaten you down. I care about your wellbeing and happiness even if I don't say it out loud often enough. That's all.

Y12 D247

 I was having the weirdest fucking dream when I woke up. I had to draw a murder room for a job interview as a mechanical drafting engineer. But at some point it had turned into a food competition and there was a bowl of beets and all this was after I had been considered for a job where I would be making fruit crisps all day and all of that was when I was in a mall to find a box of replacement hair color because mine had turned out wrong after dying it. WTF? Yes, I had to stream of thought that because that was how it went in my dream. Go brain go.

Day three with my rough group. Surprisingly it was the easiest of the three days in some ways. I think that of the three parts of the tool this was the one they felt most comfortable in and they were able to keep up better. It was still a long day but it went much smoother with less frustration. Didn't finish until almost 6 again unfortunately. Had soup and grilled cheese for dinner. Helped B on some fish stuff. Answered like 20 emails that kept creeping in. Went to bed. 

Two more days, different group, different tool. I need a break already but have another week like this one next week. Good times. Maybe I should go make fruit crisps.

Y12 D246

 Yesterday's class drained so much out of me that when it was done I went into the bedroom just to flop on the bed and ended up falling asleep for 30 minutes. I was just physically and emotionally drained. Like done. I have 5 students total. One can't use the chat window, one is just not paying attention, 2 are okay, and then there's the last one. They are just so far over their head it's not even funny. But the problem is their hardware is so inadequate for this material I can't even see their screen. They were so frustrated yesterday and I know it's going to come back on me, but the simple truth is that unless I can see what you're doing, how am I supposed to help you? I have one more day with this group and today is the hardest of the three. Thursday and Friday are with a different group and different software so hopefully I will be back on more stable ground. Hopefully.

It snowed from like 11pm until about 3pm yesterday. Caused three of my deliveries to be rescheduled. I understand in a case like this. We didn't get our driveway cleared until almost 6pm. Luckily we won't get any more until the weekend. Another 3-4 inches should come down in the next week. Speaking of snow, the kid sent me a pic at 11pm, it's snowing where she is. Woo! Snow for everyone.

Let's talk about Papa Joe. That man has done more in one week (positive things mind you) than the orange one did in a year. Ironically, one of his policies is on par with something stupidhead tried. The difference is the approach, the language, and the message conveyed. That's what man-baby could never understand. You don't have to beat people with your message if you approach it from the right direction. Of course there are tantrums being thrown about impeachment of tangerine head. He needs to just be jailed and this madness can end. Some day, some day.

Okay, here we go. Day three of 10. Deep breath.

Y12 D245

 It's been snowing all night. Still going. It's supposed to snow until about 6pm. Finally getting a good dump. Only took until almost Feb. Sheesh. There's at least 2-3 inches out there already with the same predicted. Of course I have like four packages coming today. Let's see how delayed they get. 

Yesterday was a shit show. My class was rough but tolerable. At least it would have been tolerable if it weren't for the side issues going on. The classes I am teaching M-W this week were last minute add-ons due to a private client. As such, the public classes I was supposed to teach T-W got pushed off to our side instructor who is just useless some times. They drive me nuts for multiple reasons. But in this situation they must have sent 20 emails during the day with questions and issues. The big issue was one of the students didn't have the right software and was expecting us to give them a license like we could magically pull them out of our ass or something. I ended up having to get on a call at 5pm AFTER my class had finished to deal with the issue. This ended up making it a very long day for me. By the time I was finally done it was after 6pm and I was just hangry as heck. 

Given the times and length of everything yesterday, that was my day. When work eats up your life from 8am to 6pm, not much time for anything else, now is there?

The world is still standing and heading down a better path thankfully. Let's see how long this continues.

Y12 D244

 I am so annoyed right now. I misread my phone when I got up. I though I beat my alarm by 2 minutes. Nope. Try one hour and two minutes. I could have slept for an entire additional hour. Ugh. Good job dumbass. If my class started early I would be more excited. Nope. I have 5 hours until class starts. Well 4.5 but still. Sigh. 

The pandemic has reached my dreams btw. I had a dream last night I was out and people were flat out not wearing masks or wearing them without covering their nose. Lovely. I guess my brain was reflecting on what I saw earlier in the day at the grocery store? I am glad I went to the store early. Around 11 the sky just dumped. A couple of inches of snow came out of nowhere from 11 until about 4. Enough snow that our guy came around 9pm to shovel. Scared the crap out of me when he got here. He told me he would be back Tuesday because over night from mon to tues, six inches are coming. I don't know whether to be excited or scared. Little of both I feel. 

Got groceries, did the final loads of laundry remaining, played video games, had pizza for dinner (B picked it up, the snow was done by then).

Listened to a podcast yesterday where the kid was one of the guests. It's a fashion industry podcast and she was talking about the t-shirt industry. Very informative stuff. The overall podcast was way too long though and I didn't like the host. 

Starting today I am going for 10 days straight. This week is 9-5 basically all week. Smaller groups than last week but still. This is going to be stressful. But I believe in me. I have to, I mean who else would?

Y12 D243

 Grocery day. Up at 4am. Fun times.

Got a good deal of stuff accomplished yesterday. Multiple laundry loads including towels, rugs, and a blanket. Did some fish stuff and axie stuff for B. Manicure. Eyebrow trimming. Cleaned upstairs. Made pork chops for dinner. Was happy at how they were cooked, but wasn't happy with the choice of rub I used. I ended up having to scrape it off. Too powerful. But the sous vide did its job and they were cooked perfect edge to edge once more. Watched a little tv.

Not much to report. To the grocery store Robin!

Y12 D242

 I done did sleeping in this morning! Yay me! 9 hours of sleep. Much needed sleep too. Man did I really deserve and need that kind of rest. Feeling well rested this morning. I told you, no grocery store this morning. Screw that. Need a break.

Got something major accomplished yesterday for work. Took about 5 hours as predicted. Completely revamped a class. Consolidated down data sets, combined two sets of ppt and doc into a single one of each. Removed duplicate demos. Very happy with the results. This should make teaching this class much easier. That was the bulk of my day.

B took one of the cats to the vet and when they got back I helped her out with furminating the cat. We took advantage of the cat being on drugs to get this done. Otherwise we would have never been able to brush her. Did some utility laundry (rugs, towels). Watched some TV. Played some video games. Made open faced italian sausage sandwiches for dinner.

Paid bills. Mortgage is paid for another month. Speaking of our mortgage, my bank guy reached out. He thinks he can shave another point of our rate. Plus he is going to run numbers for me on a 22 and 25 year. If I refi at 25 that will put me ahead a couple of years from when we started. Even if my payment stays the same, dropping it from 3.16 to 2 something will save me thousands over the remainder of the schedule. Plus the extra couple of years off would be nice. It is two years off, right? I got the first mortgage in 2018 so that would have been 2048, if I refi in 2021 at 25 years, that will be 2046 so yeah, two years knocked off. If I do a 22, then that's another 3 years taking it to 2043 so 5 from the original. 2% mortgages. Look, if you can take advantage of that right now, I would seriously encourage you to do so. Never forget that in 1981 rates were 18%. Heck even in the 90s if you got 6 or 7 you were doing good. But 2??? Sweet bejeebies. 

No plans for today. Some more laundry. Manicure. Doing sous vide pork chops for dinner. Got a couple of packages in bound. I bought B's birthday/anniversary/valentine's day presents yesterday. Got her a serger for making quilts as the main gift. I got one that was $100 off normal price. That's a huge amount. Plus I got her a little mushroom necklace and patches for her jacket. She wants a new tattoo once we can and that will be one of her gifts too. Just need to be able to be in person somewhere. Soon hopefully. I am watching the vaccine website like a hawk. As soon as we're eligible, I am making appointments.

In world news, Papa Joe has been kicking it so far. The orange one is in hiding and Grandpa Bernie and his mittens are all the rage with the kids these days. A much more sane world. That I can handle.

Oh, almost forgot! I got a nice treat in the mail yesterday. My marketing team sent me a $25 Amazon gift card for helping them out with the webinar I did. They know I am super busy right now and that doing the webinar was an added task. To show their appreciation, they sent along a card. Very cool. I do appreciate it and will put it to good use.

See how much more eloquent and fluid I am when I have had sufficient sleep? Enjoy your day people.

Y12 D241

 Well someone's been a busy little President, now haven't they? In two days Papa Joe has done more positive things than cheeto did in the last year. I'm sure there are plenty out there who see him as being a 'bleeding heart' or stepping on their supposed constitutional rights, but I personally like the federal mask mandates. Especially the one for planes, trains, and busses. Oh and the fact that we rejoined WHO and the Paris Accord. You know, common fucking sense things to be part of these days. Just sayin'. 

Yesterday was super rough for me. 19 people which in of itself isn't the problem. It was the variation in skillset that made it rough. You have the really fast, really sharp person who is getting bored because Dolores over here can't figure out which mouse button is the right one. Okay, maybe not quite that bad, but pretty close given the material. Plus there were technical issues, machines that were way too slow and underpowered for this work, people with shitty internet and mic connections, etc. We were two hours behind all day and out of 14 modules, I made it through 11. Compared to the last time I taught this class, I made it through 13 modules. I will say that the people themselves weren't bad in anyway (except 1), it was just a very stressful day. But I got through it. Finished around 6pm again.

Made mac & cheese for dinner. Watched some TV. Helped B with some backpain she was having. Helped with the axies. Went to bed.

Today is payday so need to deal with that first. Then I have some modifications to the material from things discovered this week. Should only take me four or five hours to fix that and then I can relax for the rest of the day and enjoy my weekend. No plans for the weekend thankfully. Just going to sit at home and do nothing. Supposed to snow. We shall see.

Y12 D240

 Yesterday at 11:53am EST I got to watch history being made. Not only did the first woman be inaugurated as VP, but the first black south asian woman at that. This was followed by the end of 4 long years of hate, anger, and buffoonish child like behavior. Don't let the screen door hit you in the ass on the way out. Even down to the last moment it acted like a spoiled child. From not attending the inauguration (the first president to not do so in over 150 years), to using a song about a spoiled child skipping out on the Vietnam war (Fortunate Son, CCR) at its own "farewell" ceremony. Irony much you idiot? I have never been happier to see someone go away and hopefully fade away. My skin has cleared, my crops have swelled, and a grey pallor has been lifted from the horizon. Now for all his sycophant followers to crawl back to their graves. Time for the "Proud" ones and the "Bugaboo" ones to go away. Or better, jailed and never heard from again. The pride and joy I saw on faces yesterday while watching the ceremonies will stay with me forever. No, things will not be magically better overnight. I am not stupid. But we've already rejoined the Paris Accord and have a mandate for masks in federal buildings. Not bad for 12 hours in office. The well wishes from foreign leaders was wonderful to see as well. As I told one of my canadian friends, it's no longer an embarrassment having us as their downstairs neighbor.  May the next four years be solid and true. May we all survive them and come out better people. 

Yes, I taught while watching the ceremonies. I warned my class that I would be distracted because history is more important than bullshit data modeling. Most of them were also watching and fully understood. I have no shame or regrets for doing what I did. I did teach all day. Finished again around 6pm. Had fish and chips for dinner. Watched some TV. Played some video games. Went to bed. I did have one of the best rounds of virtual golf. Check this:

Yeah that's right. 3 Hole in Ones on one round. 8 eagles. 9 birdies. Boom.

One more day of insane proportions. 19 again today. It's going to be another long day.

Y12 D239

 Today is the day!! At noon EST today the ceremony is scheduled to begin and the past four years of the reign of the cheeto can be in theory behind us. The scars and damage done by this administration will not heal quickly nor will his ilk fade away overnight, but now we can move forward. It won't change the fact that were still under vaccinated, people are still dying, and piece of shit racists still walk among us unfortunately. But hey, we will rejoin the Paris Accord, hopefully provide stimulus to more people, and not be subjected to blatant lies and spoiled tantrums on a daily basis. So there's that. Of course there are still 6 hours left so who knows what kind of bullshit might happen. 

Yesterday was rough for me. I ended up with 19 students total. BIG class with varying skill levels. Luckily it is an engaged, excited group of people. I was able to work with them and have fun even if it was draining and tiring. 9 of them will be in today's class, then we go back up to 15 on Thursday. Today should be smoother. We shall see. I didn't finish until nearly 6pm last night. Ate dinner (chicken soup B made), watched a tiny amount of TV, and literally collapsed in bed. 

B's friend had their bearded dragon pass yesterday. Chief was 13 years old. Very sad day. It's always sad when you lose a companion you've had for nearly half of your life. Plus in recent times this person has lost their grandfather, another animal companion, and dealt with testing positive. B tried to offer support but with distancing and mask restrictions, it's hard. Still, she was able to give him some of the soup and offer what condolences she could. People don't realize I think how important pets are to keeping a solid state of mind right now. The cats drive me nuts, but I couldn't imagine not having them during this last year. It would have been much worse to handle.

Three hours until class starts. I'm hungry. Maybe make a nice egg sandwich.

Y12 D238

 Took the car in for its last service yesterday morning. The lease is up in July and I will get rid of it probably in March or April. Therefore, this was the last service I had to worry about. I had them do just the bare minimum to keep it good. I warned them in advance that this would be the last service so don't tell me about things like the cabin filter or other optional stuff. I got out of there for $45 and in 37 minutes. Not too shabby. I decided that since the rest of the week is going to be hell, I would take the morning to myself. I came back, took a nice nap, and just lounged until about noon. Then I prepped for my afternoon class. My six Indians from Friday had a half a days worth of material left. Only five of them bothered to show up. Gee, thanks. Got through the day. They are behind me once more. 

Made tacos for dinner. Started a new show with Nick Helm called Loaded. Not quite as good as Uncle, but pretty good regardless. British shows for the win. Played some video games, went to bed. 

Now comes three days of hell. Oversold classes. 18+ people depending on the day. Material that is far from perfect. This is going to suck. Just need to make it through the week. I can do it. I believe in me.

One more day until we evict the orange one. The next couple of days might be either very scary or very boring. Let's hope for the latter.

Y12 D237

 Two more days. Can we make it? Can we hold on? The number of arrests they have made in DC so far is crazy. One guy walking down the street with a semi-automatic weapon, extra rounds and he says oops it was an accident, I forgot I had those. Or the lady who showed a silver coin and pretended to be a law enforcement officer AND a member of the administration. Yeah. Okay. Thank goodness we don't live near the capitol here. Nut jobs. I just don't understand how they are so convinced they're in the right. That's the part that gets me. Could you be any more blatantly racist, idiotic, and foolish? Ugh. Stupid people abound.

Did a big water change on the big tank. Touched up my hair. Got stuff for dinner we ended up not using. B had a craving for Taco Bell so we had Taco Bell. Whatever. Not the end of the world. Not much else done. Played video games. Finished Far Cry 5, started New Dawn. Same game, same world, different bad guys. We finished watching Uncle. REALLY good show. We both loved how it ended. I wish there were more than three seasons. The kid in that show will one day go on to make a great Doctor Who. He is perfect for it. 

Car service this morning. Then a 1-5pm class. Then T-Th, 9:30 - 5:30 bullshit teaching 18 people a day PBI. Not looking forward to the rest of this week for sure. But take it one day at a time. It's all we can do right now.

Y12 D236

 Had two very weird dreams last night. One was scary and caused me to wake up at 1am stressed. Alien body snatcher type dream. Very not cool. The second one I went from being the CEO of a new company that created this new product to being in an airport to being in Japan. Weird AF. Nothing bad in the second one just weird.

Grocery store excursion yesterday morning. Got everything we need. Made stew for dinner. The axies got moved into a new tank finally. We got a cycled tank, yay! It was supposed to snow all weekend but we haven't had anything. Some freezing rain on Friday and that's it. It did look like some flakes this morning but nothing is sticking. Didn't really do much of anything else yesterday. Pretty boring day in general.

Three days until the transfer of office. Three days where something can still go wrong. A nation holds its breath.

Y12 D235

 I really hated the group I taught yesterday. I gave up trying to have any kind of conversation with them like three hours in. They were the worst. You want to know what's wrong with my industry? Here's the names of who I taught yesterday:

- Jitendra
- Ram
- Ramya
- Venkat
- Vinod
- Rakesh

See the trend?? Plus over half of them were LITERALLY in India. 10.5 hour time difference. It was 2am for most of them when we finished. But the bigger problem was half of them didn't want to be there at all (we already know everything), the cultural difference, and the language difference all made for a fucked up 8 hours of my life. Fuck them and fuck this client in general.

So yeah, that was my day. Made mini-waffles, eggs, and bacon for dinner. Helped B do some work on her island. Finished the book I have been reading. Goal for 2021 is 12 books. 1 down. Have at least 4 on the shelf to go. 

The world is still burning. We've got a redneck piece of shit wanting a pardon because he thinks he is a shaman. We've got less than a week until the orange one vacates and they're already stealing the furniture. No, really.

I'm off to the grocery store. Pray I don't just lose it completely today.

Y12 D234

 Rough sleep last night. Was super dry due to the expected snow coming this weekend. I woke myself up at one point with my dry mouth. That's when you know it's bad. Plus weird ass dreams. Of course they're all lost to my morning brain but at the time it was odd. I do remember one of them there was something about temperature and how it was 1100 degrees outside. Yeah, that's not good. I have been reading this book which has some huge natural disasters in it so that probably influenced that dream. 

Did a webinar yesterday. Went over well. Couple hundred people all listening to me go blah blah blah. It wasn't anything exciting but made marketing happy. That's all that matters sometimes. Also worked on organizing 2021 materials. New PPT template for the new year. Whoop. 

Made honey soy chicken thighs on rice with fresh broccoli for dinner. That came out better than anticipated. 

Have a full day of teaching idiots today. It's the internal group for the ones I really don't like. I can't pronounce a single name of the students who are going to be on this class. Lovely. But it's Friday and if I make it through the day it will be the weekend. I will be teaching pretty much solid from here on out until Feb so the weekend has some meaning for once. Man I just wish I could travel again. I need to get out of this damn house. I need to be somewhere else. Anywhere else. I might take a drive this weekend. I don't know where, just somewhere.

Y12 D233

 I had a really bad dream last night. I was in a mall and a cacodemon from doom was chasing. Yeah, the round ball guys. Not a lovely thing to have chasing you for sure. I am sure there's some symbolism in that but lost on me for sure. I did kill it with what looked like a tv remote but it was pretty unnerving. Yay dreams. The heavily smudged, dirt covered window of the soul.

So, who here's been impeached TWICE. Oh, just you? Must suck to be you. Now don't go throwing a tantrum and try to blow us all up or ban any other countries like you did to Cuba the other day. Just go and hide for six days you spoiled man-child. Go now, shoo. What a time to be alive. This impacted my class yesterday. A couple of my students were having trouble following along because they were watching the news at the same time as trying to pay attention to me. Hey, I get it. I even let them go to lunch five minutes early to watch the proceedings. Totally understandable. Other than that, class went fine and we finished up around 4:20. Now I get a break before another private training with a group of assholes. I also got word that I will be doing three weeks back to back without a break. Every day for the next three weeks I will have a class. Fuck me. I have a webinar to deliver today but otherwise this is my only break until Feb 8th. I am going to be tired and cranky come then. Upside is I will be fully billable and no one can say I am not earning my keep. Need. Raise. Now. If Feb and March are similar, I will be asking for a raise at the end of the quarter. Once again my coworker and I are the ones keeping things humming. I know she is booked solid for the next few weeks as well. This is a good thing, just tiring.

Had Qdoba for dinner last night because neither of us wanted to cook. It was actually quite tasty. I am very surprised with how much better it is here than it was in OR. The one in OR was just awful. This one is not so bad. 

That's all that's going on for me right now. Time to check the news and either laugh, get angry, or both. Both is probably about right.

Y12 D232

 I don't know what's going on this morning. Not in a bad way, just kind of out of it. Not tired. I actually woke up before my alarm by 2 minutes. I'm just kind of apathetic to the concept of being awake? Yeah, that sums it up.

Taught all day. Finished around 4. Three students, all good. No issues or problems with any of them. It's a tough, technical class this time around but everyone got through it with no problems. That was the majority of my day. Found time to read. Had leftover soup and grilled cheese. Watched some TV. Honestly that's about it. The state of the world hasn't changed much. One week until we have newly elected leadership. In the meantime we have the threat of violence hanging in the air. Both from the current powers and the minions on the local level. That's always a good time. So tired of people. Is my cave in the woods available? Please?

Y12 D231

 Been awake for a while but just laid in bed because I knew it was too early to get up. I woke up around 4:45 and just laid there until the alarm went off. I don't know. I just didn't feel like getting up yet. 

Semi-productive day yesterday. Had a good working session with my colleagues where we walked through our new litmos system we will be using to distribute materials to our students. It was a practical use of time. We finished up around 4:30. Had leftovers for dinner. Watched Uncle. Read. I am trying to carve out more time for reading this year. So far so good. I am really enjoying the book I am reading which makes a difference. What day is it? Tuesday I think. I have a class today and tomorrow. So yeah, it must be Tuesday. No, no joke about Belgium today. 

The world is getting rather interesting out there. Threats of violence at all 50 capitol buildings between now and the 20th. This is going to be one long week, isn't it? I expect it here because of the number of idiots. Some states will go unscathed I feel as there were less idiots protesting but states like MI, AZ, GA, FL - I expect to see some scary shit. Hold on to your hats kids, it ain't over yet.

Y12 D230

 Monday has come around again. Joy.

Video game Sunday. My equivalent of "sports day" I guess. I got pretty far in FC5. I am through 2 of the siblings and halfway through the last. Soon it will be time to take on the father. I am trying to do as many of the side missions as well because I do enjoy those. I have 8 left in one region and 12 left in another. Don't know how many in the 3rd yet because still on main missions in that region. I am enjoying it enough that I am that far into it. Says something about the game. Still have 114 left to go through at least once. 

I really didn't do much of anything else yesterday. Didn't leave the house. I steamed the floors in the kitchen, helped B make potato soup for dinner. We watched some TV together. I read a bit in one of my new books I got for Christmas. Enjoying that - All the Birds in the Sky. Really good. 

Otherwise, nothing exciting going on. The world is pretty much the same as it was. More and more morons being arrested for committing acts of violence. More and more stupid people not understanding why they're in trouble. Here's hoping today the leaders act in an appropriate way and push forward the impeachment. With 9 days left, article 25 is out the window. But if they can put a supreme court judge on the bench in 8 days, they can impeach this fucker in 9. Failure to do so sends the wrong message completely. I really do fear for what the 20th looks like here. One more milestone we have to hit before we can truly put the last 4 years behind us. Let's see how that goes.

Three days of teaching this plus a 3 hour team work session today and a webinar on Thursday. Full week. Good.

Y12 D229

 You know what I'm enjoying? Watching the idiots from Wednesday getting caught and watching them freak out that their lives are now ruined as they get charged with federal crimes. "'I didn't think they would eat MY face' says the person who voted for the cheetahs eat your face party'. I wish people would stop equating this to BLM protests. "But they burned and looted things!!" There's a big difference between storming the fucking Capitol and storming a Target. One is a billion dollar a year corporation and the other is Target. What? I'm fucking hilarious. In all seriousness, what did they think would happen? We're talking about old white people. Had the morons succeeded in burning or destroying the votes, they would have been "heroes" but you didn't. Ya fucked up and now you're going to jail. Of course the very same people who sent you in there are going to turn on you. Generals gathered in their masses, just like witches at black masses. Maybe you need to remember the rest of the lyrics to that song? Maybe this verse in particular:

Politicians hide themselves away
They only started the war
Why should they go out to fight?
They leave that role to the poor.

Never forget that morons. You are pawns. Kings and queens hide. Pawns die. The best part to me is that these are federal crimes. No more voting. No more getting a job. You're fucked. Have you also noticed the states they're from primarily? AR, AZ, AL, FL. Not the sharpest crayons in the box coming out of those places to begin with. Enough of that. On to more relevant things.

I got a shit ton done before 9am yesterday. Went to two grocery stores for all the groceries. Gave myself a manicure. Did the dishes. Did laundry. Touched up my hair. Finished the fishing tourney in ACNH. Planned out dinner. I was pretty happy with everything I got done in the morning. Took a nice nap. Made steaks for dinner, went to PetSmart after dinner for some stuff for B, played video games, and went to bed. A nice productive Saturday for sure. Today nothing is planned. B is going to make us soup. I don't know what kind, but it means leftovers and I am okay with that. I don't have anywhere to go today and will enjoy lounging around in sweatpants all day. I am trying to allow myself that freedom on weekends. If I don't have to go anywhere, why do I need to get all uncomfortable in my clothing? It's a small thing, but will help improve my mood. I do find my anxiety slowly coming back down to a manageable level now that things seems to be stabilizing. Of course I did read yesterday that Kim Jong Butthole is going to ramp up his nuclear program again because cheeto will be no more. Lovely. Just when I thought things were getting better. Oh well. At least that's a threat I can wrap my head around. Unlike some moron from Alabama stealing a podium. That's too surreal for me. Duh'merica. Long live.

Y12 D228

 Is it just me or does everyone have a toothpaste issue? What I mean is, you're in the bathroom brushing you teeth and you're like 'oh, I am getting low on toothpaste, I should buy a new tube'. You buy one and then SIX FUCKING MONTHS LATER you're still on that original tube. There just always seems to be one more squeeze out of the old one. But you don't dare wait to buy new toothpaste because the one time you decide to push it, there will be no more one last squeeze. Sigh. Toothpaste. 

And now we return you to your regularly scheduled end of the world...

The orange one has been banned from the tweeter. Wah wah. It's about fucking time. I do so love all the assholes trying to claim free speech. Not what that means idiot. My favorite shit from yesterday is all of the morons claiming that cheeto's "concession" speech was a deepfake created by AI. Um, you obviously don't work with computers do you? Go watch Mandalorian if you want to see what that would have looked like. No I am not spoiling. It's been two months. I'm outside the spoiler window. 

What else is going on, hmm. Oh yeah, he will probably be impeached a second time. Double wah wah. If you think that's not an important thing to do, remember this: if he is impeached a second time it costs him:

• lifetime 200k per year pension
• lifetime secret service
• 1m a year travel expense account
• and most importantly, he can never hold another federal office

Yeah, worth it in my book.

As for me, I taught day two. Good group. We got through the material. I showed them some extra stuff, answered some questions and sold them on additional training. Well done all around. For dinner we had chinese food and then took B to urgent care.

Wait, what? Yep, you read that right. She was having kidney pain and it was bad enough for us to spend time in the urgent care. Technically she went in, I had to wait in the car. COVID and all. Because lest any of us forget, it's still out there killing people. I know, it's easy to forget, but it's still a-happening. Anyway, no infection, pulled muscle or muscle spasm in the kidney region. Take drugs, go to bed. That was the verdict. Ok. That's what we did. We came home, she had some flexerall and went to bed. We will see how she's doing today.

Today is groceries and laundry. My version of GTL - groceries, tired, laundry. Look out, here comes the excitement train.

Y12 D227

 Last I checked, that thing was still holding office. Lots of bluster from lots of people, but no action. That's a shame. I don't care if it's 12 days or 200 days. He must be held accountable for his actions. Same goes for "Florida Man" who stole the podium. Does anyone else remember the executive action enacted last year that stated any destruction to a federal building is an automatic 10 year sentence? Let's see how many WHITE people involved in this week's shenanigans face that. That act was put in place specifically to target BLM protestors would be a shame if it backfired in their faces and was used against "patriots" gosh golly. Oh and for those of you who never understood why 4 years ago most of us were in tears at the state of the world while you all cried "they're the same it won't matter if I vote", go fuck yourself. Would things have been great under her? Probably not, but we sure as fuck wouldn't have had a fucking coup. Done. Done with all of you complacent, blind, old, stubborn, white people  men. 

Speaking of that, I was thinking last night of people and things I have left behind in my life. I often wonder if that's just the psychopath portion of my brain. I hear about people who still talk to their friends from 20 or 30 years ago and I am puzzled. Especially when these same people complain about the people they've stayed in touch with all these years. If you don't like them, if they don't fit into your life now, why? Part of it for me is just time and distance. I've never been good at maintaining social relationships in general, but the other part is like just confused. For example, why would I want to maintain a relationship with my father when he is one of them? I don't need that in my life. Or why would I want to talk to the person I went to college with now? We have nothing in common any more, we live thousands of miles apart, and there's just no point. Then again, I'd be happy just living here in my dark room and not talking to anyone ever again. But hey, that's just me.

Taught from 10-6 yesterday. Two students but both are sharp and good. I should be able to finish up early with them today. No issues on that front. I did have some bothering from our admin. Some client got a hold of their email and was asking all these questions. Instead of just passing it along to one of us, they tried to play middleman. In the end I had to respond directly at 7pm. Pain in the ass.

Made moco loco for dinner last night. Came out pretty good in my opinion. Nice change of pace from regular meals. Since today was payday (and all the bills are paid), tonight is Chinese food. Going to the same place we went to at Christmas. I am excited about that for sure! Damn good food. Yeah, that's my life. I am excited about a meal happening 12 hours from now. 

Go me.

Y12 D226

 Normally I read the news after I have made my daily post. Not today. There was too much at stake and I need this entry to be as accurate as possible. Yesterday we saw a coup attempt in our country. Domestic terrorists stormed the Capitol, destroyed property, and attempted to overthrow the democratic process of the US. Any headline that isn't that blatant is a lie. This was a coup attempt plain and simple. Four people are dead as of this morning. This was a disgusting shameful act egged on and supported by a delusional tin pot dictator. He should be removed from office and held for treason. It was a shameful 14 hours of this country's already tarnished reputation. I am embarrassed to be living in a country that would allow this type of person to remain even if it is only 2 weeks. We were the laughing stock of the entire world yesterday. Adjustment Day had arrived. 

As of 4am EST, the elected officials had finished their job with many of the republicans finally backing down and not trying to thwart the process. We finally have a new leader. While he won't be the savior we all are hoping for, he sure as hell won't be what we've had for the last four years - a lying, thieving, manipulator. May all of his supporters who engaged in treason yesterday get what they deserve. Be that judicially or through the power of karma. I have stated it before and will emphatically state it now: if you are one of the people who directly or indirectly allowed this clown to take office 4 years ago or seem to think he continues to belong in office, never, ever, speak to me again. You are part of the problem. May god have mercy on your soul. Because I sure as fuck don't. 

In better news, GA came through. We would like to all say hello to Senate MINORITY leader Palpatine. Saw a great joke yesterday; a Jew and a black guy walk into the senate and tell Mitch to sit the fuck down. Preach. Maybe now things can get accomplished. Step one, rejoin the Paris accord. Step two, speed up vaccines. Step 3, get all the money. No wait. That's underpants gnomes. 

I went to the eye doctor yesterday. All is good. .25 change to my script which is not unexpected. Right what I figured it would to be. Eye health is good. 

Came home, recorded material for B, had meeting with my boss, watched the coup. Ever wonder why people my age are afraid to turn off the tv? We started with Kennedy getting his head blown off and we've been afraid to turn it off ever since. Yesterday was proof in the pudding. I will say Twitter at least shut off his account for 12 hours and is threatening a permanent ban. Zuckerberg has his head too far up either his own ass or Cheeto's ass to do the same. Old Vlad was probably having a laugh last night. 

I played more FC5 last night. Talk about an appropriate game for the moment. I have never enjoyed taking out bad guys as much as I did last night. 

Two days of classes remaining. Then it's the weekend. Groceries on Saturday unfortunately. But I will take a nice nap for sure.

Y12 D225

 I beat my alarm by 8 minutes this morning. Mostly because I slept like shit last night. I had a rough time falling asleep, kept waking up. Too hot, too cold, cats in my way, blanket issues, B's phone light, ears bugging me, too many thoughts - you name it, I kept waking up all night long. Bleh.

Did some recording yesterday. Finally got the green light to move ahead on a class I have been slowly doing on the side anyway. Lucky for me I have been because now we have a client who wants it by next week. I will be able to finish my portion by midday today and hand it off to B. Also answered a ton of emails. Everyone back in the office playing catchup. I still haven't really had a chance to do that myself. I have a bunch of little stuff to knock out. Hopefully today because I am busy tomorrow and Friday. 

Made tacos for dinner. Watched TV, played games, attempted to go to bed. Such is my life.

Now to go see if GA let us down. Plus today is the scariest day of this whole election process. I am going to be on edge all day until things are either in flames or officially over. God help us all.

Y12 D224

I've never understood the whole desire of facetime or video chat with someone. I really don't want to see you. Just a concept I don't get. What brought that on? I was looking at something on Amazon and there was an echo 8 on sale and it's like oh look, we can video chat with grandma! Fuck that. I don't want to see anyone while I am talking to them. I know that makes me the outlier in this situation, but whatever. Just a thought from my head.

Anyhoo...

Had my first day back to work. It went better than previous sessions from this particular group. I think because both me and the rep from the originating company made a clear statement at the start of class of what will and will not be covered in this session. Unfortunately at least 5 people missed it because they showed up late. From that perspective I was annoyed at this group. I know it was the first day back for people, but it still annoyed me. Mostly because they weren't even apologetic about it. They just came in late and started asking stupid questions. I did snap at one by saying well if you had shown up on time you would already know that answer. Suck it bitches. Also, I was supposed to have 18 max and 22 showed. I spent the first 15 minutes of the day kicking people off. I have a limited number of logins to my server not to mention the performance hit. Buh-bye now. Once we got settled in, we did fine and managed to finish up about 4:25pm. I spent another hour after answering emails that came in during the day. Fun stuff.

We made pasta for dinner. Just some rotini with veggies in a vodka sauce. Very acceptable and resulted in leftovers.

I finally had two packages that were supposed to be here by the 24th arrive yesterday. Thanks for nothing. Look, I can be frustrated and angry at USPS as an entity, and still like my local delivery person. I am annoyed at how behind they are and still have one more package unaccounted for in the great nether. Annoying. 

Watched some TV, watched some videos on B's phone. I am trying to understand her fascination with Tik Tok, but nope. Most of it is just stupid as hell to me. I guess we all get our 15 seconds of fame these days?

Been playing Far Cry 5. Given the situation in the US right now, it's hitting very close to home dealing with fanatics and lunatics. Speaking of that, don't let us down today GA! Do your duty!

Admin stuff today. Setup for an upcoming webinar, new private class in Feb, that kind of stuff. How yesterday should have been.

Y12 D223

 And the work week starts. I just went through my list of classes for this month and it looks like as of right now they are all happening. This is good. 13 out of 20 days I am solid and booked. I can handle that. Some of them have just 2 or 3 people, but a couple are in the 15-18 people range. Makes for a good January. Nobody to bother me hopefully. Today I have 18 from the financial industry. This is the only day I am 'worried' about because people from this group in the past have been challenging to say the least.

As planned, I didn't do a lot yesterday. It snowed heavy in the morning and I ventured out to the store at the start of it. Got some groceries for the week. Mostly produce as it's the one thing I can't buy too far in advance around here or it just goes to waste. I was the only one out on the road for the most part thankfully as it was slipping and sliding time. Even our plow guy came last night and shoveled the driveway. I think mostly because he's felt bad that he hasn't had to do it yet. He owes me 10 between Dec and March and this is the first one and it's already Jan. B says that if he hadn't have done it, the driveway would have frozen over. It's supposed to be above freezing the next few days so meh on that one to me.

Made coconut chicken for dinner. Watched some TV. Played Far Cry 5. Still pissy about having to create an Ubisoft account, but the game's story is pretty good. A little too close to home in some respects and I can see how when it came out it caused some stir. 

I am very nervous about this week. Especially since cheeto decided to try and bully, beg, cajole, intimidate, and pretty much every other illegal word you can think, the poor folks in GA. He should be in jail right now for the phone call he had with the voting people in GA. Disgusting. Will he go down as the first president to not concede that he lost? Will he throw a tantrum up until the last moment? I am nervous about Tuesday and Wednesday this week. Tuesday because of the runoff elections in GA and Wednesday because of the spoiled babies who plan to hold up and disrupt the electoral process. It's a spectacle and a waste of time for all. Treason is what it is and what it should be called. They all should be fired and sent to jail. Mostly I am worried because the orange one keeps calling to his base to protest. The reason no one ever shot him during these four years is that the kind of person who would do that sort of thing is in his base, not the other side. Which also makes me scared for 1/21. What kind of nonsense will these idiots get up to? It's going to be a rough January.

Time to start a server and pretend like I care. Gee, it's good to be back at work.

Y12 D222

 I need to rant about something for a moment. I really hate when video game companies force you to create an account on their stupid social website in order to play a damn game that I bought from Steam. I get it if I bought the game directly from them, but to make me have a separate account on a site I'm never going to use, pisses me off. Yesterday I finished the first Bioshock. Really enjoyed that for what it's worth. I then decided to switch genres and tried playing RDRII. First thing was Rockstar made me create an account for their site "for online play and socializing". Two things I will NEVER fucking do. I go through all the steps, finally get the game loaded and I fucking hate it. Here's my second gripe - I can always tell when a game was made for console first. Autosave versus save anywhere is usually the first giveaway. Then a control scheme that was obviously meant for a controller and is kludgy at best on a keyboard. Strike two. Then no character modification, no skip of cut scenes, and way too many cut scenes. Strike, strike, strike. Played for 20 minutes (most of which were cut scenes) and that was that. I then later in the evening tried Far Cry (3 & 5. 3 was disaster, 5 so far is tolerable.) Same issue. You must log in first. Ugh. This one really pissed me off because no more than 5 minutes after creating the account I started getting login notice emails. Seems someone was immediately trying to hack my account. Thankfully I turned on TFA but wow, what a waste of my time. Very annoying. Okay, rant over.

So that was my day. Video games. House cleaning. We need to get our vac serviced. It just isn't sucking like it used to when we got it. But hey, it's six years old and has never been serviced. Did some work on fish tanks for B. Filter issues. She had to run to her grandparent's house so I had her pick up pizza from the place nearby we like. That was a good decision. 

We watched some TV. We're watching Uncle. BBC show. Very enjoyable if you are looking for something good to watch. 

It's snowing outside but I need to hit the damn grocery store. This will not be fun. Last day off. Have a class in the morning with a horrible group. What a way to start the work year.

Y12 D221

I was confused most of the day as to what day it really was. I kept thinking it was Saturday but it wasn't. The sky didn't help as it snowed about an inch or so which just gave the sky the same color all day. Great. Now I don't know what day or time it is.

Didn't do anything yesterday. Last two days off you'd better believe nothing is getting done. Slept in yesterday and today. Enjoying it while I can. I will open email tomorrow to see what kind of nonsense I have been missing. 

We made chili for dinner and leftovers. Watched some TV together. I honestly didn't do anything yesterday. Oh, I gave myself a manicure and did some foot maintenance but really that was it.

I haven't read the news yet but maybe something exciting will have happened there? Otherwise, even on that front, same ol', same ol'. We are three days away from a meltdown in the Senate. 17 days away from hopefully a new president. Next week we might see Palpatine lose his grip. God I hope so. That would be a nice way to start the year.

Y12 D220

 OMG It's Jan 1 2021! LOOK A MIRACLE HAS HAPPENED! Why the world's problems all went away! My skin has cleared! My crops are harvested! Oh wait. Nope. Just another Friday. Whee.

Went grocery shopping yesterday. Did a load of towels. Made dinner. Made a meat and cheese platter around 9pm and we watched Soul in bed while eating it. That was the best part of yesterday. We stayed up until midnight. Listened to idiots shoot fireworks outside. Fell right to sleep. Yep. Three more days and I have to teach. I teach Mon, Thurs, Fri next week with an eye doctor appt on Wednesday. Today I am going to clean out my email to be ready for a whole new year's worth. 

I hope you had fun doing whatever you did last night.