The ol' noggin' she be hurtin' this morning. Aye. Thump thump goes the head. Helped my buddy celebrate his 30th birthday last night. If he is feeling half as bad as I am right now then he had a hell of a birthday. I think I said goodbye to him? Hell I don't even remember who was still at the bar when we left last night. Secrets shared, lips flapping, drunken camaraderie. Oh yeah, it was all there last night. From about 7 until I think around 1. Seriously, I don't remember. Okay, that's partially true. I do remember because I got home and texted LO around 2. Yes, I drunk texted her. In french. Best part? She responded and told me how it actually made her feel good because she has been feeling down about work and the kind random words from me coming in the middle of the night/morning in french picked her spirits up. Take that drunken gods! Ha! What? Huh? I don't know. My head is spinning. I am still a little drunk I think. We left the bar and kept drinking. I say we, I should clarify. We equals me and my directors. They were smart and got a hotel room down the street from the bar. And brought rockstar and vodka. I thought I was a pro, these guys make me look like the bush leagues.
Worked during the day at my local client. I wish he could hire me. He is close and I like the company. But it's not in the cards. They do contractors versus FTEs. It's their way. But they do want me there for at least a good three to four months which means even if I don't get the new job, I am stable for a while and could in fact actually have a good time of it at my current place. Same place every day, less than a mile from the house, client who knows me, etc. It does make things kind of nice if this new position doesn't work out. I am still going to take the new job if they offer it to me, it's just nice to know that the next few months are solid just in case.
After work I came home and chilled for a couple of hours before heading to the bar. Got to the bar around 7 and left around 1. You know what happened in between. The good thing is I was amongst friends and not drinking alone and trying to pick up women. I thought about that last night in one of my sober moments; I haven't gone out drinking alone in quite a while. When I go out these days it's to meet up with friends and people. That I think is a positive.
Need to clean the house, get some groceries, etc today. Show tonight. Have roughly 12 hours before I have to leave. Need to pick up props at some point. Let's do this...
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Friday, April 29, 2011
Y2 D338
I have been thinking to much about X2 lately. I don't know why specifically and it's mostly just fleeting thoughts that pop in and out when I see something or have a tangential thought which reminds me of something else. It's actually kind of annoying because it's not like I am sitting and trying to think about her. Maybe it's because I have been talking with her sister lately and helping her through some issues or because yesterday was her birthday (the sister's not X2's). Regardless, I wish my brain would stop it.
Taught the final day of training yesterday. Did get a phone call from the recruiter on the new job during the lunch break. Seems the hiring manager wants to have one more face to face meeting. We both kind of likened it to the third date analogy. I have had two face to face dates with them and this is the final one to see if we sleep together or move on. He did say from his past experience with this company that this is not uncommon for them and they use the time to make an offer about half the time. The other half it comes the next day. Fine. We can have a third date. But you'd better sleep with me or let me go. No more after this.
Wrapped up class around two and headed home. Got home about four and unpacked, checked the animals, etc. I did stop at the grocery store since I knew I had no food in the house that would be edible after being gone for a week. I treated myself to a nice little steak, some white corn, and a big salad. I melted some blue cheese on the steak too. Was pretty damn good. Got laundry done and realized the rest of my house is a mess. Guess what my weekend plans are?
I also cancelled E-harmony yesterday - officially. I am done with it. Life will find me when it is ready.
Taught the final day of training yesterday. Did get a phone call from the recruiter on the new job during the lunch break. Seems the hiring manager wants to have one more face to face meeting. We both kind of likened it to the third date analogy. I have had two face to face dates with them and this is the final one to see if we sleep together or move on. He did say from his past experience with this company that this is not uncommon for them and they use the time to make an offer about half the time. The other half it comes the next day. Fine. We can have a third date. But you'd better sleep with me or let me go. No more after this.
Wrapped up class around two and headed home. Got home about four and unpacked, checked the animals, etc. I did stop at the grocery store since I knew I had no food in the house that would be edible after being gone for a week. I treated myself to a nice little steak, some white corn, and a big salad. I melted some blue cheese on the steak too. Was pretty damn good. Got laundry done and realized the rest of my house is a mess. Guess what my weekend plans are?
I also cancelled E-harmony yesterday - officially. I am done with it. Life will find me when it is ready.
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Y2 D337
I am tired today. I worked about 13 hours yesterday between two clients. This is the kind of thing my bosses don't get. They want me to work work work for the potential of a bonus, but all it does is make me cranky and tired because in this case all I did was go from one client to a hotel room to bed. This is no way to live. Honestly, my whole day yesterday consisted of getting up around 4:30, typing away here, going to the client, teaching all day (nothing eventful happened), driving the 2.9 miles back to the hotel, reading emails for an hour, eating a chicken dinner at the hotel restaurant at six, then returning to my room to work until 9:30. That's it. That was my day. I spoke to no one outside the people I was training and a waiter. I had no time or energy to read, watch anything, etc. My world had a 3 mile radius. THIS is why I am looking for a new job. I still haven't heard back. I know they have called all my references, but no word. I am hoping to hear something today. It worries me a bit that I haven't heard back. I trust that no one threw me under a bus, but still, one misplaced comment can cost someone a job. Paranoid much? Yes. It's not paranoia when they really are after you...
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Y2 D336
Irony at its best: when I was in AZ back in June where I had my trouble at a training class, one of the complaints was I had removed my shoes under the desk while the class was working on an exercise. Yesterday when the guy who put together the training we were doing got up to introduce me, he did in his socks. That's the amusing part; when I mentioned it to my bosses via an email, their responses did kind of piss me off. They saw the humor, but one of them had to say 'yes, but did he smell of booze after having sex with some young girl?'. I know he was trying to be funny, but it was a slap. I responded nicely with 'I am sitting in my hotel room working on XXX's stuff'. I thought that would be the end of it. No he had to come back with 'It's not midnight yet'. Damn. Ouch. And people wonder why I am thinking of a new job...
The class went okay. It's not formal training, but rather an informal mentoring with 5 people in the room. We are going through different scenarios and how you would handle them. One of the guys near the end of the day pointed out that the things I have been teaching are slightly different than the official classes he has attended. Luckily the group backed me on this one and they commented on how we weren't using demo data, nor were we intentionally trying to create best case scenarios. Instead I was showing them how to deal with the unexpected which differs from the official courseware. I think it went down well, but we will find out today when we decide on the topics and path of the class. It's always safer when you are dealing with official courseware, but that's not what they wanted. Fine.
I really did come back to the hotel and do nothing. I stopped at the store and picked up some food. I spent about 2 hours working on one reporting problem, watched an episode of Reaper on netflix, then sat in bed reading Fight Club. Read for two hours and finished the book for the umpteenth time. That was my night. No money blown, no girls screwed. Good boy. Here's a bone.
I did hear back from the recruiter - they are still calling references. I am worried and impressed. Hopefully I will hear something today.
The class went okay. It's not formal training, but rather an informal mentoring with 5 people in the room. We are going through different scenarios and how you would handle them. One of the guys near the end of the day pointed out that the things I have been teaching are slightly different than the official classes he has attended. Luckily the group backed me on this one and they commented on how we weren't using demo data, nor were we intentionally trying to create best case scenarios. Instead I was showing them how to deal with the unexpected which differs from the official courseware. I think it went down well, but we will find out today when we decide on the topics and path of the class. It's always safer when you are dealing with official courseware, but that's not what they wanted. Fine.
I really did come back to the hotel and do nothing. I stopped at the store and picked up some food. I spent about 2 hours working on one reporting problem, watched an episode of Reaper on netflix, then sat in bed reading Fight Club. Read for two hours and finished the book for the umpteenth time. That was my night. No money blown, no girls screwed. Good boy. Here's a bone.
I did hear back from the recruiter - they are still calling references. I am worried and impressed. Hopefully I will hear something today.
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Y2 D335
I hate that they put mirrors in front of the desks in hotel rooms...
I was pondering yesterday about the cyclical nature of life. I started thinking about this job I am waiting to hear back from and it made me think back to when I was about to take a new job offer in 98. I then started mentally backing up from 98 to see how my life had been. Walk down memory lane with me…
In 95 I was at a job I hated, in a marriage to a woman who was and is a whore, and in an area I couldn't stand. My grandmother died in 95 and this was a huge loss for me. I was very close to her and it was (at the time) the last family member I was in contact with and cared about. My marriage was completely in ruins and I was drinking myself to death. I was angry, frustrated, and the only thing keeping me going was the kid. It was towards the end of that year when I met X2. We met at a conference while I was still married. We went out a couple of times and I realized I had value and was a human being deserving of more than I had. There was no expectation that anything would come of it or that I would ever see her again, but she in a short time, changed my life. I went home, told X1 I was moving out and I was done. The next few months were rough as I struggled to find myself and establish a life. I had a good friend who was also going through things and we supported each other. I miss him by the way, but that's a whole other story that I don't feel like discussing.
Fast forward to 97. Two years almost. Two years… X2 and I are living together, but we are not doing well financially due mostly to my fuckups. We are both out of work, out of options, and worst of all, freshly married. We decide to make a huge life change and move 300 miles to a new area where we will have more options. The first six months or so are a struggle; we find jobs, but they don't work out. In late 98 a friend of mine offers me a job as a developer at a new company he just became VP at. It's small, untested, and interesting. The money is good, not great, but good, and it will be a fresh start. I accept it. I am there for six years. 98 through 2002 are the four best years of mine and X2's life. We get raises, we get promotions, we are living a GOOD life. We have cars, food, friends, and love. We are fucking happy. 2003 things start to plateau. Much of it is due to my arrogance at work and my youth. I am too conceited and good. Things aren't bad, but there is a shift in the wind. We buy a house in 03 and for a while we are still happy. By 04 I lose my job due to my own issues and we start drinking to hide the gap that is beginning to form between us. I find a new job (at my current company no less) after taking one which nearly ruined me with how much I was on the road. Little did I know… The company asks me to move in 06 and that's when life really goes to hell in a hand-basket as you, faithful readers, all know. Fast forward five years and here we are.
So let's examine the current cycle, shall we? 07 life sucks. Job sucks. Make life changes. Pretend it's alright when I know it isn't. Drinking myself to death. 08, lawsuit, marriage falling apart. 09, divorced, alone, rebuilding, still drinking myself to death. 10, slowly recovering. Financial issues, personal issues; drugs, alcohol, bad relationships. Mid-year, things take a turn. I meet someone (LO) who shows me I have worth. I had to hit rock bottom. I had to stick the feathers up my ass and say I was a chicken. I had to burn the lips into my hands. Almost a year later and I see up. Almost two years since it fell apart. Three since things started going to hell. Sound familiar?
And now? Now I have a chance to move forward possibly. If they offer me the job, I see 98 all over again. A chance to rebuild. A chance to start over and maybe if not break, at least alter the cycle. Spend the next five years trying to do things slightly different while staying on the up. No one is up forever, but if I can get 6 or even 8 years instead of 4 this time because of my own decisions and choices? So far, I have broken the cycle in a major way - I am still alone. I walked away from N-whatever she was. I could have settled but I chose to break a pattern. This is GOOD for me as much as I bitch about it. I need to be up and solid ON MY OWN before I can be of value to anyone else. I know this deep down. I need to fix this broken machine before I can do anything. I am close. I *FEEL* it. This job could be the catalyst. This could be my road back to… what? Not salvation. I can never be saved. That much I know. No, normalcy. Redemption possibly. Those are more important to me than salvation any day.
I am sitting in a hotel room while I type this. Off to meet a new client soon and hoping for word on the job. I know they called at least three of my references yesterday. Spent most of the day driving and doing some work from the hotel room. Had a decent dinner in the hotel bar. I didn't want to hit the town even though I could have because I didn't want a repeat of Arizona. While I would love to get laid finally, I don't want to leave a sour taste in my bosses mouth regardless of a new job or not. I need to show them that I can be an adult. Fuck that, I need to show MYSELF that I can have control and not lose it. I did half ass flirt with a couple of women. One old and in need of the attention, the other young and ignoring me. It's all a fucking game. Came back to the room, chatted online with some friends, went to bed. I did good.
I was pondering yesterday about the cyclical nature of life. I started thinking about this job I am waiting to hear back from and it made me think back to when I was about to take a new job offer in 98. I then started mentally backing up from 98 to see how my life had been. Walk down memory lane with me…
In 95 I was at a job I hated, in a marriage to a woman who was and is a whore, and in an area I couldn't stand. My grandmother died in 95 and this was a huge loss for me. I was very close to her and it was (at the time) the last family member I was in contact with and cared about. My marriage was completely in ruins and I was drinking myself to death. I was angry, frustrated, and the only thing keeping me going was the kid. It was towards the end of that year when I met X2. We met at a conference while I was still married. We went out a couple of times and I realized I had value and was a human being deserving of more than I had. There was no expectation that anything would come of it or that I would ever see her again, but she in a short time, changed my life. I went home, told X1 I was moving out and I was done. The next few months were rough as I struggled to find myself and establish a life. I had a good friend who was also going through things and we supported each other. I miss him by the way, but that's a whole other story that I don't feel like discussing.
Fast forward to 97. Two years almost. Two years… X2 and I are living together, but we are not doing well financially due mostly to my fuckups. We are both out of work, out of options, and worst of all, freshly married. We decide to make a huge life change and move 300 miles to a new area where we will have more options. The first six months or so are a struggle; we find jobs, but they don't work out. In late 98 a friend of mine offers me a job as a developer at a new company he just became VP at. It's small, untested, and interesting. The money is good, not great, but good, and it will be a fresh start. I accept it. I am there for six years. 98 through 2002 are the four best years of mine and X2's life. We get raises, we get promotions, we are living a GOOD life. We have cars, food, friends, and love. We are fucking happy. 2003 things start to plateau. Much of it is due to my arrogance at work and my youth. I am too conceited and good. Things aren't bad, but there is a shift in the wind. We buy a house in 03 and for a while we are still happy. By 04 I lose my job due to my own issues and we start drinking to hide the gap that is beginning to form between us. I find a new job (at my current company no less) after taking one which nearly ruined me with how much I was on the road. Little did I know… The company asks me to move in 06 and that's when life really goes to hell in a hand-basket as you, faithful readers, all know. Fast forward five years and here we are.
So let's examine the current cycle, shall we? 07 life sucks. Job sucks. Make life changes. Pretend it's alright when I know it isn't. Drinking myself to death. 08, lawsuit, marriage falling apart. 09, divorced, alone, rebuilding, still drinking myself to death. 10, slowly recovering. Financial issues, personal issues; drugs, alcohol, bad relationships. Mid-year, things take a turn. I meet someone (LO) who shows me I have worth. I had to hit rock bottom. I had to stick the feathers up my ass and say I was a chicken. I had to burn the lips into my hands. Almost a year later and I see up. Almost two years since it fell apart. Three since things started going to hell. Sound familiar?
And now? Now I have a chance to move forward possibly. If they offer me the job, I see 98 all over again. A chance to rebuild. A chance to start over and maybe if not break, at least alter the cycle. Spend the next five years trying to do things slightly different while staying on the up. No one is up forever, but if I can get 6 or even 8 years instead of 4 this time because of my own decisions and choices? So far, I have broken the cycle in a major way - I am still alone. I walked away from N-whatever she was. I could have settled but I chose to break a pattern. This is GOOD for me as much as I bitch about it. I need to be up and solid ON MY OWN before I can be of value to anyone else. I know this deep down. I need to fix this broken machine before I can do anything. I am close. I *FEEL* it. This job could be the catalyst. This could be my road back to… what? Not salvation. I can never be saved. That much I know. No, normalcy. Redemption possibly. Those are more important to me than salvation any day.
I am sitting in a hotel room while I type this. Off to meet a new client soon and hoping for word on the job. I know they called at least three of my references yesterday. Spent most of the day driving and doing some work from the hotel room. Had a decent dinner in the hotel bar. I didn't want to hit the town even though I could have because I didn't want a repeat of Arizona. While I would love to get laid finally, I don't want to leave a sour taste in my bosses mouth regardless of a new job or not. I need to show them that I can be an adult. Fuck that, I need to show MYSELF that I can have control and not lose it. I did half ass flirt with a couple of women. One old and in need of the attention, the other young and ignoring me. It's all a fucking game. Came back to the room, chatted online with some friends, went to bed. I did good.
Monday, April 25, 2011
Y2 D334
One month to go. Anti-climatic ending impending. Hold on tight for it kids.
Day turned out as anticipated. Spent it inside alone. Everything was closed yesterday for the most part and there was no reason to go out. I did step out once for Chinese food. I do get a sort of perverse pleasure eating Chinese food on a holiday. You're supposed to be with friends and family eating huge meals and arguing or whatever. Not sitting alone in your living room watching Twin Peaks eating Chinese version of chicken curry and egg flower soup. But that's what I did.
I did find a store open to get some food for the cat while I am gone. I need to leave out big bowls for the cat and the rabbit. The cat I am not worried about, it's the rabbits. I don't think I have left them alone for this long since getting them almost a year ago. Can you believe it's been almost a year? I am going to leave them a very large bowl of food and it will only be three days total, but I am still worried.
Packed and cleaned the house in preparation for leaving. I have to go to one local client first this morning, staying there until about noon, then coming home, leaving out food and heading to the next client. I haven't stayed in a hotel in a while. How sad I am looking forward to this. The last time I was on the road I met a 24 year old and had the best sex of my life. Almost lost my job, but the sex was worth it. Given that I have been celibate for seven months right now, who knows what I might pick up at the hotel bar tonight. Assuming there's a bar and assuming there's anything worth picking up. Sad little man I am...
Day turned out as anticipated. Spent it inside alone. Everything was closed yesterday for the most part and there was no reason to go out. I did step out once for Chinese food. I do get a sort of perverse pleasure eating Chinese food on a holiday. You're supposed to be with friends and family eating huge meals and arguing or whatever. Not sitting alone in your living room watching Twin Peaks eating Chinese version of chicken curry and egg flower soup. But that's what I did.
I did find a store open to get some food for the cat while I am gone. I need to leave out big bowls for the cat and the rabbit. The cat I am not worried about, it's the rabbits. I don't think I have left them alone for this long since getting them almost a year ago. Can you believe it's been almost a year? I am going to leave them a very large bowl of food and it will only be three days total, but I am still worried.
Packed and cleaned the house in preparation for leaving. I have to go to one local client first this morning, staying there until about noon, then coming home, leaving out food and heading to the next client. I haven't stayed in a hotel in a while. How sad I am looking forward to this. The last time I was on the road I met a 24 year old and had the best sex of my life. Almost lost my job, but the sex was worth it. Given that I have been celibate for seven months right now, who knows what I might pick up at the hotel bar tonight. Assuming there's a bar and assuming there's anything worth picking up. Sad little man I am...
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Y2 D333
Been up for a while, but moving slow not for any other reason than I can. It's Easter which means absolutely nothing to me. First off, I don't believe in a zombie god who rose from the dead after three days and second, I no longer have small children in the house who believe in a bunny who hides colored eggs and candy. Really sound stupid when you write down what this supposed 'holiday' is actually about, eh?
Drove the kid home yesterday. Back to an empty house. I was talking with X1's husband yesterday and he put a name to my issue. I was telling him about the new job and saying how I had been working from home for too many weeks. Without me having to explain he said 'Oh wow, you must end up with some serious cabin fever!' Yep, that's it right there. Cabin fever. I didn't make the connection because obviously I am not in a cabin snowed in, but the effect is the same. He got it. I mentioned this same phrase to another friend later in the day and she agree too. Cabin fever. Hopefully this new job offer will come through earlier rather than later next week and I can not worry about cabin fever any more.
Did some work for one client when I got home. I wasn't able to finish as I am missing two passwords still to finalize the configurations, and I don't expect to hear back from anyone until Monday morning with the information. The nice thing is I have to be at one client at 8am Monday then at noon, I leave to spend four days at another client. I am actually looking forward to this. It's a mentoring gig where it's very casual and it's out of town. Plus this might be my last project for the company. We shall see.
Started packing yesterday. Also re-did the old hair color. Not happy with it right now. I may end up shaving it down because I went with a slightly different color than normal for some variation and it ended up being too brassy. One of the benefits of being a guy -- Don't like the hair? Shave it off.
Played some Mortal Kombat 9. I don't think I mentioned that I picked it up while the kid was here. Her and I have a special affinity to MK. When she was small, it's the first video game I taught her how to play. Ever since then, any version of MK is our special thing. Nerdy, but true. We played some while she was here and I started in with the story mode last night. I will say, this is the best MK in a long time. None of the stupid crap they have been trying to put in the last few versions. Fatality, babality, animality -- it's all back in it's basic 2.5d glory.
Went to bed around 10 and got a solid night's sleep. Today I need to clean the house since I will be gone next week. That means emptying the fridge, litter boxes, etc. Only a couple hours worth of work. I can't go anywhere today because 99% of the stores are closed for zombie day. Luckily I got cat litter and cat food yesterday.
Off to clean.
Drove the kid home yesterday. Back to an empty house. I was talking with X1's husband yesterday and he put a name to my issue. I was telling him about the new job and saying how I had been working from home for too many weeks. Without me having to explain he said 'Oh wow, you must end up with some serious cabin fever!' Yep, that's it right there. Cabin fever. I didn't make the connection because obviously I am not in a cabin snowed in, but the effect is the same. He got it. I mentioned this same phrase to another friend later in the day and she agree too. Cabin fever. Hopefully this new job offer will come through earlier rather than later next week and I can not worry about cabin fever any more.
Did some work for one client when I got home. I wasn't able to finish as I am missing two passwords still to finalize the configurations, and I don't expect to hear back from anyone until Monday morning with the information. The nice thing is I have to be at one client at 8am Monday then at noon, I leave to spend four days at another client. I am actually looking forward to this. It's a mentoring gig where it's very casual and it's out of town. Plus this might be my last project for the company. We shall see.
Started packing yesterday. Also re-did the old hair color. Not happy with it right now. I may end up shaving it down because I went with a slightly different color than normal for some variation and it ended up being too brassy. One of the benefits of being a guy -- Don't like the hair? Shave it off.
Played some Mortal Kombat 9. I don't think I mentioned that I picked it up while the kid was here. Her and I have a special affinity to MK. When she was small, it's the first video game I taught her how to play. Ever since then, any version of MK is our special thing. Nerdy, but true. We played some while she was here and I started in with the story mode last night. I will say, this is the best MK in a long time. None of the stupid crap they have been trying to put in the last few versions. Fatality, babality, animality -- it's all back in it's basic 2.5d glory.
Went to bed around 10 and got a solid night's sleep. Today I need to clean the house since I will be gone next week. That means emptying the fridge, litter boxes, etc. Only a couple hours worth of work. I can't go anywhere today because 99% of the stores are closed for zombie day. Luckily I got cat litter and cat food yesterday.
Off to clean.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Y2 D332
It sounds like I will have a job offer in the next few days. That is if my references pan out. I really don't like the recruiter I am dealing with on this job though. Recruiters are somewhere above car salesmen, insurance salesmen, and slugs in my opinion. They are ass wipes. He assumes everyone is an idiot who has never done this before. I normally don't deal with recruiters because of this reason. This one happened to catch me at the right time and put the right thing in my path. Regardless, I submitted references yesterday and I don't know who they called yet, but it sounds like if that all goes well, I will get an offer next week. Right now? I am 90% that I will take it. I will have to break the news to my current company which will be a challenge as I am upside down to them. But I will figure it out. I always do. There is the potential of 20,000 more a year at the new company. This would relax me quite a bit. It would take about three months for things to settle down, but come July or August, I would be in a much different place mentally. Plus I could start forming relationships again. See the same people every day. Take the same commute every day. All these things are important to me.
Screwed around otherwise yesterday. The kid and I managed to get through a total of 23 Twin Peaks episodes this week including a marathon of about 6 yesterday. We only have seven to go. I am going to give her my Netflix login information so she can watch them once she is back home on streaming.
Made corned beef for dinner. Served it in pita pockets with french fries. Now that the kid is going away for a month I can go back to not eating. I have felt fat since she showed up. I need to spend the next 30 days starving myself on purpose. Drop five or ten pounds.
Driving her home in an hour. Then coming home to do some work. No show tonight which will be nice. I can relax. Spend four or five hours working, then go to bed. I am looking forward to that.
Screwed around otherwise yesterday. The kid and I managed to get through a total of 23 Twin Peaks episodes this week including a marathon of about 6 yesterday. We only have seven to go. I am going to give her my Netflix login information so she can watch them once she is back home on streaming.
Made corned beef for dinner. Served it in pita pockets with french fries. Now that the kid is going away for a month I can go back to not eating. I have felt fat since she showed up. I need to spend the next 30 days starving myself on purpose. Drop five or ten pounds.
Driving her home in an hour. Then coming home to do some work. No show tonight which will be nice. I can relax. Spend four or five hours working, then go to bed. I am looking forward to that.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Y2 D331
Head is pounding this morning but it was worth it. Got in around 1:30 last night with the kid in tow. I gave her a new experience last night. She went to her first club in the city and had a blast. Let's review the whole day, shall we?
Got up and started in on one client's stuff. Was a bunch of back and forth with passwords needed, box names, etc. As a result I spent some time just hanging out with the kid in the morning watching more Twin Peaks. She is halfway through now. Only 15 episodes to go.
I had a third round of interviews with the company in the city at 3:30. We headed out around 2 to catch the train as the plan was for me to go to the interviews while she did some shopping and then we would meet up and do dinner. If she was up to it, we would then head over to the club where my friend DJs on Thursday nights. I could she wanted to go, but didn't want to go with just me. I decided to take care of that like I always do.
The interviews went well. Well enough that if they come back with an offer, I will probably accept. I will tell my current bosses about it, but they are going to have put some things on the table for me to stay. Right now I am leaning towards taking the new job. Same place every day, slightly more money which would allow me some breathing room, and the chance to make connections. All of these things are important to me at my stage of life.
After finishing the interviews, the kid and I wandered around the city and then hit one of the big malls. We had fun playing with sales clerks at Neiman Marcus. I was kind of pissy at one point because I saw this sportcoat that I would have LOVED to have been able to buy. I was upset because just a few short years ago, I WOULD have bought it without thinking. It was $2100 and I looked fucking good. DAMN good. But not these days. No can do. Whatever.
While we were shopping I was texting some people to join us. I ended up getting three other people to meet us at the club at 9:30. This made the kid excited.
We ended up at this great restaurant for dinner. Nothing fancy and not too expensive but we enjoyed it. We sat there killing time and wandered over to the club around 9ish. Everyone showed up right on time too which was nice. Me, the kid, and three of my friends who sadly are all closer in age to the kid. I felt a little weird about that, but who cares. We got into the club for free thank you very much and I ended up hanging out with the DJ while they went off and danced. I have never seen the kid so carefree and goofy. She had a blast. Felt pretty damn good about the fact that I could go to a club with my own kid and we both have a good time. Weird, but good.
Since I wasn't dancing and everyone else at the club was way too young, I drank. Overpriced but very strong gin and tonics. We left the club around 1 with one of my friends and here we are. Not enough work done yesterday, headache, and need to figure out how to move some money; but overall? Still happy.
Got up and started in on one client's stuff. Was a bunch of back and forth with passwords needed, box names, etc. As a result I spent some time just hanging out with the kid in the morning watching more Twin Peaks. She is halfway through now. Only 15 episodes to go.
I had a third round of interviews with the company in the city at 3:30. We headed out around 2 to catch the train as the plan was for me to go to the interviews while she did some shopping and then we would meet up and do dinner. If she was up to it, we would then head over to the club where my friend DJs on Thursday nights. I could she wanted to go, but didn't want to go with just me. I decided to take care of that like I always do.
The interviews went well. Well enough that if they come back with an offer, I will probably accept. I will tell my current bosses about it, but they are going to have put some things on the table for me to stay. Right now I am leaning towards taking the new job. Same place every day, slightly more money which would allow me some breathing room, and the chance to make connections. All of these things are important to me at my stage of life.
After finishing the interviews, the kid and I wandered around the city and then hit one of the big malls. We had fun playing with sales clerks at Neiman Marcus. I was kind of pissy at one point because I saw this sportcoat that I would have LOVED to have been able to buy. I was upset because just a few short years ago, I WOULD have bought it without thinking. It was $2100 and I looked fucking good. DAMN good. But not these days. No can do. Whatever.
While we were shopping I was texting some people to join us. I ended up getting three other people to meet us at the club at 9:30. This made the kid excited.
We ended up at this great restaurant for dinner. Nothing fancy and not too expensive but we enjoyed it. We sat there killing time and wandered over to the club around 9ish. Everyone showed up right on time too which was nice. Me, the kid, and three of my friends who sadly are all closer in age to the kid. I felt a little weird about that, but who cares. We got into the club for free thank you very much and I ended up hanging out with the DJ while they went off and danced. I have never seen the kid so carefree and goofy. She had a blast. Felt pretty damn good about the fact that I could go to a club with my own kid and we both have a good time. Weird, but good.
Since I wasn't dancing and everyone else at the club was way too young, I drank. Overpriced but very strong gin and tonics. We left the club around 1 with one of my friends and here we are. Not enough work done yesterday, headache, and need to figure out how to move some money; but overall? Still happy.
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Y2 D330
Little over a month to go and this year will end with a whimper and not a bang. Story of my life.
Spent the day in the house working yesterday. Have three different clients right now and I was trying to finish one, but hit a huge roadblock. I ended up having to seek assistance from one of my co-workers. Even he got stuck and I haven't heard back from him yet.
I was thinking more about the new job. While the money may be the same, it would be so nice to have a normal job again where I go to the same place, where I don't get emails at 11:30pm from sales people, and where I know what I would be doing all day. I know the simple truth, I will get bored with it after a year or two, but I can make a decision about things then.
The kid went shopping with grandma yesterday for dresses. She may have found one. The store didn't have her size, but they are looking this morning to see if they can order one in time for her. If not, she needs to keep looking. We are going to the city today and she is going to shop while I am in round three of interviews.
Made fish tacos for dinner and we watched three more episodes of Twin Peaks. We have 19 more to go, and there is no way we can finish before I drive her back on Saturday morning, but I will save the show in my queue for her. Hopefully it will still be available when she is back in June.
That's it. That was our exciting Wednesday. It's month 7 of no intimacy for me. I am very lonely. I am starting to go a little nuts on that, but what else is new?
Spent the day in the house working yesterday. Have three different clients right now and I was trying to finish one, but hit a huge roadblock. I ended up having to seek assistance from one of my co-workers. Even he got stuck and I haven't heard back from him yet.
I was thinking more about the new job. While the money may be the same, it would be so nice to have a normal job again where I go to the same place, where I don't get emails at 11:30pm from sales people, and where I know what I would be doing all day. I know the simple truth, I will get bored with it after a year or two, but I can make a decision about things then.
The kid went shopping with grandma yesterday for dresses. She may have found one. The store didn't have her size, but they are looking this morning to see if they can order one in time for her. If not, she needs to keep looking. We are going to the city today and she is going to shop while I am in round three of interviews.
Made fish tacos for dinner and we watched three more episodes of Twin Peaks. We have 19 more to go, and there is no way we can finish before I drive her back on Saturday morning, but I will save the show in my queue for her. Hopefully it will still be available when she is back in June.
That's it. That was our exciting Wednesday. It's month 7 of no intimacy for me. I am very lonely. I am starting to go a little nuts on that, but what else is new?
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