Y4 D154

I am starting to feel cranky and the creeping of malaise is settling on me. No explanation other than I am feeling untethered with my work duties this week and it's leading to this feeling of discontent. I did a little work yesterday but not enough to make it worthwhile. The house is still clean though by some small miracle. I don't really have much to say today. I don't feel like talking which is a shock unto itself when it happens. I taste blood in my mouth this morning. That is never a good thing is it? I should probably schedule a physical. Find out if I am dying finally. God dammit. I can't focus. My thoughts are all over and at the same time there's nothing going on up there right now. Work. Home. Sleep. Nothing. Ripped movies. Caught up on OUAT. Whee. Losing it. It so sucks when you feel it coming on. Like a black hole. I just need to get to the weekend. Too much going on this weekend for me to feel sorry for myself. Two shows. A birthday party. Drive to Reno. Pay rent. Pay bills. Focus. Focus. Focus. Upset. Not sure why. Done talking.