ANA Y1 D329

Finally Friday. I am sure I'm not the only one happy about that. One more week and we will be off on our adventure. We are mostly packed. We need to do some laundry this weekend to allow C to pack her stuff, but in general we're doing okay. We made a list yesterday of everything that needs to get packed up. From toiletries to cables. I'm on edge with anxiety and anticipation. I want to go, now. Soon. Very soon.

Another day of document writing. This is my job now mostly. It's okay. I can handle it. Keeps me busy and employed. C got a project back for her stuff. 98%. One more class done. She is on track for Sept or October finish. Much more dedicated than some other person I know. It's almost like she wants to move forward with her life. Gee, how interesting. We took a walk to the store to get some outside time. It was cold most of the day but then warmed up around 6pm because why not. C is making me tomato soup from scratch tonight. Very excited. Last night I made apricot glazed chicken. Turned out pretty good. We're trying to eat through everything in the fridge to minimize what we come home to from our trip. The fridge is going to look like Tyler's collection of condiments before we leave. We watched some TV, started getting frisky on the couch, and well you know. Yes, we went at it again. Seriously, we're finding a nice groove on that front. Not too much, not too little. 1-2 times per week is making us both happy. So 5-8 times per month. Yeah, that works for me. Puts us in a good spot for closeness, intimacy, bonding, etc. We just have to make sure those numbers stay the same 5 years from now. To be honest, I am still happy. People annoy me. We all know this. People drive me crazy. Usually six months of spending time with someone and I am done. Look at all the people I hung out with a year ago. I barely talk to any of them. My attention and interest wanes. My brain has moved on to more stimulating things. But with C, I am still here mentally. I am still focused. They DO stimulate me mentally and physically. I honestly can't say that about other partners. X2 to some degree if I am being really open about this. Maybe that's why there's so many similarities between them and C. Our issues weren't intimacy or sex until the end. But by then I had messed things up so bad it was deserved. I take more blame for that relationship than I let on. I know what I did to ruin that relationship and I won't let that happen again. I'd like to finally hit a 20 year mark with someone. Is that too much to ask?

Went to bed around 11, up early for therapy. Have a webinar today. Counting down the hours until time to leave.