Y4 D281

Had a blackout night last night. Not cool. I don't remember much after about 9 but apparently I talked to B and my director as late as 11. With him I sent a message this morning being honest saying I have no idea what we talked about last night. With her I have to be a little more cautious. No woman wants to hear that her man can't remember what he said. Today is March 1st. I think this is a good random day to stop drinking for a while. I was doing fairly well for a while. But somewhere in the last week I fell of the wagon hard it seems. Not sure why. Nothing has really changed. I think it has more to do with convenience. I am here in a hotel. The bar is here. One thing leads to another and bam it's 11pm and I am blackout drunk. Not making excuses, just stating facts. Luckily class went fine. Students are happy. As long as the client is happy things are good. Today I teach for a half day then fly home. I can't wait to get home. Other than being drunk last night wasn't bad. I got to the bar around 6, was a dumbass, got to the room at about 10:30. Didn't drive or do anything stupid. Oh well. It is what it is.