ANA Y3 D357

Here we go again. Another day. 

My ears are still going. Two days in a row now. It's cold too which is just dumb. Four more days. Then I might have a break. We will see.

ANA Y3 D356

I was better yesterday but woke up this morning to screaming head. Why? What was different yesterday? Why today? I don't understand it. I can't put my finger on what is different each day. Driving me nuts.

Yesterday was the baby's first birthday. We took her to a nature preserve for a 3 mile walk. Made her steak and had a cake. She didn't understand all that was going on but she knew she was the center of attention.

I make it through this week and we have a concert Saturday and a holiday Monday. 

ANA Y3 D355

I have to write something.

Can't let the page be blank ever.

Can't see the forest for the trees any more.

Almost jabbed a knife in my own leg in the kitchen last night because why not?

ANA Y3 D354

C has a really rough day yesterday. Her other cat that she left with her mom (because it is technically hers) had to be put down yesterday. He was 18 and C had him since a kitten. They spent nearly two decades together. It was rough on her to say the least. I know this feeling. I felt like that with Beep. A companiion of so long gone in a flash. She was a wreck all day.

Worked on stuff. Made cheesesteaks for dinner. Watched some TV. Went on our daily walk.

ANA Y3 D353

Rough night. Around 1:30am the sky opened up with tremendous thunder and lightning. Shook the whole house and you would have thought it was daytime. All of us were awake until 2:30am because of it. I did fall back to sleep until 5:30 but had weird ass dreams. Waterparks, houses connected to spas, weird shit.

Got my class uploaded to Udemy yesterday. Now out in the free world. Scary. Made chicken for dinner. Watched some tv. Played some games. Got to go pick up a cake for Sandy. Her one year birthday is Sunday. 9 months since we got here. The longest I have had a dog of my own. 

Just make it through the day...

ANA Y3 D352

Getting close now.

Got quite a bit done yesterday. We're doing a trial run of putting some of our material on Udemy to create a passive income stream by reaching a wider audience with our material. I spent yesterday doing conversions of our existing material to their format. Turned out to be easier than we imagined. Not easy just easier. I have more to do today.

Went on our walk. Made grilled swordfish burritos for dinner. A pretty decent day.

ANA Y3 D351

Another day. I need to find an ENT. I don't care what my PCP says, something is wrong with my ears. Driving me nuts.

Worked on classes. More of the same today. Made chicken for dinner. Short walk because of weather. Drizzling all day.

Not much else.

ANA Y3 D350

Two weeks and we start another year. Jesus. 2009. That's when I started this. 16 years ago. An entire life it feels. How many lives have I led in the almost two decades since I started all this? How many people have I been? How much have I done? How much have I seen? I've loved. I've lost. I went down one path just to go down another. 16 years. 

Spent the day doing class stuff, had a meeting, dealt with the some prep work for a new client. Didn't want to cook so we ordered take out from a local place. Was good. Watched tv. Played games together. Went to bed.

ANA Y3 D349

Another week. Are we ready for it? I'm not. Another week of pushing paper, being stressed out, staying in the house. Oh joy.

Didn't do much of anything. Went on 3 mile walk. Played outside. Played video games. Watched some tv. Had leftovers for dinner.

ANA Y3 D348

Happy Mother's Day to those who celebrate.

I woke up from the shittiest dream this morning. I was back in an office. Had a team. Had no clue what I was doing. Felt useless. Gee, wonder what that means/

Boring day. Went on a 3 mile walk. Orderd pizza late. Watched some tv. Went to bed.