ANA Y2 D297

I have come to realize that right now I am functionally depressed. Plus the functional part is very tenuous. I am holding on by a string. I am having to really force myself to get shit done, but it's getting done. Barely. Why am I feeling this way? A million reasons. One of the biggest is this goddamn weather. It snowed again all day. Snow. I went to the store late in the afternoon and got snow whipping in my face. It's 29 degrees outside. I am struggling with this. Work isn't doing me any favors either. I watched more goddamn videos yesterday on AI-102 and ugh just painful. I have been working for 41 years. All I do is work and sleep and clean. Last year this time I was planning our trip. Now I am in an endless cycle of ugh. But I can't stop. I can never stop. I have to keep going. So I do.