Y12 D35

HA! I slept in. I slept until 6:20. A full 8 hours of sleep for me! The ONLY advantage to these late class starts. I will be bitching and moaning come 3 in the afternoon when I still have half a day left for sure. Yesterday's group was rough. 15 students, a few who didn't really want to be there, some who shouldn't have been there, and some who kept having just troubles. I finished at 4:25. Also it's been so long since I have taught an all day class where I was talking non-stop that my voice was having trouble. Not cool as I have 5 students now for today and the same group of 15 tomorrow. But then I get freedom.

Today is day 116 since I have been home and haven't done anything. I would complain about the state of the world but there'd be too much to write about. You know, old people shouting white power, white people waving guns around like they're gangstas, bounties on US soldiers, states shutting back down because they didn't believe in science, etc. Just the usual shit going on up there for the surface dwellers. Us mole people are doing just fine thank you very much. And in my hole I will stay until 2021. I will admit, I have pretty much written off this year. Another six months of all this and then I might think about rejoining society. If there's one left to rejoin.

I read a funny that said 2020 is the perfect example that we do in fact create time travel in the future. Because they keep coming back to fix things and just keep fucking things up more. AKA Murder Hornets.

In reality, more people are dying. At the hands of the police. At the hands of racist bastards. By their own stupidity. I never asked for this timeline. Someone needs to get that fixed please.

Made chicken for dinner. Watched some TV with B. Went to bed.

Y12 D34

Real classes this week! Whee! 15 people today and Wednesday, 3 tomorrow. Yeah I know. Today and Wednesday is a private training for a group in OH. Because Tuesday's public class was already on the calendar, we had to break things up which is going to be a pain in the ass flow wise, but it means I am definitely making my monies for the week. Right now, that's all that matters. The only real shitty part is that tomorrow's class was a west coast one I took over from our other instructor. That means it's 11:30 - 7:30 my time which is real bitch. At least the other two are 8:30 - 4:30. That I can handle.

B ended up with a horrible migraine and back pain yesterday and basically didn't get out of bed until dinnertime. Which means I spent yesterday pretty much on my own. Kind of sucked to be honest. I didn't do much. Played some video games, watched some tv. I did set up her tent in the backyard:

We're such weirdos. But it is a nice tent. I won't deny that. I have no plans to go sleep in it any time soon, but it's kind of nice having something outside we can sit in away from the bugs but still enjoy things. We brought her new TV, a fan, and some chairs out there. Who knows, maybe next week when I am on vacation I will sleep in it one night to pretend I actually went somewhere.

Since I didn't know if she was ever getting out of bed, just made some hamburger helper for dinner. Quick, easy, produces leftovers.

Just three more days and I am free for 10. I can do it.

Y12 D33

Had really bad dreams last night. Weird shit involving X2, being late to teach a class, living in NY, getting lost, and more. I've had 5.5 hours sleep because B is home and she kept doing the pull and roll all night. Combine the two things and it was not a pleasant night.

I completely ran out of spoons yesterday. I was done. Done with cats, done with the house, done with humans. I had nothing left to give. I need to recharge.

Remember that money I just got? Well, guess what? Karma is a cunt. $1500 owed in taxes. There goes my nice cushy savings buffer. But at least we have it. And I made more interest on that $1500 by putting it into savings each month than the government would have given me. That's how I have to think about it. Even if I put $100 per pay period into savings, that's $2600 to savings at 1.3% return versus having $100 less per paycheck with 0% return and getting $1000 back in a refund. I still come out ahead for the 12 month period. So fuck them. I will pay the due and be done with it.

B came home as I said. I really got tired when I had to help unload her car. She brought half the damn house with her. Then laundry. On top of it, she fucked up her knee. Which meant her contribution to unloading was less than desired.

I don't know what I am doing today. Surviving? Getting through the next few days so I can be on holiday for a week? Some holiday. I was supposed to go to Chicago. Yeah. Going fucking nowhere. Maybe the cabin. At least do something. Sit on a lake and ponder the meaningless void of life.

Y12 D32

I got some awesome news yesterday but it's the kind of news I can't really share with too many people. Given the state of the world, it will do one of two things - first it would make people around here envious or angry with us. Or it would make it sound like we're bragging. So the only people I can really share this news with are you my readers. I am sorry if this news makes you angry at me, but I didn't plan for it.

That's a heck of lead-in isn't it? I got a check in the mail yesterday. It was from my old mortgage company. Kind of not unexpected because you know how things can be when you pay off any kind of loan like this. Either someone overpaid by a bit or underpaid by a bit. Kind of like when you buy a car and they get the payoff amount. Depending on WHEN the actual check gets cut, the amount might be off a little. I have been waiting for this letter. I figured I would either get a couple hundred back or owe a couple hundred. No big deal, right?

Well...

Turns out when they funded the new loan, they fully funded the escrow account out of the loan. Which means I still had an escrow account with the old lender. They sent me the remaining balance. $4266.75. Yeah. I essentially got an extra paycheck yesterday. See why I can't be running around this area sharing that news? That's a couple months salary for a lot of the people we know here. Salary they haven't been getting lately. For us it's an extra check. It's nice, but it's not going to change our lives. Honestly, $2500 of it is going right into savings the minute the check clears. $1100 is going to pay off two credit cards. The remaining $500 is getting split between us. In the end our 'windfall' will give us a couple hundred extra to spend. Just like I expected. It will be nice to have a cushion in our savings and have two less bills to pay next month. That's where the real benefit in this lies.

That was the big news for yesterday. Everything else was boring. B should be coming home today so I cleaned the house. Ate leftovers for dinner. Worked on docs. Nothing exciting there.

It's Summer Sale time on Steam. I did spend about $50. Got like 10 new games to my library. Yeah I know.

The new Roku arrived. Set that up upstairs and the old one in the basement. Now all of our devices have the same interface. Consistency is your friend.

I am done with these cats. They are driving me crazy. I need to get out of the house once B gets home. I don't know where or to do what, but I am going to take a drive probably tomorrow. Just get in the car and drive somewhere. I need an hour or two away.

Now, I just need that damn check to clear...

Y12 D31

I went to the store last night because I needed a couple of things for dinner. While out, I thought about why being in the house isn't bothering me as much as it did when I lived in the Bay Area or in SoCal. I figured it out. Space. I've literally got 3 times the amount of space I do here than I did there. In both of those apartments I had little choice of what room I could be in. Living room, bedroom, kitchen. That was about it. It felt like the walls were always closing in on me. No backyard, no place to really hide. Here I have options. I have the living room, the basement, my office, the cave, the backyard, heck even the garage. It's the difference between an animal in a 10x10 cage or one that has a natural environment where they can stretch and run. Still both caged animals, but the latter has the illusion of freedom and doesn't feel the need to escape. That's me. I have the illusion of freedom and it works just fine for me. I can't stay in any one place too long or I go nuts, like yesterday I worked straight through to finish the next doc and by the time 3pm hit, I wanted out of this office. And I had a choice. I could go into the basement and watch something on the big screen. I could go upstairs and do whatever. I have room to stretch. So I stay inside and accept being a caged animal. Especially as I read about 21 states having increases in cases and deaths. I read about CA and FL breaking their own one day records EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. The caged animal in this case is the one who doesn't die. Freedom's just another word for nothing left to lose? I have things to lose. Give me captivity.

As I mentioned, I finished the other doc. One left but I won't finish it until July. I can start it today, but then I have 3 solid days next week, one day to work on it, then done done done until 7/13. Maybe in those two weeks the world will calm down. Unlikely, but one can hope.

For dinner I made seafood mac and cheese with shrimp and crab. I will get multiple dinners from it for sure.

Then I worked on a couple of projects. B has been wanting a better device to watch TV on in her basement. We've been using an old computer and having to do everything from a web browser has been a bit annoying. Plus it chokes at times on larger files. Okay. I got her a TCL TV with a Roku built directly in. Same interface she's used to using on the big TV. 32" versus the 21" monitor she was using. Then I ordered a new Roku for upstairs so we can trash the Apple TV that's connected to the projector in the basement. I will take the current older Roku from upstairs and move it down. Thanks to gift cards, rebates, and coupons, I got both items for under $200. Not freaking bad eh? I saved over $120 total. The TV came yesterday and I set that up. The new Roku comes today so that will be my project for tonight.

Then I hung some shelves in my closet to give me more room for clothes. Not that I am adding clothes, but so I could spread out what I have and make it look less messy. I did laundry and when I was going to put stuff away it was just a frustrating mess. So I fixed. Plain and simple.

Touched up my hair too. Hey, I can stay flamingo pink as long as I don't have to see clients. Fuck it. Pink it stays. I have also decided no hair cutting until things calm down. Let's see how long this mess gets.

That's about it for today. Bills are paid. First mortgage payment on the new loan sent. $300 cheaper. That will go a long way towards other stuff. Add to that the stuff I paid off last month and that's $500 less going out per month already. I will take that $500 and dump it on something else to make it $600 or $700 next month. Goals.

Y12 D30

Happy Doom Patrol season 2 day! Well at least the first three episodes. All of Twilight Zone season 2 came today though. So there's 13 episodes of TV to watch. Whee! This is when I need to be on the road. It's so hard to sit and watch tv at home. The guilt crawls in after watching 1 or 2 episodes of something. I should be doing something productive the old brain screams.

People are stupid. I saw a post yesterday from Stephen King saying how COVID is nothing like The Stand and some dumbass responds with did you even read the book?? Kind of like how one troll tried to tell the WRITER of Deadpool she didn't know anything about Deadpool. Fucking trolls.

Got quite a bit done on the docs yesterday. Didn't leave the house of course. Stayed inside. Had one adventure inside though. We got an order of worms yesterday. Yes, you can order worms online. God bless the internet. Anyway, moved them to a new container but I guess I didn't put the lid on tight enough and when I went to open the baby fridge later in the day, worms everywhere. These fuckers were having an adventure. Bastards. There 100 worms in that order and it felt like all of them were making a break for it. I wrangled those goobers pack in their container.

Yes, worm wrangling was the most exciting thing to happen to me yesterday.

Made fish tacos for dinner. Did some laundry. About to do some more. Finish the doc today and then have an easy day tomorrow is the plan. Unsure of when B is coming home from the woods. I know they had rain the first two days they were there so I doubt she is coming home today. Need to get her time's worth I feel. I expect her home Sunday to be honest. Fine with me. I can go longer periods of isolation than she can that's for sure. Let her get in a good dose of social interaction.

Okay, time to start more laundry. Adventure is out there! Somewhere. I guess? Not in here, nope.

Y12 D29

Woke up to machines disconnected as well as my phone. Apparently we lost internet sometime during the night. Fucking hate that. My phone doesn't auto reconnect for some reason when that happens and my stupid windows machine has problems too. Have to reboot it whenever that happens. Pain in the ass.

Was listening to George Michael yesterday. Yeah, leave me alone. I like GM. That man could fucking sing. I actually got to see him on the 25 tour. Unfortunately it was with X2 and we had a big fight right before the show so my memory of it is clouded at best. But I remember enough. I remember him joking he couldn't hit some of the notes on the older songs but managed anyway. He was tired. That showed too. Years of everything wore him down. Go listen to Praying for Time. Still relevant.

Finished doc one of two yesterday. Should finish the second today giving me a break for the remainder of this week.

Went to Target to pick up a scrip for B. Yeah that was no bueno. Fucking humans. Hate them. Leave me be in my basement of doom.

They were working on the house next door again. Still no power as they were using a generator from the garage. Man I want to get in there and see what's going on. Curiousity is killing me. But the satisfaction will bring me right back. There's a lesson all children should get - the COMPLETE phrase of things like:

- Rome wasn't built in a day but it burned in one
- Jack of all trades but master of none though often times better than the master of one
- The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese

Very different meaning when you see the whole thing, eh?

Made lamb chops for dinner, then made a cake for dessert. Pineapple angel food cake with a mini-marshmallow strawberry cool whip frosting. It's horrible to look at but it slices nice and damn if it isn't tasty. Some sugar on sugar action for you baby.

Finished ME. Now can import into ME2. Goals.

That's all from the hole today kids. Let's get out there and wear a mask, drink a glass of water without throwing it, and avoid other humans if possible. Ah, life goals.

Y12 D28

Finally finished that document yesterday. Finished around 4:30pm which was later than I would have liked but one out of three is finally put to rest. Now I get to work on two more. Whee. I really just have to make it through this week. Three days of teaching next week, one day for Admin shit, then holiday and vacation. I can make it another 4 days. Hopefully.

B is in the woods. Technically she's at a state park with showers, a lake, a store, etc. Not really in the wild, but hey, it's camping. She did buy a really nice tent. It arrived early yesterday morning. This thing has 150 LED lights built into the ceiling, it's got a closet area, waterproof guarantee, and it's huge. Holds two queen mattresses. So there's that.

I made carnitas tacos last night. Tonight is lamb. Having all the foods this week. We went to the grocery store yesterday morning and stocked up not only for her trip but for the house for the week too. We were overdue.

Not much else going on. Almost done with Mass Effect so I can import my character into ME2. Yeah, they had all of them on Steam and I am playing them. Leave me be. It keeps me amused.

Y12 D27

So here's something interesting:

For the last few months B has been feeling super lethargic (chronic fatigue, CFS), sleeping problems, and straining to take super deep breaths.  You know, COVID symptoms, but without any of the other symptoms. It started early this year, but we thought it was just rundown from her cousin’s funeral, holidays, etc. Then the state of the world, lockdown, etc.

Yesterday her and I were reading an article about POST COVID issues people have been having. It described her to a T. A big one being CFS. Now we’re both thinking how the heck can you have POST symptoms for something you never had?? Well this got us to thinking. I was super sick in December and sent this on 12/11 to my coworkers:

As of right now I am not 100% sure I will be able to deliver Monday’s class. I have been sick for nearly a week and a half. I nearly passed out twice at client, have almost no voice left, and today started coughing up blood with a bloody nose from coughing so hard.

Yeah. And for those weeks in late Nov and Dec, think about where I was and what airports I went through: SEA-TAC, DFW, SAC, O’Hare, Philly, and Detroit Metro – ALL later to be found as hotspots. We’re seriously wondering if we both had an early COVID that I picked up on the road, brought home, and gave to B. It just didn’t have a name yet. Given the two – three week incubation period, the timeline fits.

You know me, I get things WAY before they’re cool.

The shitty part is they're still learning what post COVID looks like. Who knows what this has done to her immune system. Not worried about mine. I just keep chugging along.

We did some house cleaning yesterday plus got B packed for her trip. I got up early to wait for the grocery delivery which got delayed 3 hours and then they didn't get half the stuff on the list. WTF? Never using that service again. Now we have to go to the store this morning to get the last things she needs. Lovely.

Water changes on the tanks. Laundry. Typical Sunday shit. For dinner I made a lasagne. Good size too that only left a little leftovers perfect for a lunch.

This week is more fucking busy work. Next week I have three days of classes, then a holiday, then a week off thank god.

Oh the kid called me yesterday for Father's Day. She's having a rough time. Her boyfriend lost his job, the dog is starting its heartworm treatment, and her old dog at home had a stroke and died. Good times right there. She's hanging in though. On the workfront she is being promoted to Art Director after she takes some management classes so there's that. Find the silver lining.

That's all for now kids.

Y12 D26

As planned, I did nothing of any significance yesterday. Go me. Moved some artwork on the walls, that was about it. Otherwise, it was a video game, relaxing sort of day. It was 91 outside so yeah, we didn't go out there much. I did go outside in the morning to do a little yardwork but that was it. I was already sweating after just 15 minutes.

B is going back out of town this week. She is heading up to a state park to go camping with some friends. They are going Monday to Sunday so I couldn't go even if I wanted to join them. She's only staying until Thursday but still, I have no interest in sleeping in a tent outside. You have fun with that. She has fond memories of camping as a child, I have the exact opposite. Dirt. Heat. Boredom. That's what camping equals for me. Have fun.

Today not much on the agenda. I might do some work later to get a jump on next week but otherwise, not much else.

Y12 D25

FINALLY I got 8 hours of sleep. Well almost 8 but it's close enough for me. It's not 6. A couple extra hours can make a huge difference, believe me. For the first time this week I don't feel like death warmed over either. Thank you new humidifier. I know I am sleeping more sound as I am having very lucid dreams. Getting some damn REM sleep for once.

Almost didn't fall asleep thanks to the neighbors. They were lighting off fireworks in their driveway starting around 9:30. They were having a graduation party. First off, that many people in one house? Enjoy your 'rona. Second, doing fireworks in a residential area like that? Dumb dumb and dumb. I hate humans.

I worked all day yesterday. This stupid doc is taking a lot longer than I want it to but it needs to be done. B left around 7 and got back around 2 from taking her uncle to OH. Luckily he avoided any serious jail time. Just fines and probation. He was there for an instance about 6 months ago where he drunkenly lost his shit and destroyed a hotel room. He also needs to attend anger management and counseling, but at least he avoided jail.

With her gone all day I was able to focus. I just sat down here and cranked away. Made a nice roast for dinner. Played some video games and went to bed.

Nothing planned for the weekend. No water changes needed. No pressing obligations. B got the cleaning bug up her butt at 10pm so the house is already clean too. For that I am grateful. We have groceries so don't need to go anywhere for that either. I can hide in the house.

Y12 D24

Very busy day yesterday but not very productive work wise. I am going to have to scramble today to make up for lost time. Started working on B's car at 6:30 only to realize I didn't have the right tools to finish the job. Oh man, I just had a bad flashback. All the times my stepfather would do side work in our garage and "not have the right tools" and have to go out and spend hundreds of dollars on one specific niche tool he'd only use once. Luckily this wasn't the case for me. I didn't have any socket wrenches or sockets. Yes, I know that's a basic tool. But it's not like I do a lot of auto repair or home DIY normally. I actually did need a quasi decent socket set. I spent about $130 on something that would not only work for this project but be useful for multiple other projects around the house. Got the battery out and swapped by 7:45. Car started right up when I got the new battery in. Okay, one thing down.

Then I had to empty out all of the bottom kitchen cabinets because at 3 the pest guy was coming to do an annual maintenance spray. We've been having carpenter ants again, but it's been a year since they last sprayed and it needed it. Took care of that and pulling some furniture away from the walls. Now it's 10am and I haven't done shit.

I worked from 10 until 3 which wasn't enough time to make significant headroads on the docs I needed to get done. When the spray guy was done, B's friend had come over to hang out and we ordered pizza. Next thing you know it's 9pm. Well fuck. There goes the day. So yeah, I need to double up today and finish things.

My humidifier ran out of water halfway through the night last night. I didn't refill it because reviews all said it lasted longer than it did for me. Whatever. Now I know I have to fill it every night.

Have to wake B up at 6:30 so she can drive to OH. It's going to be another fun day. I can already tell.

Y12 D23

Having a major issue right now. B's car is giving us troubles. This is why I don't buy used cars any more. She went to go to the store yesterday and it wouldn't start. I managed to get it started and she then took it to the chiropractor and got stuck. It may be just the battery (which of course isn't covered under warranty) but the check engine light is on too. We have the full 3rd party warranty but I have to go to a specific garage as the dealer who sold it to us said they can't work on it. WTF? Okay, you just lost a customer. So this morning I am going to get a battery to see if that addresses the immediate issue. Fun times.

Plus at 3pm today we have the pest people coming over because the ants are back. On top of all that, the dishwasher is making a fucked up noise.

One fucking thing after another.

Plus I had work to do in and around all this.

Bright spot of the day? My new bedside humidifier came and it's wonderful. Good size, good amount of mist. I slept like a fucking log for once. That at least makes me happy. Everything else is just pissing me off.

Y12 D22

Spent the first part of the day working on docs. Got a good deal done too. Surprised myself. Should have another solid chunk done this morning. Goal is to be done by EOD Thursday so I can derp around on Friday. Going to do my best to make that goal.

Speaking of Friday, B has to drive to OH with her uncle. He needs someone to go to court with him and she's the only responsible adult around. Yeah. Her grandfather would normally have gone, but he's still at the lake and he asked B because he trusts her. Logical. But there's like 8 hours of her day.

Second half of the day was spent teaching. 6 students. Decent group surprisingly. I was impressed at how well they did. Usually people from that company are a pain in my ass but this group wasn't bad. A few technical issues as usual, but overall acceptable.

Had to go to the store after class. B realized she was out of a couple of important things. That was an adventure. Not as busy as I expected but still not fun. Got some deli stuff for dinner while I was there because it was already getting late.

B got a bug up her ass around 7:30 and decided to clean the fish tank. Which means I helped clean the fish tank. At 8:30 I broke down one of the cannisters to clean. Next thing you know it's 10pm. Because reasons. Went to bed shortly thereafter.

Overall the first pretty decent day in a while both mentally and physically. Of course the world is still shit. People being lynched, people being shot for being drunk. Fuck the police.

Y12 D21

I went to bed late last night but managed to sleep in a little bit to compensate. The problem was I dozed off sitting up on the couch at like 7:30. Ended up sleeping for an hour which screwed me up. The sun was coming in through the window, it was a little warm, and boom, I'm gone. I hate that. It's also dry AF in here again because we have the stupid air running. I need to look up small humidifiers today. Get one for my nightstand. My travel one is fine for travel but it's too messy and unstable for the house. This is what happens when you're born and raised in a wet climate. Fuck dry heat. Fuck dry cool. Fuck dry altogether. Give me the humidity thank you very much.

Spent the day going over another class. I knew what the end result was going to be even before having my now weekly meeting. I now have to convert 4 classes over the next three weeks to our proper look and feel. Whee.

We had breakfast for dinner because why the fuck not.

Today I have a 12-4 class with six people from an annoying client. I already know this is going to suck. There is talk however of an onsite in like August in MN. Finally something to look forward to in the near future.

That's about all for now. It should hopefully be a boring week. The world is currently not of fire although seeing as all these people are supposedly lynching themselves in SoCal, who knows what shit is going to erupt.

Hey, what happened to the murder hornets and volcanoes? Don't introduce a plot twist if you're not going to use it. Sheesh 2020, what's wrong with you?

Y12 D20

I shared an image on twitter yesterday that I want to share here too:

This shit is far from over people. I had to go to the small fish store yesterday for B to get worms and I got snickered at for putting a mask on before entering. Mask shame me all you want assholes. I am not dying for worms. I would rather be paranoid and alive thank you very much.

My one hour trip out of the house filled me with nothing but dread, annoyance, and frustration. I am happy just to stay inside and let the world out there blow itself up.

B got home around 4, helped her unload everything, and we had dinner. We both needed the break. I was happy to see her and spend time with her when she got home. That was the whole point of her taking a few days away.

I also need work to change. I am getting tired of this shit. I have one class this week and that's it. Starting to drive me nuts.

Y12 D19

B comes home from the lake today. Yay! The few days apart has done us both some good. She got to unwind and I got a few days where I didn't feel like I was doing everything. Granted I still was doing everything because it was just me here, but it was different. I don't know how to explain it.

Went to the grocery store yesterday morning. Came back, baked a cake, did laundry. Watched some TV, played video games, more laundry. It was a nice slow paced day with no obligations. I even had some time to read. Something I have not done in a while.

I had soup and sandwich for dinner, cranked music up kind of loud, and just enjoyed the day. I did test the volume level at one point. We have good windows. The one nice thing about home ownership. You're not worrying that shit is too loud for someone else. It also doesn't hurt that no one has been in or near the drug house in like a week. I did see a city inspector truck out there last week so they must be trying to get the power legally turned back on. I still think they're going to sell it. Across the street they had a graduation party for someone and there were like 10 cars in the driveway. Man oh man. Am I the only one around here who reads the news and keeps up on things? COVID cases are still going up people. And in 21 states they are going up rapidly because of early reopening and blatant disregard for distancing and masks. Y'all dumb. Enjoy that 'rona.

Okay, this morning need to do a quick visual sweep of the house to make sure it looks good for B's arrival. Otherwise, no obligations for me.

Y12 D18

Did a lot yesterday. All of my weekend chores done on Friday. Touched up my hair, water changes on the tanks, cleaned. Couple of things left - grocery shopping which I am doing in 90 minutes and laundry which I will do when I get back. After those, I am done for the weekend.

I made ribs. Have leftovers for tonight.

Happy Kraken Appreciation Day btw. Chinese food and Kraken rum are the traditional foods of my people today. Don't be appropriating my culture!

Y12 D17

Bill day. Whee. Been up for an hour already but been doing bills, transferring money, etc. You know the same shit I do every two weeks. Good times.

Worked on another class yesterday. As a student again. I am going to take my certification test next friday I think. I probably will fail, but at least I will know what they are looking for in terms of questions. If I pass, great, it's one thing behind me and adds a feather in my cap.

Got a new jewelry cabinet yesterday. Spent the evening putting it together. Organized all my jewelry. Realization? I am missing way too many earring backs. It be that way sometimes.

Ate every leftover I could from that fridge. Some of it is not sitting well right now, but dammit, the fridge is empty. That's all that counts. Even if I spend the weekend on the toilet.

Did the fish stuff because it's what I do for B. Man her fish are creepy.

Finished ATLA. What a great show. 10/10. Now, do I move on to Korra or She-Ra? Been hearing lots of good things about that one. May save Korra for a road trip which some day I will get to take again. Someday.

I am taking today off to do shit around the house. Clean. Water changes. Reorganize my closet. You know, boring shit. That's my life. B is still at the cabin. They had a busted pipe issue yesterday that needed fixing. She finally got running water around 2pm. Yeah, this is why I go to hotels. Just saying.

Y12 D16

I am alone in the house. Not going to lie. It's kind of nice. A little alone time is not a bad thing. It's the closest I am going to get to being on the road right now and I will enjoy it.

Had a busy day yesterday. Went to the back to get some tip money for the dryer guys. Man, they were good. They showed up at 8:15 and were done by 8:45. Big bang boom. Was very impressed. I love my new dryer. It matches first off which is important to me. But the settings! Finally my clothes will be clean and properly dryed. Very happy.

Finished taking the other instructor's course. Oy. Over 1200 changes. It's clear he's never had to hand off material for someone else to use to teach. Missing steps, incomplete steps, assumptions about what screen you're on. A lot of little things like that. The material itself is good, just needs some major cleaning.

Finished that up around 11 and killed two hours until my class. Taught 15 people from 1 until 5. Decent group. No problems.

Made salmon tacos for dinner. Trying to go through everything we have sitting in the fridge and freezer. Then I watched ATLA. I am so close to being done it's not even funny. Have like 4 episodes left. But man some wonderful dialog:

"My first girlfriend turned into the moon"
"That's rough buddy"

Beautiful. After this I am going to watch Korra and I am hoping it's at least half as good as ATLA. Went to bed around 11 and had the whole bed to myself. And three stupid cats. But mostly to myself.

Running through a second class today. Otherwise, not much else going on.

Y12 D15

Dryer day! Woo! I need to go to the bank this morning to get them some tip money but it feels late already. I need like all of 5 minutes but it just feels like I am rushing.

Spent the day auditing a class. Same thing for 1/2 of today. Have a 1/2 day session with a client from 1-5pm. B's headed to the cabin. I get some alone time.

We both need it. For sure.

And beware of 75 year old men with scanners trying to hack you! Apparently they're all over the place.

Fucking idiot.

Y12 D14

I heard from a good friend yesterday. We chatted a bit and it was nice to hear we're not the only ones struggling with the same issues. Stuck at home, tired of seeing each other, getting on each other's nerves, trying to reconcile everything, etc. Sometimes in situations like this you don't see that everyone around you is going through similar stuff. You need to hear or see it to know you're not alone. It was helpful for me and B.

I've been watching Airbender on netflix. Man, what a great show. Up until now I didn't have really any opinion on it, good or bad. It wasn't something I had much thought about. But since it's available, I started it. I love it! I am in season 3 and let me tell you Iroh is the shit. Goals. I see now why people have always been in love with that show. Almost done with it and then I can watch the sequel, Korra.

Took more training yesterday. Had my 1:1 and am very happy with how those are going. I finally feel listened to. Amazing how much that does for morale.

Had a nice quiche and salad for dinner. We needed a light meal. We've been comfort eating for too long. Too heavy.

B is headed out to the cabin tomorrow. Staying until Saturday. She needs a change of scenery and I need some privacy. Think it will be good for both of us.

More training today. Then I need to move the dryer. The new one comes tomorrow. So excited. Yeah, I am a boring old man.

In more important things, you all need to watch this video. It's one of the most powerful, eye opening things I have ever watched:

https://youtu.be/sb9_qGOa9Go

I leave you to think about that today.

Y12 D13

Very boring day. The only exciting part was me and B having a discussion about everything isa affecting us, how long we've been in the house together, and how we're both starting to go a little crazy. A conversation I am sure has been happening all across the world. Two people can only spend so much time in the same space as one another for so long. It's all good though. We got all of our frustrations out, figured out ways to work better, and moved on.

Made carnitas tacos for dinner with elote. Was very happy with my elote.

Don't know what else. One of those days that just kind of went by in a blur. New dryer this week. Yay.

Y12 D12

I am awake, again. I need to go back to the store because B didn't add everything. I know it's stupid to get up so early just to go to the grocery store but it's the only way I can mitigate the anxiety. I watched a video yesterday of someone at a Vegas casino and man the stress it gave me. No social distancing, no masks. This shit isn't gone just because you're tired of it people. More are going to die. Mark my words.

So I went to the store, cleaned the house, did four loads of laundry, prepped dinner, watched tv, did some yardwork, made dinner, went to bed. Nothing exciting happened.

Oh I finally had to put gas in my car. 3 months on the same tank of gas. Let's see how long this one lasts. I did some analysis of our home finances and we have spent 50% less than we did the same time last year on gas. About 20% less on groceries and over 200% less on dining out. It's an interesting study into our spending habits.

Rinse and repeat, rinse and repeat.

Y12 D11

I spent yesterday watching videos from other companies on one particular technology that I will be taking the test on. Wow. This shit was horrible. Yet somehow the company that produced it has 50 million subscribers and got funding of 65 million. WTF? Our stuff is 1000x better and we struggle. Why? I posed that question to the powers that be. Let's see what comes of it.

After that I did some of my weekend tasks to get them out of the way. Did water changes, did some cleaning. So today I have to go to the store this morning, laundry when I get back, more house cleaning, done.

The world is still a dystopian novel fulled of assholes. No change there.

Y12 D10

I am worn out. Both mentally and physically. It's exhausting trying to keep up with everything in the world. I do agree with the posts online that say look if you overwhelmed, cool, just don't post on every site how overwhelmed you are, it just makes you look selfish. I get that. But man I do need a break from the news and the coverage and the posts. It just makes you feel useless after a while because you can't do much more than get out of bed and do you're own shit let alone fix 400 years of systemic racism and violence. And that sucks.

Finished the 3rd class yesterday. Now it's time for me to study to take a certification class. Oh boy. Because you know, that's important.

Sliced up some steak last night, made nice strips. Had a steak salad for dinner. Watched ATLA some. I am impressed with that show. Damn good. About halfway into season 2. Really well done.

Thank goodness the weekend is upon us because my lack of plans was getting to exciting to miss!

Bah.

Y12 D9

Thursday. I think. Not sure any more. Curfews. Riots. Protests. Viruses. How am I supposed to keep track of something as meaningless as the day?

Recorded all day. FInished around 4. Got the second class done. Whoop-de-doo.

Made pineapple chicken for dinner. Whee.

Went to bed.

Y12 D8

Haven't looked at the news yet. Do I want to? WHat scray shit will I find today? What atrocious acts against humanity were committed this time? What evil did Palpatine, I mean McConnell, bring down now? God that man is a walking piece of shit. I feel for him though. Instead of Vader, he gets Jar Jar.

I recorded all day. Finished recording one of three classes. I am hoping to have the second one done today. Leaves me one more for the week.

It's almost my birthday. Not doing anything unfortunately. Oh well.

I realized yesterday I have been on the same tank of gas for 3 months. I need to run some analysis on our spending. See how certain categories have changed over the past three months. Compare gas, dining, and groceries to last years spend. Should be very interesting to see the difference.

Made fish tacos because I wanted them. Nothing more.

Y12 D7

The world is still in chaos. Curfews in effect. Arrests in the street. Military helicopters flying around pulling scare tactics. We are in the dystopian novel phase of humanity. Time to hit reset.

The idiot in chief yells at governors to stop looking weak. He wants people killed. He can't look bad in front of the other dictators.

Seriously though, if this were a book the plot would be too unbelievable, yet here we are living it. I'm here in my 'bunker' underground technically. Typing in the dark what I hope gets read by future generations as a warning. How fucking sad is all this? How disgraceful. Not on the part of the protestors or even the looters. Yeah I even support the looters. Burn it. Burn it all down. Shops that sell items in neighborhoods where the people can't afford to shop there don't deserve to be there. Why burn your own neighborhood? Because it's not their neighborhood any more. Gentrificaton, increased rents, white people taking over. Fuck yeah they want to watch it burn. OK is not just some distant memory. The abuse of slavery didn't happen 500 years ago. People being spit on and hung from trees and dragged behind cars and hosed down in the streets didn't happen somewhere else a long time ago. It happened here. Nearly in my lifetime in some cases. Angry? No, these people left anger a long time ago. This is payback. Loot it. Burn it. Destroy it all.

Let the walking cheeto see the danger in his words. Let him see what happens to tiny men who think they are larger than life.

They always lose in the end.

Y12 D6

April 29th 1992. There was a riot on the streets, tell me where were you?

We are officially in a police state. As of 8:15pm EDT this is the list of cities, counties, and states with curfews, states of emergency, and the national guard walking the streets.

I watched a video yesterday of national guard walking through a residential street telling people to go inside on their own property. Then yelling 'light em up' and shooting them with paintballs.

This is a police state. This is a nightmare.

They said it was for the black man, they said it was for the mexican. 

I am heartbroken that 28 years later we've learned nothing. Except more anger. More violence. The sad part? Much of the violence was committed by the police themselves. Or white hate groups. There are videos of the auto zone being lit up by a cop. He's been identified.

It's about this fucked up situation and these fucked up police.

In another, white supremacists flash their symbol on camera. And they were cops. George Floyd was the catalyst. The spark that pushed us all over the edge.

It's about coming up and staying on top and screaming 187 on a motherfuckin' cop.

Why burn Target? Because part of this is about all the people being sent back to work to die for capitalism. It's about all the frustration and anger that's been building up. This is far from over. This is just the start. Week long curfews. Military in the streets.

Congratulations. You made America great again.

Let it burn
Wanna let it burn