Y5 D365

I DID IT! I lived through five years. I am still here and in one piece, mostly. My prostate is the only thing that has given out on me in the last five years. And this time, finally, we get to end the year on a high note. I am doing okay with my bills, I have plans for the next year that will radically alter my life financially, I have drastically reduced my drinking and most importantly, I am not ending the year alone. I have someone. I have a life. Took my five years to get things back on track, but dammit, I did it. So many ups and downs through out the last five years. Jesus fuck where have five years gone? I would say that this last year saw me happy more often than not. That in itself is a victory. A huge victory. Wow. I can't believe how much things have changed in just one year. B is here, the kid is on her own, I have a good circle of friends. It's all so overwhelming.

Yesterday was okay. B's car wouldn't start in the morning so she had to take mine. I then did some research into mobile mechanics and found one near by who could come out today. We ended up not making an appointment because when B got home her car started right up. I am thinking it has to do with the timing chain. It starts to catch but then can't quite do it. Like you need to crank it to get it just right and then vroom. Starts. Regardless, because she had my car, there wasn't a lot I could do outside the house. I ended up staying in and cleaning. Scrubbed the bathtub, organized some stuff in the office, took down garbage, and did general cleaning. Right now the place feels cluttered because we have been starting to pack and there are boxes everywhere. I want to possibly do some more today to minimize the clutter.

When B got home we invited a couple of friends over and we went to the grocery store to pick up some stuff. We needed a few things ourselves, plus some snack food. They came over around 7 and stayed until 11. We just hung out, played some games. Nothing exciting. B got really tired and went to bed around 11 and I stayed up until midnight. I am so used to being up late on Saturdays that I don't feel ready to sleep until at least that time. I slept well too.

Let's see how year six treats me. I have a feeling that is going to be a wild ride since it will end on a wedding.