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I am so fucking pissed off right now it's not even funny. I have been pissed off since yesterday afternoon and it's not going away any time soon. Plus I super depressed over the thing that is making me angry. No, not B, not work, not the cats - the fucking government. I finally got my tax numbers back yesterday. Fuck the government, fuck Obamacare, fuck fuck fuck.

We owe the Feds $2522. $2396 of that? Fucking B not having insurance. Are you fucking kidding me? Once again the government is applying macro economic rules to micro economic situations. Two things are pissing me off - first I am upset because I would have done it right for once in my life. I would have broken even. That should alway be your goal when it comes to taxes. If it wasn't for the stupid fucking insurance penalty I would have owed them $126. I am getting back about $500 in state which would have netted a $300 refund overall. That would have been PERFECT. It means I didn't give too much out nor did I keep too much in. A perfect goddamn balance. Nope. The government is going to fuck me over yet again. The second thing is their goes my fucking savings. I have worked my ASS OFF the last year to put almost $4000 in savings. Wiped out in one move. Gone. For what? Not even anything real. A stupid fucking penalty for something we couldn't afford. Fuck you. Fuck your fucking government oversight. This is the reason people get pissed and vote for people like Trump. No, don't worry. I am angry, I didn't get lobotomized. I am simply pointing out I can feel the pain of everyone who has been saying screw this new insurance deal.

Bottom line, I am once more fucked over and my hard work was for nothing. Absolutely nothing. Fuck me. Plus it's not like we can ask anyone for help either. Nope. This all comes out of our pocket. One fell swoop, we are back to square one.

Enough to make you put the gun in your mouth.

Taught my stupid class yesterday. Finished at 4, drove home in a blinding depression. Didn't say a word to B most of the night because I didn't want to snap at her for something that wasn't her fault. Did laundry and packed for the next week on the road. We leave in less then 24 hours and won't be home again until late Thursday.

Don't forget to feed the cats.

I finally was able to talk later in the night. We didn't make soap because I was just too upset. We have to do it tonight if we're going to give any to people this weekend. I didn't even dinner last night I was so upset. Food just wasn't anything I cared about. Still not hungry. Still angry.

Fuck this. And fuck this class I have to teach today. I am going to power through this as fast as possible to just be fucking done.