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I'm going to say something that isn't going to win me any friends, but so what? When did I ever let that stop me...

I don't believe in 'triggers'. Let me elaborate - I don't believe in triggers in dumb ass middle class white girls looking for attention. I don't think that seeing someone smoke a cigar causes you to flash back to your father who smoked cigars who yelled at  you which causes you to relapse and start throwing up your food. You know who has triggers? Guys who suffered from being shot at in wars. People who get spooked when someone lights off firecrackers because they watched their buddies get torn to shreds by fucking bullets. THAT'S the person who has a fucking trigger. And do you know what the best way to handle something like that is? Therapy to work through it. Not lashing out at other people and continuing to drag up the past. Not by making up lies about people. The sad part is that some people are so fucked in the head that their lies become the reality. They truly believe the bile and hate coming out of their mouths as being the truth. The only that's truth is the truth. When five other people who were in the same room the same night remember it differently, maybe what you thought was true wasn't.

Ugh. Yes, I got dragged into the drama that went down the other day. Don't I always? But this time it was at the request of someone I care about. I was asked to help and I did. Seems that someone is bringing up 8 month old garbage and embellishing the facts of a particular evening causing someone I care about real pain. That is unacceptable. I was on the phone with the hurt party for almost an hour last night because they were crying at what was done to them. And for what? Smug satisfaction? Lack of being able to control your own current environment? Ridiculous. Fucking children.

Taught all day. Big class. 15 people all with varying degrees of knowledge on the product. Good class though. I received many compliments on the way out. Here's hoping today goes as well. Got to the client around 7:40, started class at 8:30, went all the way until almost 5. After class I dropped off my bags and found a decent enough place for dinner. The menu wasn't all that appetizing and with the time change I wasn't all that hungry. Had a couple of drinks and an appetizer while talking to a couple of pilots. It's always interesting to hear things from their perspective. They were based out of NY and it was a nice conversation. Headed back to the hotel, grabbed some nuts and a magazine at CVS. Ironed, talked to my friend, watched JLU, and hit bed. Not a bad day.

Tonight after class I am driving 200 miles to be with my woman. Oh yeah you know what that means...