Y6 D365

This is it. The end of six years of writing. Reflection day. What a year, huh? Got married. Moved. Got a raise. Ruptured my achilles.

I have come so far from where I was six years ago. Yet, at the same time, the one thing I have learned and tried to stick to is being true to myself. Not losing who I am and where I want to go and who I want to be. You know what I am most proud of in the last year? Finally get things paid off. Having less entires on this blog that start with me being hungover or pissed about spending too much money. That's the lesson I really have learned. It's too bad X2 couldn't have stuck around and helped me get to this place instead of walking out the door. But you know what? Fuck her. I needed her gone I think in order to discover all this. I needed to be at the right place and right time to meet someone like B who actually does love me for who I am, flaws and all. I have grown quite a bit. I should have done some of this growing a long time ago, but what the heck. Truly better late than never I feel. I like who I am finally. I didn't like that guy that was sitting in a bar six years ago writing his very first entry on this blog. That guy was lost, angry, confused, hurt, and a mess. I am over the anger. I am still a bit lost some days, but that's okay. I have someone to help me get where I need to be. I am no longer hurt or a mess. I get confused at times. But I have learned we all do. I have learned to stop judging myself against what others have or where they are in their life. I can be envious. Sometimes it's a good thing. It can be a good strong motivator. There's nothing wrong with some well placed envy. When it blinds you, it's a problem. When it helps point you in the right way...

So here's to you dear reader. Here's to sticking with me for six long ass years. The adventure has just begun. I think I will keep going for at least 10 years. I kind of want to see how it's all going to turn out, don't you?

I enjoyed my holiday yesterday. Ran a couple of errands, had some lunch, watched some TV, relaxed, and over all did jack shit and it was great. Went to bed around 11. Today I have more manual work to do and then I teach Thursday and Friday. Onward to a new week, a new year, and a new chapter in the never ending story.