One of my actual friends reached out to me yesterday to see how I was holding up from everything. I will tell you all the same thing I told her, after having a couple days to reflect on everything, I get it. We are fundamentally different people. But you know what? That's okay. It's not good, it's not bad, it just is. I tried to fit into a world that isn't right for me. That doesn't mean I am broken or something is wrong with me. We have different life experiences that have shaped us to be different people. Online we shared enough high level interests that we were able to have a friendship. In practice, we approach life from two different places and don't mesh. I identified four instances from Saturday that highlighted this. Technically I did suggest breaking and entering twice, I stole silverware, and I tried to get us on a tour bus. Taken individually these things wouldn't seem so bad but to all happen in a 13 hour window? Sure I get it. Your moral compass doesn't align with mine. Now to be fair, C would have been on board with at least three of those activities. She hates when I steal silverware too but finds it endearing not horrible person level. There were other little things too that came out that showcased our differences. I would wander off while we were at museums. I also felt judged about my choices in purchases. Things I looked at were deemed "clutter" where as for her the things she looked at were fine. Nope. Let it be a lesson learned and let's move forward. But to my friend who reached out - thank you. I appreciate you more than you will ever know.
I did in fact take a sick day yesterday. Got a good midday block of sleep in. Not 100% but feel better. Throat is still scratchy and nose stopped up. But I will get through by the weekend I am hoping. No plans for this weekend so I will get rest in. I did do laundry yesterday and made chicken fried rice for dinner. I may be sick but my pack needs to eat!
More paperwork today. Whee!
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