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Death watch 2018 is over. 4pm EST B's great grandma passed away at home at the age of 97. For a little while there it looked like it might be a double whammy. Her grandmother who up until now has been handling things okay, lost it. They had to take her to the hospital to get her to calm down and get checked out. Her blood pressure was crazy, she couldn't breathe, etc. But they got her stabilized and back home by 10pm EST. So now begins the day of prep and planning. Most everything is already handled, it's just scheduling. I say they will have the funeral tomorrow and get B home by the weekend. We will learn more today. I will not be going. B and I decided it wasn't worth the time or money for me to basically stand around while she talks with people. That's literally what would happen. Then she has to deal with everyone staring and making comments. Fuck that.

All of this got me to thinking. I normally only think about my mom's side of the family since it's what I grew up with and know. On that side, everyone is already gone. I am the eldest of that side of the family as far as people I interact with ever. I forget that on my dad's side I still have him and his mother. Given my age, his relative age to that, she must be at least late 80s if not 90 already. Assuming she is still alike. Last I heard she was, but that doesn't mean anything. If she is alive and passed, I honestly don't know if I would go to a funeral. Maybe. Depends on where and when. I know that sounds mean, but I don't know her. That's the thing people forget. I didn't grow up with that side of the family and then even after meeting them, I spent many years with no interaction. Hard to be emotional about someone you don't know. If something happened to my sister, sure I would be there. But my other sister? My dad? My grandmother? My other two half brothers I haven't seen in 10 or 30 years? Meh.

Along these lines, I set up a brokerage account yesterday. I want to make sure if something happens to me, B will be okay. I haven't funded it yet. That will come on payday, but I want to have something there in case she ever needs it. Start putting money away now even if it's in an index fund to let her sit on it for 20 or 30 years. Talk about coming a long way in 5 years. 5 years ago I had $32 in savings. Now I have almost $5000 and am opening a brokerage account. Go through hell and keep going.

Worked on stuff yesterday but have had a switch to priorities. Today I have until 10am to get done a custom class for Kohl's. They need to condense 3 days into 2 as usual and I have to figure out how. Sure. No problem. That will be my day. On top of that I got booked with more classes and as of tomorrow I am pretty much booked solid until 2/2. Good.