Sunday, June 10, 2012

Y4 D16

Yay I didn't sleep until noon this week! Not bad seeing as I got home at 3:27am. I tried to get up a couple of hours ago but the need for sleep was too great. But it's two hours sooner than last Sunday. That's an improvement right?

Yesterday turned out to be as long as I expected it to be if not a little longer. I was up early, started my class at 7 and it went until 3:15pm. The group was good. They asked good questions, but as I expected they tried to go off on tangents and ask things we weren't discussing. There were a couple of technical glitches through the day but given that I had six people besides me all connected to remote servers through a remote meeting through VOIP, it was a smooth as one can expect. We took a single lunch break which was weird because I all I did was mute myself for an hour. The students were from all over the country which meant multiple time zones too. For some folks like me it was a 7-3 class, for others a 10-6 and then two people in between. I was happy with how it went. My voice is a bit hoarse after speaking all day and then doing a show though.

I finished up and left for the show around 6:45. I had to take the motorcycle because the kid had my car, but the weather was nice enough that it wasn't a big deal. I did get there about 30 minutes early which also wasn't too horrible. Everyone showed up, we had a good show with a late start and then we went for pie afterwards. I probably should have passed on pie, but I was having a good night and wanted the company of friends. I haven't gone out after a show in a while and I decided the heck with it. It was really fun. There were 10 of us and the check was split even for once without bickering or argument which was also nice. Since the kid had to work from 5-9 she missed out on all the phone, but I did bring her home a piece of pie.

Today is me day after yesterday. No phone calls, no emails, no nothing. I may go to the city with a friend since the kid has to go her grandmother's for some family thing from like 11:30 - 2:30 and then work from 7-midnight. I may use this time to bum around the city. Let's see if I can find someone to go to with me...

Saturday, June 9, 2012

Y4 D15

I am up way too goddamn early for a saturday especially a saturday where I have a show. But I have to teach a class in 90 minutes. I am not looking forward to it to be honest with you because I saw the list of attendees late last night and there isn't a single non-indian name on there. No, I am not being racist. It's that these bastards in my field tend to be the biggest bunch of know-it-all douchebags to ever walk the face of the earth. Which means I will probably get obscure, ridiculous questions during this class. They have this condescending attitude about things like this and I am not in the fucking mood. Thank god it's a remote class and they will all be muted. They will only be able to communicate to me through chat. Ha. Take that fucker.

Yesterday. Ugh. Lots of 'ugh' this week and yesterday was no exception. I had to get up early and drive to my co-workers house. I was there from about 7-11 with an hour drive on both ends. I did get the issues resolved finally. We were discussing how it is nice sometimes to have someone to bounce things off of when there are issues. It is the one thing we both agree we miss from being in a standard work environment. Speaking of that, do you realize it was a year ago when I took that other job? I know, right? Actually at this point last year I would have just been getting home from vacation with my family and about to start my new job on Monday. Weird.

Got home yesterday from my morning journey and did some more work until about 4. I had to prep and get ready for this class. Test connections, verify docs, etc. Hopefully nothing will go - oh who am I kidding. It's a class for crying out loud. Something will irk me. After that I ordered the kid a pizza and waited for her to get home from work so I could have my car and go run a couple of errands. Also and this may be a bit mean, I am tired of being her entertainment and/or feeling guilty because it's a Friday night and she is home. I have enough issues with myself being home on a Friday night I don't need to feel bad for my teenage daughter. She needs to develop some damn social skills. Anyway, she got home near 7 and I went over to my bosses his house. His wife's father is an olive oil distributor and whenever she sees him, he gives her jugs of olive oil. They had one put aside for me and I went over to pick it up. I was out and the timing was perfect. I did get to see his new TV. Dick. The 55" Samsung I want. Dick.

After that I stopped at the mall. Mostly because I didn't want to go right home. I had been looking at a pair of jeans for the last two weeks and finally decided to buy them. Best part? Waiting saved me 50%. They were half off. Score.

After that I hit the pet store and bought goodies for the critters. Kitty litter, bird treats, rat treats, etc. Everyone is happy in the animal world. Finally done, I played a little Diablo and went to bed. I am enjoying Diablo. For those who never played, this is meaningless, but to those who did? Two of the best improvements - no more town portal scrolls and no more gold takes up inventory. THANK YOU. God how many times I would bounce back and forth to town just to dump gold. AND it wasn't until Diablo 2 that there was the concept of a stash. I remember in Diablo 1 littering the town with gold piles. As for D3, I have been happy so far. There have been complaints about the simplicity and other things, but to me it's Diablo. It plays like Diablo, it feels like Diablo, and I like it. Matter of fact when I am done with my class I will have three hours until I have to leave for the show. Guess what I will be doing?

72 minutes. Put on my game face.

Friday, June 8, 2012

Y4 D14

I have about an hour to get the hell out of here. I was supposed to stay home today but that got fucked at the last minute. Yesterday before I went onsite for one client, my co-worker came over to grab a laptop. I thought I was done with it. I handed him the laptop at 8:15 and headed out to my other client. At 11:30 I get a message saying that the cube I thought was done was still fucked up. Great. Now I have no laptop to fix it on. So I have to head over to his house today to work on it. And of course he lives an hour away over the bridge. Yay for me. I have to do it early because at 4 I have another conference call to get set up for this training class I am doing tomorrow. This is going to be a long fucking day. I can tell already. Plus I have to go to bed early because tomorrow's class starts at 7am. Then I have a show. Ugh.

The stuff I did onsite went well. I can be thankful for that at least. I can be happy that they are so screwed up as an organization that it will be at least another week before I hear anything from them. I can handle that. All in all I was out there for about 4 hours which took up the majority of my day.

Made chicken teriyaki with pineapple and rice for the kid and me last night. She had to work from 8:30pm until 2:30am and I wanted to make sure she had food in her belly. Nothing else really exciting or note worthy went down yesterday. Watched some X-Files - we are almost through Season 7, played some Diablo, went to bed.

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Y4 D13

Been up for a while but already stressed out. Been to the store already, have things ready to leave in a few for my client but first I have to wait for a co-worker to show up and pick up a laptop. He's supposed to be here at 8 after which I will haul ass to this other client. I am supposed to be there at 9, but that was a last minute change on their part so they can suffer.

Had weird dreams last night. Both X2 and the new girl were in it. X2 was like a foot taller than she is (was?) in real life and the new girl was actually an old friend who I haven't seen since late last year. We were in some weird gang/hostage situation. It was very odd. X2 was talking about how she was going to Japan for some festival. What I realized is how much of a snotty bitch she sounded. How conceited and arrogant. She was so non-plussed about her trip and it was rather off putting. New girl and I were making out. That I remember clearly. Be nice if that happened in real life. Hey, what? Just saying.

Yesterday was a full work day. I finally managed to get through the sticking point on the one cube I was developing. I figured out the issue and hopefully it all looks good when the client looks at it today. It looks good to me, but what do I know...

Continued to rip and convert movies. Almost done. I should be done by the weekend and can then move on to TV shows. That will take another week or two but will be worth it when I am done. Watched a movie with the kid yesterday - Emperor's New Groove. She was flipping through all the movies we now have available and was like 'hey we haven't watched this in a while!'. No, no we haven't. After, I made dinner - pork chops. We watched X-Files during that. She then did some drawing while watching Simon Birch and I played Diablo. Went to bed around 10:30 but didn't fall asleep until after 11. I did sleep at least - until 1. Then I was up from 1-2. I managed to fall back to sleep until 6. Better than most of the week.

Did text with new girl during the day. I am hoping to see her Saturday at the show.

Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Y4 D12

I don't know what's wrong with me. I can't get my sleep patterns back where they need to be. I have tried going to bed early, sleeping pills, sleeping in different positions, etc with no results. I cannot seem to fall asleep before 1am right now which is really fucking me up. I am going to try one more time with going to bed early tonight and see how that works. Tomorrow I have to be onsite somewhere at 10 which means I have to get up at a decent time and on Saturday I am teaching a class from 7-3 so I really need to be up and ready. Speaking of that I had a freakout moment yesterday about it. I got an email reminder that goes out to all the students about Saturday's class and look, the instructor forgot. It wasn't on my calendar for some reason which means it didn't exist in my head. Totally pissed me off at myself for not remembering and then I started getting upset because it is going to ruin my Saturday. Group Therapy to the rescue! All kidding aside, I was able to bring this to group last night and use it as an example for everyone's benefit. Part of what they are trying to teach me in group is how to change the automatic thought of 'my whole fucking weekend is ruined now' to a more balanced thought of 'yeah saturday is going to suck monkey balls, but I have Sunday all to myself and can take part of Monday if I want it'. The latter statement is more focused and while it acknowledges the negative, it helps to show it's not ALL negative. I can appreciate that. We discussed this approach last night in class and I can see where it helps. By looking at essentially the bigger picture, I was able to drop my anxiety about Saturday down and focus on the fact that Sunday right now is still all mine.

Of course this is assuming I make it to the weekend. I am stressed out right now about my sleep and work and money and everything else going on that I need to make it to Saturday. I am very close on money until Friday. It's my own doing of course. I played it a little fast and loose these last couple of weeks and I am about to pay the price. I forgot about an auto pay that comes out on the 5th. But today is the 6th and if I can hold on until Friday I will be okay.

Speaking of that, I did do something yesterday which in retrospect was a little indulgent, but I used a cc for it so it didn't impact my current bottom line; I bought Diablo 3 finally. I loaded it up last night and started playing. Yep. It's Diablo alright. I made a barbarian and played for like 10 minutes. Just long enough to feel good about my purchase. I have been wanting it since it's release on the 15th but waited on purpose for money reasons, bug reasons, patch reasons, etc. So far I am happy with it. I am running it on my laptop but will try to see if I can install it on the desktop tonight. Hopefully it will work and not barf on me saying I need a second license.

Other than all that, I worked for a good portion of the day. Made some headway on an issue, none on another problem, and got a new set of tasks lined up. This will keep me busy for the next couple of weeks.

Let's hope I can get some real sleep tonight.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

Y4 D11

Not sure how I am feeling this morning. Yesterday while not bad, was not all that good either. It was a pretty flat day overall I would have to say. I can't really pinpoint anything other than as I mentioned, I didn't sleep well Sunday night so I was off all day. The weather was awful, raining, overcast, dark, which didn't do much for my mood. Matter of fact it made things worse. I couldn't get motivated or over my hump of dragging. I decided in the morning I needed to do something for myself to try and get out of the funk so I went at 4:30 for a quick spa service. Nothing fancy, just an eyelash tint. I noticed the other day how white/blonde they were and this service always makes them look better. It's relatively inexpensive, lasts for weeks, and makes me look awake even if I am not. That was the most exciting thing I did yesterday. Woo? Otherwise, I worked, made dinner for the kid, sat around, watched X-Files with her at night, kept converting movies, had my buddy find me a movie for the girl I was talking to the other night, chatted a little with her (not as much as I would have liked but it's okay), and then around 9 took a sleeping pill. I swear to god I am the only person I know whose body can have a sleeping pill in it and still have it go - no, fuck you, I don't want to sleep. I didn't fall asleep until almost 1 even with the pill inside me. What I need are the two weekends this month without shows. I have to get through this weekend, but then I get two back to back all to myself. That will allow me to get on something of a regular sleep pattern again I hope. I am forcing myself to try and sleep which is part of the problem. Even if I fall asleep on the couch tonight, I need to let it happen naturally. Screwed up sleep makes for a screwed up head. I have group tonight. I am hoping it goes better than last week. Again, it wasn't bad, but it wasn't great either. EVERYTHING seems a bit meh to me today. Is it the stuff/activity/etc or is it just me? Am I meh for some reason? I don't know. I don't know much of anything right at this moment.

Monday, June 4, 2012

Y4 D10

Little stressed out this morning. I almost slept through a meeting. I couldn't sleep last night for some reason. I wasn't stressed out or worrying about anything, I just couldn't sleep. I think my sleep patterns are thrown off again for some reason. Maybe I need to travel? Get things back on schedule. Tonight I am going to try taking a sleeping pill around 8. Force myself to a normal pattern.

This is really sad because I had an awesome day yesterday. I got up at noon which was fantastic. At 12:30 I got one of the best phone calls - my director calling me to say GOOD JOB. It is so rare to have her actually directly give a compliment. That made my day perfect from the get go. Then I made pancakes at 1:30. The kid didn't have to work until 4 so we had pancakes together. I spent the day ripping movies, playing on tumblr, and chatting with the girl I met on Saturday through facebook. It was a perfect freaking day. I did a whole lot of nothing and felt no guilt about it. I watched a movie on netflix - PI which was really bizarre. Then when the kid got home I watched an episode of the X-Files with her. At that point I tried going to bed and sleeping. At first it looked like it was going okay, but then the time just started dragging and dragging. It was 10 when I went to bed and it was 12:00 when I got up stressed. I think I fell asleep around 3 finally.

I don't have much else to report about yesterday because it was a lazy hazy summer day. If I could just sleep then things would be great.

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Y4 D9

HOLY CRAP I SLEPT UNTIL NOON! Well almost. I got up about a 1/2 hour ago. But still!! Of course I didn't get home until after 4. AND when I got home what did I find parked in front of my house? Why that's XKBF's car. Oh my, someone has a booty call? Actually, they went to dinner and movie before the show last night. I think they are trying to make a go of it as friends. Although I did see them holding hands at one point last night. I am not sure what they are doing.

First off some interesting things happened yesterday in the early part of the day. I heard from my friend who I haven't talked to in a while. It was a really nice surprise. He IM'd me some advice on how to convert the rest of my movies. Unfortunately it didn't work out, but it was nice hearing from him. I would love to have that relationship back, but I am not going to push it. It was good just having him reach out.

Along those same lines, my other friend DID find me a solution about 8pm last night!! Since then I have had a queue of about 25 movies to convert. It seems like it's a slow process, but then again doing each DVD took just as long so I am not really complaining. This will add a shit ton more movies to my library as well as TV shows. I also started offering to friends they can bring over their DVDs and I will rip them. This way my library expands and they get digital version of their discs. Winning all around.

Otherwise, daytime was pretty mellow. The kid had work and then her impromptu date. I hung around the house most of the day not doing much of anything. Headed off to the show around 10 as a zebra. Yep, a zebra. I wore a zebra jacket, pants, hat, and shoes with stripes on my eyes. It was a blast. As I told one of the other folks on cast, I need to do goofy things like this to help make the show go by faster. If I just did the show regular week after week it would drag me down. I also met a nice, semi-age appropriate (24) girl at the show last night. Nothing happened, but we did have last dance together and there was some definite mutual flirting going on. She may be joining cast which would be nice because no matter what, we could use a few new people.

The show went SUPER well last night. We had a good crowd with lots of enthusiasm - OH! I have my own fan club!! They were shouting my real name from the audience line last night. Granted it was like six people and 4 of them were gay teenage boys, but still! Instead of a stalker, I have fans. Wooooot! I said recently that my crew works better when we have LESS people assigned to things and last night was proof. Everyone was so busy they couldn't socialize or screw up. It was perfect. Makes it hard to pee, but fuck it.

Drove a few people home last night which is why I didn't get home until 4. But hey! I slept until noon!

Saturday, June 2, 2012

Y4 D8

Another day behind me. Another boring day with not much to report. I worked during the day, found out I am not going to a new client next week although I thought I was, and overall did a whole lot of nothing. I did try not talking all day yesterday to rest my throat. I managed to go until about 3pm until I slipped up and yelled at the cat. Well not yelled, but she was being annoying and I told her to shut up. I must admit it was amusing during the day not talking and trying to communicate with the kid. We had fun mixing charades, text messages, and notes.

Went to Ikea again and got a new work area. That little desk I had been using just wasn't working out for me any more. Not since I decided to move the laptop over. I just didn't have enough room. I found a table for $40 which is working out much better. I have room enough for the desktop and the laptop now. This gave me a little project of rearranging my work area which kept me busy for a few hours yesterday. I also picked up my contacts finally. It took forever for them to get in. I did notice one of the contacts is slightly different than my last set. But it was something the doctor had mentioned she wanted to try so I am willing to pop them in today and see if these are better or not. I know the cylinder is good, it's the strength that's slightly less. If I have a problem I will return them tomorrow.

Watched a little bit of TV, well technically not real TV anymore but you know what I mean. DirectTV called for the third time yesterday and this time I finally answered. They tried everything to get me back but when I said, fine, change my apartment's policies so I can mount the dish somewhere other than my patio and I will come back. Um... Yeah. Now stop calling me.

I am down to the last set of DVDs to rip. The only thing left to do is find a video converter that will convert everything into a format that iTunes can read. I found a couple of apps yesterday but they want $30-$40 for them and I can't justify spending the money. I have my feelers out for serial numbers though. I just need to convert avi and other types to m4v so they will show up on the ATV.

That's about it. Another day gone.

Friday, June 1, 2012

Y4 D7

I am not speaking today at all. My voice and throat are still thrashed so I am trying to go all day silent. This may in fact drive me insane, but it will help my voice.

Nothing too exciting yesterday except one of my friends is SUPER AWESOME. She happened to be at Disneyland yesterday and got her hands on a LE Crush/Squirt Father's Day pin for me. That is so cool!! I was afraid I would miss it as it is only available for a short time and it's a limited edition of 3000 pins. That made my day.

I also bought a new desk chair yesterday. I had been using a crappy folding chair with no back and very little padding in the seat. I went to Ikea and splurged a while $24.99 on a better chair. Trust me, it's better. It has a back and swivels which is good enough for me. They also have a new work table for $40 which I think I may go back this weekend and get. I like the little desk I have, but I need more room to work these days and it just isn't cutting it. What I need to do first though is empty out all the drawers as the new one is just a table not a desk. This is a good thing as it will force me to throw some crap away.

I think that's about it besides working. I only left the house for a short period. I made turkey tacos for dinner last night. We watched Tangled. I am almost done ripping all of my movies. Oh, I also rearranged all the drawers in my dressers and reorganized my clothes.

Yeah, I am back to being boring again. Good.