Y5 D109

My mind has been acting up lately. I have been trying to keep it under wraps because I don't want B to think there is something wrong between us, but I can feel the dark edges slowly creeping their way back in. 

I don't know why. I think it's because I have been stuck in the house for a while and I have been doing the desk to couch commute for too long now. Three weeks of being home. Yes, I have extra outside things we have been doing, but it's the day time that is starting to get to me. The having to be home every day and go from one spot to the other without much break. Plus I am stressing about bills and money and life in general. The kid is having issues with trying to find a place. B isn't working as much as I thought she would be. Just one thing after another. It's all starting to pile up in my head.

But the upside is I will be out of town next week. My first major road trip in months. Of course it's to the one state in the union I would prefer never to step foot in but beggars can't be choosers. I am off to FL next week. Specifically West fucking palm beach. The one area. I am there Mon- Fri too. All fucking week in the one part of the one state I never want to be in. On the positive, I will pick up 6000-7000 airline miles and another 4 nights of hotel. The downside is I have to be in WPB FL. It's a big state and hopefully it won't eat at me too much being there, but...

Did more document work yesterday. Tomorrow and Friday are training classes, but today is another document day. Another day of couch to desk. Sigh. Another day off for B too which makes it tougher. We had a decent night. Soup and sandwiches for dinner since no one was super hungry. Kid had school followed by closing at work. She didn't get home until after midnight. B watched Hunger Games while I did work. We played Scrabble and read. We went to bed and I fell asleep but she managed to wake me back up. Enjoyable but now I am sleepy. Since I have to be up at 5 tomorrow and Friday I tried to get up early this morning but it was rough.

I am hoping I can shake these dark feelings before the weekend. Let's see how I do.

And thanks for chronicles of riddick. Might have to watch that tonight. Hopefully Always Sunny will come through at a decent time and I can watch that tonight.