Y5 D128

I am very frustrated this morning. With a hard drive. I have this stupid ass 3TB hard drive on my desktop machine and it keeps shutting down on me in the middle of the night. Which is fine except that on a Mac when it does that, it says it wasn't ejected properly and it fucks up. It doesn't wake up gracefully. Wouldn't be a problem except that's the drive I keep EVERYTHING media related on. I keep coming to my machine to find a nasty error message and I have to unplug and replug the drive in. It was working fine and then just this weekend it started fucking up. Pissing me off. I need to replace it but I can't afford it right now. Not how I want to start my day you know?

Yesterday was okay. B was an emotional roller coaster for some reason. Happy to sad to angry to happy to sad. Fucking women and their emotions. God just find a place and stick with it. Or at least fake it. No one got up until noon while I was up at 9. I enjoyed the few hours of peace and solitude. No one getting frustrated with each other. This place is too small for this many people and it is starting to show.

I worked on my puzzle, watched 6 episodes of Torchwood, made dinner, and basically dealt with female hormones as best I could. Read a little as well.

I don't know right now. I am just too ugh to try and type more.

Y5 D127

Had a really good day yesterday. Little issue with the kid and KBF but otherwise it was pretty good. Especially the show last night.

Because they still needed to finish my car, I used B's yesterday which meant I had to get up and drive her to work. Fair trade off. But I ended up getting up at 5 as a result. She didn't get up until 6:30 but whatever. I got up, drove her, and ran some errands. I love Target at 8am. So empty. I got everything I needed at Target, then went grocery shopping. I bought a LOT of groceries. We have more than enough to eat in this house for a while. Which is good because after rent and other bills it's going to be very tight until payday. Very tight.

Came back and they still weren't awake. I told them I wanted my car ready in the morning. 9:30 and they were still in bed. Not cool. I said fine and went out to run a couple more errands. While I was out, I got a text from my director asking if I wanted to audition for MC last night. SOLD! I knew I was going to have a lot going on but I figured if I could do it under stressful conditions then I could do it any time. Finished up in about an hour and headed back home. I dropped the car off at B's work and called them to come pick me up so I didn't have to walk home.

The kid sent KBF to pick me up and he just had this attitude like I disturbed him. I am sorry your girlfriend fucked up my car and you're having to deal with it? Um no. Got back to the house, I put everything away and just relaxed. As the kid was leaving for work I told her my car looked okay. I didn't jump up and down because frankly it looks okay. It looks as good as I expected when done by people at home. She seemed put off that I didn't jump up and down. Plus I made the comment that when she can afford to have it done right, she will. That didn't go over well. Tuesday they are looking at an apartment. Tuesday.

B got home around 3 and we worked on our puzzle for a while. I then went off into the kitchen. I made peanut butter rice krispie balls, steaks for dinner, and macaroni and cheese. I was a cooking machine. We settled in for dinner and ended up watching Dr Who and four episodes of Torchwood. I actually like Torchwood, sue me. We did that until it was time for the show.

Headed out around 10 and got to the theater at 10:30. Whirlwind from there. I was very light on tech and had to make due. Got music set up and then the show started. I did my audition and felt great. Everyone told me how well I did and that anyone who auditions after me has a tough act to follow. We got through the show and headed on home.

Got home about 3:30 and crashed. Today therefore is a do nothing. Let nothing begin!

Y5 D126

The kid and KBF took care of their responsibility last night - they went and got everything to fix my car. The kid first went to the dealer and got the touch up paint needed. She then went and got estimates - $450 - $600. I told her that she and KBF can try doing it themselves first and if I am not happy then she needs to come up with $500. They were out there all night working on it. Supposedly they need to finish it this morning as it needed to dry. I am okay with them doing it because frankly *I* wouldn't spend $500 for what needs to be done. It's just a couple of little spots where she scraped the paint off. I reviewed the estimates she got and the majority of it is labor to remove the bumper. Like 90% of the cost is labor. Screw that. I can take a bumper off myself thank you. We shall see how it looks later today. I also trust KBF as he is a perfectionist and will make sure it looks good. Was that a shitty way for them to have to spend their Friday night? Yep. Don't care. Man up. You fucked up my car, you fix it.

I spent the day teaching which went well. No issues. Nothing out of the ordinary so I am happy. Relaxed after class until B got home. She wanted to treat me to dinner as a thank you for everything since she has been here. We ended up at the Cheesecake Factory. Whatever. It was food. It made her happy. All that counts. We then ended up at Build a Bear. Yeah, I know. She got some rainbow sparkle thing and I got a monkey. I named him Butt. He is actually super soft. I like my Butt Monkey. Yep that's me.

We got back, read a while, and fell asleep. I slept like a log finally. First time since I have been home I have slept sound.

Today is errands and then a show tonight. Haven't had a show in weeks and I am actually looking forward to it tonight.

Y5 D125

So tired. Apparently I am snoring again. Bad. Like wake me up three or four times in the night bad. Which is seriously fucking annoying to me and to B. Sigh. Sometimes it's easier being single isn't it?

Taught. Booked my trip to Atlanta. Got word I may be going to Canada. In the fucking winter. As long as it's not Edmonton again thank you. I have been there in the winter and don't ever need to do that again. BUT the points will be nice.

Not much else to discuss today. Had red beans and rice with sausage and shrimp for dinner. Watched a good movie last night. Watched Dredd. I was actually impressed. It's a darn good movie. Much better than the Stallone version. Finally got someone here at the apartment complex to acknowledge the broken sprinkler in front of my house. Went to bed. Attempted to sleep, but see paragraph 1. I may just sleep on the couch tonight. It will be easier.

Happy fucking friday.

Y5 D124

I almost killed my daughter yesterday. I am serious. She was one step away from being kicked out, disowned, and dead meat. She knew it too and was scared of me for a few minutes. Why you ask? Because she came home from school yesterday and informed me right after I had finished teaching a really rough class...

She fucked up my brand new car.

Yes, the car that is barely three months old with 2500 miles on it. The first car I have had in a long time that I truly have loved. She fucked it up. Bad. She decided the library didn't need that concrete pole and decided to take it out with my car's front end. Leaving behind a very scratched, chipped, and seriously fucked up front end. All I saw was red.

Let's start at why I was already in a shit mood shall we? I taught a 'new' class yesterday. New as in we were doing it for the first time on a new version of the software. Anything that could go wrong went wrong. Demos didn't work properly, server permissions were set incorrectly, typos in the material, etc. I have a half a page of notes of things we have to fix next week before I do this class again. I always hate that situation because it makes me look like I don't know the material. It made for a frustrating day. Then to have her come home and tell me she wrecked my car (her words), I exploded. I went outside looked at my front end and went nuts. I yelled. I told her she is getting on the phone, calling the dealer, and getting an estimate and I don't give one shit where the money comes from. She has until the weekend to get it fixed. Period. I also told her THIS is why I didn't want her driving my car. She then has the nerve to give me attitude. She stomps in her room - which is a major fucking pigsty as usual - and starts throwing clothes in a box. Moving? GO. GET THE FUCK OUT. I had every right to be pissed yesterday and I was not going to let go. B was asleep while all this went down. She came out of the bedroom took one look at me and just walked away. She knew I was pissed off about something. A little while later KBF came over and the kid didn't even bother to let him in the house. They just left. Good. Go. Before she left though, she did tell me she has an appointment Friday at the dealer to have the car looked at. Don't care, fix it. At that point B came out of the bedroom to try and figure out what happened. I told her and she agreed that my anger was well placed. B decided to get me out of the house and put food in me. Smart move.

We came back and watched Agents of Shield. FUCKING AWESOME SHOW. Love it. You go Agent Coulson. Thank you Joss Whedon for being awesome. We love you. We worked on the puzzle, watched something else which I can't remember now, and then headed to bed. As we were going to bed they came home. I essentially ignored them. She needs to know this is not acceptable. On Tuesday they go look at their own place. Tuesday can't come soon enough as far as I am concerned. Oh, I remember now what B and I did. There's a zombie crawl charity event coming up in a couple of weeks and B wanted to practice doing zombie makeup. She did a REALLY good job on my face using toilet paper and glue. I was super impressed at her work. Of course what took an hour to apply is still lingering on my face. I can feel glue still even after washing it twice.

I have two more days of teaching. A two day class. I also got confirmation I am going to Atlanta in October for 4 days. I just need to get a green light on hotel and airfare and I will book that. Hopefully today. It will take me down to FIVE days needed at Hilton. Five. I will hit status with American again after this flight which makes me happy. I can get five more nights at a hotel dammit.

Time to teach. Thank god I know and love the class I am teaching the next two days.

Y5 D123

I am in a crappy mood today. Been in it since last night and I don't feel like letting it go quite yet. Sometimes you want to hold on to the anger just because. People need to know they have crossed a line and that certain comments just aren't acceptable.

I trained all day again. Another 8:30 start time. Went until 4. I don't like the late start times. Throws my whole schedule off. I am back the rest of the week starting at my normal time which makes me happy. By 3 today I will be done. B worked from 12 until about 4:30. We worked on our puzzle, watched some TV and generally didn't do much of anything except of course ALL the laundry I did. How the fuck do two tiny women have so much fucking laundry? I can go three weeks and have less laundry than they do in three days. Seriously. Laundry. Cleaning. Cooking. More cleaning. Welcome to my fucking life. I feel like a servant right now. Move this. Clean this. Don't leave that there. Fuck this shit. I may have been depressed when I was alone but at least I didn't feel like an indentured slave. But hey all the laundry is done. You're welcome?? Oh wait. I didn't get a thank you from anyone. And those clean clothes look fucking wonderful all over your floor. Don't worry about that square box thing with drawers where you might actually put the clothes. That I guess is just for looks.

Fuck this. Next class. Let's go. Just get through another day.

Y5 D122

Hungover on a Tuesday morning. haven't been here in a while. But it was for a good cause. Sometimes your friends need you and you have to be there for them and there isn't much else you can do. So you end up going out on a Monday night drinking until 11. Yeah, it happens. I just need this to go away before 8am. I took three advil let's see if they work.

Yesterday was a teaching day but since it was a custom class for one company we started much later than normal. Which frankly was stupid. The people who put the class together are here locally and they based the start time on that - 8:30am. The only problem is out of 14 students only three are in this time zone. The majority are in India which is 12.5 hours ahead. There were also students in France, EST, and CST. Basically everyone was exhausted or falling asleep for the last two hours of class. If I had more prep time on this class I would have started it much earlier to keep the class alive. In the end I kept everyone going but it was rough. Today is the same group for the same times and we will see how the team does.

After class I made pork chops for dinner and as we were sitting down I got a text from my friend saying there was some shit going on at his house and they were going out and could use company. On our way.

It was an extension of the crap that went down Saturday for them including the police being at their house yet again. That's the third time in 72 hours and they are getting sick of it. Can't really say as I blame them either. It's not their drama but they are getting sucked in deeper than they want or need to be. And that's how I ended up drinking on a Monday with a hangover this morning.

We did have fun, I won't deny that. But I am paying for that fun right now. Come on Advil, do your magic...

Y5 D121

Happy birthday to my niece. She is 21 and probably sleeping it off right now. I remember 21 vaguely. I remember a lot of things vaguely. I ponder the mystery of how I have made it for so many decades some days. I am old. Old as dirt. But still having the sex. Booyah.

Had a decent day yesterday. B and I went out in the morning and picked up a puzzle and some junk food. That was our plan for the day. Hang around the house relaxing working on a puzzle together and not doing much of anything else. For the most part that's what we did. I baked - made caramel apple bundt cakes with caramel apple frosting which were pretty damn tasty if I do admit. We watched a little TV, had some nasty hamburger helper type thing for dinner, had the sex, and fell asleep. A boring Sunday.

All this week I am teaching again. Today and tomorrow are special classes for a single company. Luckily I can do them remote even though the company is local. They have about 1/2 of their students in a remote location which is why they decided to do the whole thing remote. Downside is I don't start until 8:30 unlike my normal classes. But it's all good. Another solid week on the books. I also expect to hear back from the client of last week to schedule my trip to Atlanta. All should be good.

Y5 D120

I did more before noon than most people got done all day yesterday. I had a pretty decent day all in all. By the evening I was feeling out of sorts and just wanted to be alone though. Probably because I started stressing about money. Nothing like coming home from a week on the road and doing your expense report and paying bills to make you realize you are not in as good of shape as you thought especially after spending money through out the day.

I got up at 5:30 yesterday because B was talking in her sleep and I just didn't want to be in bed any more. I was up and ready to go out before her or the kid were up. B got up at 6:30, the kid around 7:30. B had work from 8:30 until about 3 and the kid from 9:15 until 2. I drove the kid to work so I could have my car all day. Which was a good thing because it poured for a good portion of the morning. My first stop was the liquor store (oh I so want to make a sublime reference here. Okay. I will - finally got all the alcohol we could not afford. It only took one brick to make the window drop). Serious note - finally after weeks of searching I found the Lot 13 Whiskey. One bottle. Mine. More than I wanted to spend but about what I figured it would cost. After there was Target where I got everything for everybody. Came back home, put everything away, cleaned all the critters, vacuumed, cleaned the house a little, and waited. Picked the kid up and then B came home.

During that time my friend texted me and asked if I could help him out with something. His sister in law and brother in law are going through a nasty divorce. He wanted backup in the restaurant where they were meeting later in the day in case things got ugly. The meeting was to discuss custody options. There was a big blow out at 7am because she didn't have the kids back at his place at 6am sharp. He called the cops and the cops were at the house at 7am. She is currently staying at my friend's house with him and her sister. Imagine being woken up at 7am on a Saturday by the police for something that really has nothing to do with you.

I told him we would be there. Period. It wasn't even a discussion. The guy ended up not showing, but it was me, B, my friend, and his sister in law. We had a nice late lunch and relaxed. The weather had finally cleared up and it was nice just to sit. I brought the whiskey with me and we classed it up by tasting it in the parking. Yeah, we're classy like that. Tell you what though, this small batch, single malt whiskey was worth every fucking penny I paid. Even from the bottle in a parking lot it was damn good.

We headed back home and stopped at Ross. Picked up sheets and a couple little things - dish towels, a shelf, etc. Stupid stuff. After that we headed downtown because B was craving crepes. We went to this tiny Chinese place I know of that does awesome dessert crepes. I had the ultra fruit one and she had a plain one. That led to a discussion about food. Something we need to work on around here. She either needs to start expanding her palette or I will start eating alone. I am serious. A tale for another day. After that we came back home, relaxed, made the bed, played with the cat, read, and headed to bed around 10:30. It was a long but okay day.

Y5 D119

I should be pissed I am up at 5:30 but at the same time I went to bed at 9 so it's not so horrible. I got in a decent amount of sleep. I am still getting back to my normal time zone I guess. Whatever. I am up and that's all there is to it.

I was up for 21 hours yesterday most of them spent on the road. My morning trip was acceptable. I left for the airport at 5 EST, got there at 5:30, made it through security, and left at 7:30 right on schedule. Got to Dallas pretty much on time. About 15 minutes off but nothing horrible. Dallas as usual was a clusterfuck. It's always going home where I have problems in Dallas. Normally it's okay as a layover if I am going somewhere, but home I usually get screwed. I can't blame DFW even though I do. It's my home airport. If in the morning they had any delays because of weather, the whole rest of the day is thrown off. That's what happened yesterday. I was delayed almost 2 1/2 hours because of an earlier weather delay. I blame Dallas because I hate being in that airport. It's loud, obnoxious, and way too big. I did use the time to have a decent lunch at least. I originally had an hour plus layover and with the delay it ended up being closer to 4 hours total I waited. I was 15th on the upgrade list too. I knew there was no way I was getting an upgrade. Heck there are only 12 seats available. Upgrade chances equaled zero.

I finally got on my flight and two rows behind me was a screaming child. And not a baby where they had little they could do. No, this kid was about 3 at least. Shut your fucking kid up please. Nope. 3.5 hours of a screaming child. I think everyone wanted to kill the kid and the parents by the time the flight landed.

Since I was delayed the kid couldn't pick me up. Her and KBF were scheduled to go look at a couple of apartments yesterday and I was not about to stand in the way of that. B had to work until 4 which meant I didn't know if she could pick me up either. Originally I was going to take public trans as far as I could and wait for her at the station. I was so tired and frustrated when I got off the plane I said fuck it and took a cab home. $40 the company can shut the fuck up about. I earned it.

I got home and B was home already and in tears. Why? Because she was afraid the police were after her. Seriously. She had tried to go to the post office and there was some old guy honking at an empty car. She went over to yell at him and to tell him the car was empty. He freaked out at the 'crazy girl coming to attack him' and called the cops. You know she fears the police and came home afraid they were coming to arrest her. I'm serious. Part of me wanted to laugh my ass off at her but she was in true hysterics worried the police were going to find her for harassment charges. Sigh. Not what I wanted to deal with after traveling all day. Add to that the 17 emails I had from work. Those I ignored and will deal with today.

After calming her down with some orange slices and fetal spooning (about all of one of you will get that) we went and grabbed some dinner from the mexican place. We sat on the couch relaxing and watched some Doctor. She had a splitting headache at this point and went off to shower and read in bed. I watched always sunny and followed around 9.

I slept okay. Not great. My ear hurts and my back hurts right now and I had to deal with that.

Errands today and emails. Fun stuff.

Y5 D118

I long for Saturday morning where I can sleep in at least until a whopping 7am. I have been up since 12:30am PST already. Aka 3:30am here in Hell. I won't be home until 2pm PST. At least that's when I land. When I actually get home will be later. Sigh. I can do it. Love those travel days.

Yesterday went well. VERY well in my mind. I had 22 students in the room which is a large class and hard to manage when you have people of varying levels of knowledge in the room. There were a couple of people who were frustrating not because of lack of skills but because the class was not advanced enough for them. Of course there were also the people who kept focusing on the data EVEN THOUGH I stressed many times that this wasn't a data class. One person in particular was really driving me nuts. She just wouldn't get it through her head that this was a product class and not a data bitch session.

Class ran from 8 until 5 on the dot on both ends. They brought us in chicken and ribs for lunch which was nice. The food was decent and there. Why do I think class went well? Because before we had left the SVP was already booking my next TWO trips. The next one will be October 21st in Atlanta and then we will do another session of the advanced products back in Florida. That one is going to be trickier to nail down on the calendar. It might not happen until December. As long as it happens this year so I can get the damn miles. The trip to Atlanta should be enough to keep my status for another year but I need BOTH trips to hit Diamond at Hilton. Ugh so close. I am currently 9 nights shy. 4 in Atlanta and 5 back here would do it.

Walked back to the hotel around 5:30 and was dripping sweat. This weather sucks balls. I was soaked when I got back. Had steak and fries at the bar for dinner, skyped with B and the kid, watched one Who episode and went to bed.

Oh my exciting life.

Y5 D117

Sorry I am late, but I actually slept solid last night. Of course since I am about to leave tomorrow my body has adjusted to the time change. Story of my life. I need 3 days to adjust and then bam I leave. Whatever. If I go to Atlanta at the end of the month it will be worse since I won't even be there three days. They want to fly me out on day 1, teach on day 2, fly home day 3. Okely dokely. Whatever works for you. Gets me the points and miles. I go.

Got into the office about 7:20 yesterday and finished up what I needed around 1. I was planning to stay until 3 to be able to get feedback on the presentation but by 2:30 it was clear nothing was coming and I left. No guilt. I can't believe that in less than 16 hours I redesigned an entire 150+ slide presentation with custom content and demos. Yay me.

Got back to the hotel and was originally going to go to the mall to amuse myself. But it was 10000 degrees out with 1000% humidity. Instead I walked to the grocery store across the street, got a snack, and came back. Ended up napping for an hour.

Talked with B for a while. She was having company last night. One of our friends was coming over to watch a movie and just hang out. On one hand she was looking forward to company on the other she feels awkward around this person because she doesn't have a lot in common other than me. I hope it went well. I do know she was stressing out about cleaning the house. Yes, she is one of those. Given who this person is and the condition I have seen their place in before, I would have done nothing. Not B. She disinfected and scrubbed the house until it bled clean. Good news is I should come home to a clean house with nothing needing to be done on the weekend. This is a clean weekend for us - no shows, no parties, nada. I can sleep in and not leave the house if I don't want to. Yeah like that ever happens now a days.

I did manage to get the iOS7 update done on my tablet last night. I don't see any real difference to be honest outside of the UI. But then again, I don't use a lot of the system functions on it. It all looks the same to me. I am still considering a 5s when they come out as it will be the first true 64-bit phone. The drawback is the screen size. I have gotten very used to a large screen and the 5s is almost a full inch smaller. That could be the deal breaker for me. We shall see. B needs a new phone first as she is on my 3 year old hand me down Nexus. It's flaking on her, the cable isn't staying in when charging, etc. I think I am going to get her the Note 2. The Note 3 is coming in October and might be an option for me. 5.7" screen on that baby. Almost mini tablet. Meh, Christmas is coming. I can wait.

Watched a few episodes of the Doctor last night. Had stuffed salmon for dinner later in the evening. Was in bed by 10:30. Slept all the way through the night. Some weird/bad dreams but nothing I didn't shake off when I got up.

Today I have 20 students and will be in front of a room all day. Need all the energy I can muster.

Y5 D116

Oh just starting my day while everyone back home is going to bed. Love me some times changes yes I do! Hint - that was sarcasm. A fuck ton of it.

Look at me, I slept in until 5 whee!

Apparently I am a little loopy this morning. Okay. I can go with that.

Got up at 4 yesterday mostly because I couldn't sleep any more. Only 4.5 hours to kill until it was time to go to the client. Ended up watching the Doctor, having breakfast, and being an all around sloth in the morning. The shuttle took me over around 8:30 and I arrived at all of 8:40. The client arrived just before 9. I spent the entire day trying to manipulate a training into something that will work for them. I did pretty well given that I met with their SVP at 2:30 and ended up having to redo half of the demos I did because he has his own expectations for the class which are completely different from the other 19 people who are going to be in there on Thursday. Sigh. And everyone bows to this guy for some reason. Reminds me way too much of a certain CIO I used to deal with when I was working at that other company. Knows enough to be dangerous, but too high up the food chain to actually be of any use. BUT extremely hands on. Too hands on. He is going to be a problem on Thursday. I will need to keep him in line. He is trying to turn this into a class on their data and not on the product. I must have stressed that at least three times in our meeting that this is a product class. Sigh. Whatever. I will get through the day.

Upside? So far they want me to deliver what I come up with to a group in Georgia and possibly Memphis next. Why is this good? Because it should be enough for me to hit the numbers I need for end of year with the hotel and the airline. Georgia would get me right where I need to be for the airline and take care of another 3 nights of hotel. 

After work I decided to walk back because it really isn't that far away. It was pouring throughout the whole day yesterday and I was afraid that would be a problem. Ended up breaking around 3. I left at about 5 and walked back to the hotel. One thing around here is the incredible amount of flora and fauna. I was almost attacked by a stork, the plant life is incredible, and there are geckos running around everywhere. It's wonderful actually. I just wish it wasn't 800 degrees and wet. It's like Hawaii on crack. Man I miss Hawaii. I haven't been in like 7 years. I need to go soon.

Changed my clothes and headed out for dinner. Had my one 'nice' dinner last night. Sat at the bar at this place where seriously I was the youngest guy there. It was ridiculous. The average age was 80, they all looked like Larry David clones, and it sounded like I was at a Jewish Temple. There was an old guy next to me on a date with someone MUCH younger and early on it seemed like it was going okay. Then he blew it. He honestly asked her 'are you still ovulating?', then he started talking about intimacy in relationships, and rounded that off with a talk about his dead wife. I mean, for real dude? I am not one to criticize age differences, but this guy was like 70-75 and she was 40 AND HE LOOKED IT. There's a difference when neither one looks their age, but this guy. Oy. He was wearing a fucking ascot and a beret for crying out loud. It was kind of sad listening to him try and score a second date. I stayed longer than I wanted because I just had to see how this was going to play out. 

Walked back around 8, stopped at CVS for some stuff, skyped with B, and went to bed around 10. Rinse and repeat for the most part today. I should actually finish up a little earlier today. I am going in at 7:30 instead of 9 and should be done by around 2 or 3. Might have time to go to the mall today. We shall see.

Y5 D115

Time changes suck ass. It's 4:30 here right now. Which means it's 1:30 at home. Everyone is either just going to bed or already asleep. Poor B texted me at 9:40pm my time last night, but I was already out cold. Yes, I went to bed at 9pm EST last night. I was tired dammit. But I did get a good 7 hours or so of sleep. Woke up a lot as is usual for me when I am sleeping on the road but I feel pretty rested this morning. Not as much as I would like, but still pretty darn good. Breakfast isn't available for another 90 minutes though. I can't sleep any more or I would. Yay time changes.

Was up at 3 yesterday, out of the house at 4, in the air at 6. Hit Dallas at 11:30 CST, Florida at 5pm EST. Long fucking day of travel. For the most part my flights were uneventful. Finished a book on the flight, watched part of a movie (My Neighbor Totoro), and managed to get a little sleep on the first flight.

Had a million emails waiting for me when I landed of course. I have to still take care of some things this morning while I have some downtime. Made it to the hotel without incident. Since I am less than 1 mile from the client I opted to not get a car. $40 cab ride, but that is a lot cheaper than a week's worth of a car that would honestly spend most of its time in the hotel parking lot. Just wasn't worth the $500 for a car this trip. The airport is only 15 miles away and the hotel has a shuttle to bring me to the client. Look at me being all smart.

This is hard on B. The text she sent me was about how the kid and KBF made her dinner last night. Which of course made her feel guilty for all the things that the kid does which have caused her frustration. I know how she feels on that. You want to get mad at the kid for being a doofus sometimes and a slob, but then she goes and does something like make you dinner when you don't expect it.

We Skyped for a while after I got settled in and had food. Had a decent dinner - crab cakes and a grouper topped with local fresh scallops and octopus. Really good actually. The one downside to not having a car is it limits where I can go for food. Hopefully tonight I will get a chance to walk back from the client and see what is around here. I just checked the map and realized I was completely reversed in my head about where I needed to go. Good thing I didn't just start randomly walking. Everything here is backwards to me. The client is in fact .5 miles away but I almost headed in the complete opposite direction. That wouldn't have been good.

The next couple of day should be interesting. I am actually spending today and tomorrow designing the course material live and then presenting it on Thursday. Could I have done this from home? Sure. But I think because of how long it would take to get me security clearance, it was easier for me to actually fly to Florida and be here. Whatever. I need the points and miles.

I think I will shower now.

Y5 D114

What I didn't want to talk about yesterday is how much of a drunken fool I made of myself at the party on Saturday. As I spent yesterday reflecting on my actions, I realized once more that the mouth moves faster than the brain especially when it's loaded with a bottle of vodka. I don't think I pissed off anyone outside my own sphere of family at least with my big mouth, but that was enough. Gee, is this why I stopped drinking on a regular basis and tried to avoid people? Hm. I wonder.

Yesterday was alright. Nothing fancy. We went on a little adventure to find a book B has been looking for. I found it in one bookstore 35 miles away. Gave us something to do. Came home, watched a couple episodes of Dr Who, and went to bed.

I am up early today obviously. Flying. fun. Off to the state I hate.

Y5 D113

I wanted an adventure and an adventure I had. Including a full blown argument with B, throwing up, and all sorts of fun.

The day was fine. The kid and I went out and had a decent day. We had a good lunch at a nice little gastropub, good time talking, etc. Got home and napped. All fine and dandy.

Then B got home from work and we headed to the birthday party. And I started drinking. At 4:30. By 10, I was history. Mouth running, barely standing, history. By 10:30 we were on our way home. In Silence.

I don't want to talk any more about it for now.

Y5 D112

Nothing exciting to report on today. I need an adventure. Oh wait, I get one next week. I can't express how much I am looking forward to being on the road next week. Away from the kid and KBF, away from this desk, away from this house. I need out for a few days. I wish B could go with me but she can't and that's that. I need to be away for a while. I am starting to go fucking stir crazy. The one big upside to B living here is I don't go out drinking any more. Not because she wouldn't let me, but because my primary purpose for those nights out was to be around people. I have plenty of people right here. All the time.

Taught all day yesterday as planned. Long class. Went a little over on time. It's a big class with a lot of information. It takes a while. B was at work when I finished and I ended up napping. Totally fucked my sleep schedule by doing that though. I had a shit time sleeping last night. She got home around 5:30 and it was too much rush hour for me to do what I had planned after work. She was supposed to be home at 4. Whatever.

We went out to get some dinner, ran some errands, and did grocery shopping. The upside is we didn't hit the grocery store until 9pm which meant it was dead. I made sure there is enough food for everyone in this house while I am gone next week. They may kill each other while I am gone, but at least they won't starve.

B had to be up at 7 this morning and she went right to bed. I came to bed about 1/2 hour later but couldn't sleep. Tossed and turned until 1. Shitty dreams involving X2 when I finally did fall asleep. I think I am subconsciously dreading being in her part of the world next week. Ugh.

So many thoughts so little time.

Tonight is a birthday party. It better be fun.

Y5 D111

I have so many thoughts that go through my head in a single day it's hard sometimes to keep track of them come 5am. I need to carry around something that lets me write them down quickly without having to send an email or try and type them in a phone. Just thinking out loud. No real point to that comment.

One thing I do want to talk about is the kid's mother. Why in the name of god is she hanging out with my father??? Supposedly she is up in that area for some 'band' thing she is doing and decided to send the kid a picture of her hanging out with my father. WTF? You're up there without a single member of MY family hanging out with them? Seriously. I wouldn't hang out with any of her family or X2's family. Why does she think she has some claim or right? Ugh. I know I shouldn't let it bother me since I could care less what either of those persons do, but it does bug me. Two of the people on this earth that frustrate me the most hanging out is just a sign of the apocalypse in my opinion.

Pretty straightforward day yesterday. Taught a class which went okay. Part two of the class today. Decent crowd no real issues. It's one of the more technical classes and the people who sign up for it usually have a good idea what they're in for when they show up. That makes my life easier for sure.

After class I tried to nap but failed. Watched a Dr Who episode instead. Yeah I know. But I like Chris Eccleston. He amuses me. I don't know how I will feel when it gets to the other Doctors. But at least I can finally say I have watched them.

Had sushi for dinner. I was craving it. B did pretty well for going to a real japanese place. We had a discussion about food yesterday and how I get a little frustrated at her lack of a palette. But then I think about how many years she has to go to develop real taste in food and I let it go.

After dinner we came back, she read, I putzed around on here. Didn't really do much of anything just kind of poked at things. When we got in bed she had a bit of a meltdown as she it finally hit her I am going to be gone all next week. This will be the first time since she has moved in that I have been gone for a full week like this. She is worried something will go wrong, the kid will be a slob, and a million other things. I was torn to be honest. Part of me wanted to console her and the other part wanted to tell her to suck it up and deal with it. I know that's an asshole thing to say but this is my job. I don't have a lot of control over these things. I have to travel and it benefits us. We get the points, I have a job, everyone wins. So deal with it. I did manage to keep that thought in my head luckily. I have a feeling I am going to get 4 million texts from her next week. Thank goodness I will be three hours ahead. I am hoping that works in my favor.

Today is part 2 of the class, followed by grocery shopping, followed by last minute things for my friends birthday tomorrow.

Y5 D110

Insufficient sleep. So damn tired this morning. I have to teach and I am barely awake. Okay I can function. Come on brain catch up to me. Yesterday was interesting. The majority of the day was fine. I did some work. B and I went to the thrift store to see if we could find something to wear to a party this weekend. It's an 80s party and she wanted to find like a leotard and leg warmers. Fail. We stopped at the bakery and got a cookie though. That was positive. The rest of the day was spent on a PLL marathon. We are now through a good chunk and thanks to good people we now have the most current season as well. After the marathon, the kid had a crisis moment. She is stressing big time about everything right now. She looked up the car and how much it is going to be for registration - $600. Not bad seeing as it has been sitting for four years. They have it down as an abandoned vehicle which isn't right. I am going to call DMV next week and see if I can get that reduced at all. I doubt I will be able to but it won't hurt to try. I was trying to get her to stop talking to me about these things and talk to her boyfriend. See if it was just her looking for a place, I could help more. But my decision is less important as it will be them living together. She needs him on board with everything. What I think matters less for once. I was happy to help her with these things but I just wish she hadn't brought them up at 10:30 at night right before I needed to sleep. I ended up tossing and turning until midnight thinking over these things. Then at 4:30 I had a major muscle twitch and bopped poor B with my elbow. She freaked out of course. So while I tried to fall back to sleep all I did was lay there from 4:30 until 5. Which means I am about to do one of the hardest classes to teach on 4.5 hours sleep. FML. Behind me right now the hamsters are wide awake and wheel running. How much fucking energy can a ball of fluff have?? Ugh. I need a nap already.

Y5 D109

My mind has been acting up lately. I have been trying to keep it under wraps because I don't want B to think there is something wrong between us, but I can feel the dark edges slowly creeping their way back in. 

I don't know why. I think it's because I have been stuck in the house for a while and I have been doing the desk to couch commute for too long now. Three weeks of being home. Yes, I have extra outside things we have been doing, but it's the day time that is starting to get to me. The having to be home every day and go from one spot to the other without much break. Plus I am stressing about bills and money and life in general. The kid is having issues with trying to find a place. B isn't working as much as I thought she would be. Just one thing after another. It's all starting to pile up in my head.

But the upside is I will be out of town next week. My first major road trip in months. Of course it's to the one state in the union I would prefer never to step foot in but beggars can't be choosers. I am off to FL next week. Specifically West fucking palm beach. The one area. I am there Mon- Fri too. All fucking week in the one part of the one state I never want to be in. On the positive, I will pick up 6000-7000 airline miles and another 4 nights of hotel. The downside is I have to be in WPB FL. It's a big state and hopefully it won't eat at me too much being there, but...

Did more document work yesterday. Tomorrow and Friday are training classes, but today is another document day. Another day of couch to desk. Sigh. Another day off for B too which makes it tougher. We had a decent night. Soup and sandwiches for dinner since no one was super hungry. Kid had school followed by closing at work. She didn't get home until after midnight. B watched Hunger Games while I did work. We played Scrabble and read. We went to bed and I fell asleep but she managed to wake me back up. Enjoyable but now I am sleepy. Since I have to be up at 5 tomorrow and Friday I tried to get up early this morning but it was rough.

I am hoping I can shake these dark feelings before the weekend. Let's see how I do.

And thanks for chronicles of riddick. Might have to watch that tonight. Hopefully Always Sunny will come through at a decent time and I can watch that tonight.

Y5 D108

Before we get into things, a quick word from our sponsor - RAWR - no seriously though, if you read something in here, it stays in here. I know the temptation might be strong to say something nice to someone you recognize in here, but they don't know they have been written about remember. For you to randomly make a comment about something they hadn't shared with you puts me in the hot seat.

Nuff said on dat.

Yesterday was a basic day. Worked on docs, had a good talk with my boss(?)/co-worker(?) about my upcoming schedule and classes and got priority on what things we need to tackle next. The reason for the question marks above is that I have been moved between departments so many times I don't know any more who I actually report to in the company. Plus that's always been one of those flexible kind of things in general. Regardless, it was a good talk and gave me direction for the next few days. We are still waiting to see if I go off to the state that shall not be named next week. We should know today.

B got home from work around 2, the kid around 6 from school. Made chicken crepes for dinner last night. We all sat around watching some PLL (which I need to get season 4 of soon), followed by KBF coming over. I made dessert crepes for everyone as we had batter left. About 9 our friend came over and cut B's hair. It's REALLY short and she is wavering on wether she likes it or not. I think this is one of those things everyone has to go through at some point - cut the hair short and decide if they are a short hair girl or a long hair girl. As of last night she was regretting it. Let's see how this morning plays out once she has showered and styled it. My bet is it will be a short lived experiment. If I could grow my hair back the last thing I would do is keep it short. Some day. Some day I will once again have my flowing locks of goodness. Sigh.

Tried to stay up until midnight. It's my buddy's birthday and I wanted to call him right at midnight. We made it until 11:42. Close enough. Did finish a book I got on Sunday, Helen & Troy's Epic Road Quest by A. Lee Martinez. I love that guys writing. Evidently as it took me less than 24 hours to finish the book. I still have about six books in my stack to read so I am not stressing about finishing it. I can see four of them from here.

Today looks like more of the same. B is off today which means she may bug me a little, but I can handle it.

Y5 D107

Yesterday was okay for me at least. B was having a bad day. Not an angry day, a sad one. She was feeling homesick. Missing her friends, missing having people to hang out with on a Sunday. I am sorry my life is boring and I don't do much on Sundays, but there it is. She asked if we could just get out of the house and we ended up walking around the mall for a couple of hours. I made sure we went to one a decent distance away to add some time. We just walked around until about 5. I had to stop at a friend's house to pick up some movies on the way home. I now have all but 4 of the Studio Ghibli movies. I have 15 out of 19. Not too shabby. I also added American Pop and Cowboy Bepop the Movie thanks to a $5 coupon from best buy. It was $4.99 on sale for both movies. We got home around 6 and I made a pizza. We watched some more PLL while the kid did her homework. She had worked all day and was pretty tired, but she needed to do a perspective sketch for one of her classes. She chose the living room. While we were there, she got a call from her friend who went and looked at another apartment. Turns out she liked it and grabbed applications. Things may be moving forward! Huzzah! We shall see what happens on that front.

I went to bed around 10 and B was in the bedroom on the phone with one of her friends. I heard her say how she was sad and missing everyone. I got into bed and she went out into the other room. I don't know how I feel about that. I wish she would talk to me about these things, but she isn't at the point yet I guess. Or maybe she thinks I won't understand. I kind of don't to be honest as I don't get 'homesick' nor do I have family I miss as strongly as she does. Not to say I don't think about my sister and her family. I would like to see them at some point sure, but I don't pine about memories because frankly I don't have those kind of memories. It's not like we ever lived together etc. I guess from that viewpoint it makes sense she commiserate with her friends back home instead of me. I read and fell asleep. I heard her come in at some point but don't know what time that was.

Some classes this week along with some manual creation. I may have to go to the one state in the union I hate the most next week. I am awaiting confirmation on that today.

Y5 D106

At what point of watching a new show do you call yourself hooked? This week I started watching two shows and I would say I am stuck watching them all the way through now. First off was Pretty Little Liars. That started as a fluke and now I am 11 episodes into it. The other? Doctor fucking Who. Sigh. Yeah I know. I am seven episodes into that one.

As you can see I didn't do much yesterday. I worked a little bit on some stuff, watched some TV, cleaned, made steak tacos for dinner, ran a couple of errands, but otherwise, not much until showtime. I took a nap which was nice. I have been pretty tired lately. Felt nice to get some rest. The kid and KBF came home around 2. They struck out at the places they looked at which I think was frustrating for them. Welcome to adulthood. One of the places was a hotel converted into student housing and they said it was horrible for the asking price.

The kid went off to work around 6 and had to close then reopen this morning. As a result she missed the show last night.

The show was good. No major issues. It started late as expected because we had to do a whole bunch of pre-show stuff in honor of our director's birthday. He turns 40 this week and we made it a spectacle. I do sometimes feel for the audience having to deal with out antics. But it's part of the show. We didn't start until 12:45 which means it was almost 3 by the time we got out. Good thing I have nothing to do today.

B is awake. Going to make french toast rollups for breakfast. I hope all of you have a wonderful Sunday. Know I am thinking of you and send my best always.

Y5 D105

Yesterday was pretty boring. I continued to work on the updated documents, we had a quarterly meeting which kind of pissed me off, and did some follow up for some clients. No, I don't want to get into why the meeting pissed me off. It's nothing of any significance in the long run. I finished up around 4 and we watched a couple PLL episodes. Then B and I went out for taco bell. When we came back KBF was over and it looked like they were going to be hanging out but B and I planned to have a movie marathon in the living room. We started pulling out pillows and setting up when I think they realized this was a private event. I don't really care if I pissed them off either. They left and just got back about 45 minutes ago. For once they spent the night at his house. Me and B had candy and junk food and watched Pitch Black (because the new Riddick opened yesterday and I wanted her to have some of the back story. I surprisingly don't have Chronicles of Riddick. Anyone?) and then Sky High. Sky High was hilarious. It's a Disney movie with Kurt Russell, Lynda Carter, Kelly Preston, David Foley, Kevin MacDonald, and a few more great actors I can't think of right now. It was funny as hell. It was one of those movies that B had on her list of 'movies you have to watch' in exchange for me making her watch 'my' movies. I really enjoyed it so not a problem. By the time all the movies were over it was about 11 and we cleaned up and went to bed. We both read for a while and crashed out around midnight. I am reading Gaiman's Ocean at the End of the Lane and got wrapped up in it and read longer than I planned. I should finish it today.

Today the kid and KBF are off to look at apartments. B was supposed to work but they cancelled her shift. I have some work to do this morning followed by getting ready for the show tonight. I need to do a pretty detailed playlist since it's a big birthday show for our director.

Fun stuff.

Y5 D104

Things have returned to some semblance of normal around here. The issues from Wednesday are behind us. Thank goodness.

I worked all during the day on some stuff. Need to finish it today. I also did a lot of movie related work on my other machine while I was doing real work. I now have all 10 of the Studio Ghibli Disney released movies. One friend dropped off her 3 DVDs and another put a jump drive together for me. In addition I cleaned up some of my TV show collections and filled in some holes on a couple of shows. Speaking of TV, I made steaks for dinner last night with petite lobster tails. Tails are $5 at the store right now because there is a large overstock of lobsters coming from Maine and Canada. Lobsters are at a 20 year low. If you like lobster now is the time to get some. While we were eating (me, B, and the kid) I picked a random show to watch off Netflix - Pretty Little Liars. That turned into a six episode mini-marathon. We all got hooked despite how stupid we all recognize the show to be. Sigh. Thank goodness there's only three seasons.

I also made a honey cake in honor of Rosh Hashanah. That turned out awesome. I even impressed myself on this one.

So yeah, everyone is getting along once more. Luckily the kid and KBF are going saturday to look at an apartment. Honestly I am happy because it's just far enough away that we can visit if we want, but not so close we will see each other all the time. I am curious to see how this plays out. Will she be so focused on her own life that she stops calling or texting? Or will she be so stressed she calls all the time? Time will tell.

I also feel bad for my sister right now. Her husband got laid off. I wish there was something I could do to help them. If I knew anyone up there I would point them in a direction but I don't have any contacts that far north. Not in his field anyway. I know theater people up there, but that doesn't help. I hope they get that all situated quickly.

Today is more doc work. I need to finish this up too. Pretty big project I am working on right now.  I will finish it. I always do.

Y5 D103

Now THAT was how you do Wednesday. The highlights:

- cops showing up
- a tattoo being done in the middle of the kitchen
- puking happening in the main and only bathroom
- peeing in the yard

When we throw down on a Wednesday, we do it right bitches. Out of all of those above, only one is related to me thank goodness. I was not the reason the cops showed, I neither gave nor received a tattoo, I was not to the point where I was going to puke. I did however, with my host's blessing, pee in the yard in a corner. This was because the above bathroom was occupied. While the night was fun, the day had its issues.

Got up and drove the kid to the train station. Because of traffic it took me an hour roundtrip to go roughly 10 miles. I was not in a good mood on the way back. When I got back I stopped at the service shop to talk to them about B's car. It's been making a noise and she was worried. I explained to the mechanic the symptoms and he said to bring it by although odds are it was nothing major. That's what I had figured as well. I got home, got B up and then we dropped the car off and headed to the DMV for her to get her California ID finally. (Ugh I keep getting pulled away while trying to write this.) The line at the DMV was a mile long. Okay, fine it wasn't really a mile but it sure felt like it. Almost 2 hours later we got out of there. While we were there the mechanic called - nothing major. The most likely candidate is the AC compressor which is already dead. It might be the tensioner but he couldn't quite tell. Regardless, it is nothing that is going to be life threatening.

After the DMV we grabbed some lunch since it was close to the time to pick the kid back up at the train. This is where the 'fun' started. On the way back to the mechanic to pick up B's car, I casually mentioned to the kid she needs to put gas in it. She then started going on about how she put gas in before she left for burning man and there was gas and she needed to look at her bank statement which of course sent B into a ball of white hot rage. The issue though is that she didn't mean it the way it came out. She was okay with putting gas in, she was just confused about when she had last put gas in. That of course didn't come out until later. We got to the shop and B stormed off to get her car, put her own gas in, and that set the kid off who started bawling. On one side I have one who let's everything piss her off too quickly and on the other I have one who is massively emotional too quickly. And here I am stuck in the middle. Saturday. On Saturday the kid and KBF are off to look at an apartment. I can survive until then. The next few hours were tense while everyone calmed the fuck down.

We made it through and all watched some TV together before it was time to head out to the party. The whole point of the party was a final going away for our friend as well as Always Sunny premiere night. We had a ton of fun and got home around 11:30.

All in all it was an okay day. A little too much up and down, but I survived.

Y5 D102

Holiday weeks always throw me off. It's Wednesday, right? I am so confused. But you know what tonight is? The premiere of Always Sunny! Woo hoo! Of course we are having a viewing party tonight. B is in for a treat. She has never really watched the show and is not really a fan, but tough. She is about to see what happens when a bunch of fans get toasty and watch.

Spent the day doing some document work. Working on that pet project of my boss that he wants so bad that no one else seems interested in right now. Hey it's billable hours and it keeps him off my back so whatever. I also made arrangements for November for a conference in Vegas. I might be the only person who could care less about going to Vegas. Everyone is acting like they are doing me some big favor for letting me go to this conference where as I see it as an annoyance. I dislike Vegas these days because I don't have money to blow, don't want to be there alone, and hate being there amongst a bunch of geeks. They are all staying at the Luxor (and by they I mean the other 6 or 7 people going) where as I requested I stay at the Hilton. I need the nights. I want to hit diamond dammit. I plan on going, being professional around everyone and spending most of the time alone in my hotel room. I am going because to me it's another gig, not a vacation. I have to leave at 7am right after a show on Sunday and come back late on a Wednesday. I get 3 nights out of it leaving me only 10 more to nail down before the end of the year. I just need a couple of Disney trips. One good five day client trip would be perfect. Sigh. So close.

Drove the kid to class yesterday because I wanted to have my car. B had day two at her new job. Got KFC for dinner because I was craving some nasty ass chicken. Paying for that this morning. My bowels are all wobbly. Played Infinity, read, and went to bed. Boring day equals no drama equals no real issues equals an okay day.

More docs this morning followed by Always Sunny. This might be a good day.

Y5 D101

It's Tuesday and no longer a holiday. Back to the regular grind of the working week. Luckily this is a document week and lord do I plan to work on docs today. I will not have anyone yelling at me like three weeks ago. Fuck that noise. I did get one work email yesterday which I steadfastly refused to answer even though it sitting there was driving me insane. It was a matter of principle.

B had her first full day of work yesterday. She worked from 9 until about 6. I spent the day alone for the most part as the kid had work in the afternoon. I cleaned the house, took care of kitty litter, did all the laundry, and played SimCity. I don't like the persistent internet connection bullshit. I don't like that my cities are stored in some random server somewhere. I don't want to 'connect with all your friends'. I want to play the fucking game. Sigh. At some point this will backlash on companies. Things will go back to being stored locally and life will be peaceful again. I will say that I do enjoy the game though. It's very fun and I like the building tools. My city is doing pretty well. I need to redo some stuff as my growth levels are askew in terms of city density. I have always loved the logic of SimCity and the like. Now if someone would just remake Populous...

We went out for dinner last night because B was very hungry and there wasn't anything in the fridge that was appealing to her. We just went to Fridays because I was being lazy and it was a holiday. The place was dead. I mean like seriously dead. I guess most people were too busy being 'merican and having hot dogs and the like. Whatever. Not my scene man.

Went to bed around 10, tossed and turned until 11. I am in a blah kind of state this morning. Let's see if I can shake it.

Y5 D100

It's been 100 days since year five started. Okay that worked better in my head. I was going for some barenaked ladies there. No? Meh, philistines.

Yeah, I am in a better mood. Yesterday was a pretty good day except for one little meltdown by the kid. We got up and started being productive around noon given that we once more went to bed at 4am. Oh hey, I just realized it's Monday and a fucking holiday. No guilt for me. Anyway, we headed out for some lunch. We had chinese noodles at one of my favorite places. Then we hit up Target for some house stuff. Ended up buying a new toaster because B hates my toaster oven. It's cool. I only bought it for the kid when she moved in so it's perfect as when we got home I gave it to her. We also stopped at a local liquor store and I picked up a bottle of the whiskey I had back when we went to the distillery. I specifically was looking for their single malt which is currently being sent. I will try again in a couple of weeks. Regardless, we had a good time out enjoying ourselves.

When we got home, the kid and KBF were sitting on the couch in their underwear. I kind of snapped at them because frankly it's rude. KBF left like immediately which caused the kid to get all sad because she was afraid I scared him away. Then she started getting all sad about being an adult and moving out and this and that. We had a nice talk about things. I helped her find some options for jobs and assured her that she would have food even if I had to 'accidentally' leave groceries there. That made her feel better. She got a call from KBF who wanted her to meet him and his dad for dinner. She later told me that he didn't get freaked out by me but instead I was the catalyst that got him motivated because he felt guilty about sitting around in his underwear until 3 in the afternoon. Good. So all is resolved on that front.

About 10 we headed back up to the city, yes for the third time in a row. Last night a bunch of us went up to the theater to be part of the final showing of spaceballs. We just did a pre-show thing and then bailed. We were home and in bed by 1.

And now, finally, a day of rest. I downloaded SimCity for Mac which just came out Friday. This is how I plan on spending my day - laundry and video games. I rock.

Y5 D99

I am very sad this morning. I did something that really hurt B's feelings without meaning to but none the less, I hurt her. For my birthday she bought me that replacement Marc Jacobs bracelet. She was so proud she had found it online for me, she dealt with all the shipping mishaps, and for her it was a lot of money. So what happened? I fucking lost it at the show last night. Even after she warned me not to wear it to shows. I realized I lost it on the way home at 3am which was awful. She was very upset with me. We ended up getting through it, but I really felt horrible and still feel bad this morning. She worked very hard to get that for me and I fucked up. She isn't awake yet this morning, but I am not looking forward to seeing the look of disappointment on her face.

Other than that, it was an okay day. I got up, cleaned the cat litter, did the dishes, washed the car, went grocery shopping, did some caulking in the bathroom, and a dozen more little things all around the house. A package I ordered from Disney came (a new pin that was on sale for $4) which was exciting because it is an LE pin.

We all napped during the day as we had to be in the city again last night. I made a cheesecake, rice krispie squares, and some nice steaks for dinner. The show went fine and there was only a little drama none of which included me thankfully. The crowd was okay, but none of us had the super energy because of Spaceballs the night before. But we all got through it.

I just can't this morning. I am feeling too sad to keep writing.