ANA Y3 D337

My ears won't shut up. I am stressed out and the weather is messing with me and it's wreaking havoc on my head. I haven't gotten this month's expense check and today is the last day. I have shit to pay with that money. I am so fucked.

ANA Y3 D336

Was so hot last night. We need a new comforter. My friend suggested down. We are going to look into that. 

Worked on new material yesterday. 32 demos in this new class. Got about 11 done. Another 10 today and finish on Wednesday. Went for a walk. Made hens, played outside. Good day.

ANA Y3 D335

Thirty more days and we start a new year. Wow. You know how many years I have been writing this thing? 16. Almost an entire adult. That's crazy. Not a single day missed either. I know some days are less descriptive than others, but still.

As expected we didn't do much of anything yesterday. Three mile walk was the big thing we did. We watched the ESL grand finals because C wanted to. I have never watched anything like that before and found myself getting into it. Scary. But it was fun to share in something new like that. We BBQ'd burgers and spent time out in the yard. All in all it was a good day.

ANA Y3 D334

Yesterday was wonderful. The exact opposite of Nashville. We had a fantastic time doing stuff, walked over 7 miles, and my ears didn't bug me once! Wish I could say the same for this morning. Yesterday we had the air on in the house, this morning the heat. I blame my ears right now on that. 

I got to my friend's house at 7am, we spent some time getting Sandy situated and went over some rules with her daughter who was watching her. Nothing major. This was the first time she was away from us like that and I wanted to make sure everything was cool. She has never been in a yard free range and I wanted her to make sure there was no digging under a fence or anything. We were in the car by 7:15am and on our way!

When we rolled into town we saw a larger number of cars than expected. Turns out the university was having graduation. But the thing is? Never once during the day was it an issue. Even with the extra people in town we never felt crowded or stressed out. We had breakfast, went to the museum, made our own perfumes, walked around, did wine tasting, more walking, had ramen, and came home. Everything felt right and comfortable. I couldn't have asked for a better day. We were home by 6:30pm and the doggo was fine. Picture perfect.

Not sure what's the plan for today. Looks cloudy out but might get some yardwork in.

ANA Y3 D333

Off to Grand Rapids today! Hopefully it will not be a repeat of Nashville. I talked it through with my therapist yesterday and she reassured me of all the differences. I feel better. Still anxious but better. Boring day. Finished a new class. Played outside. Mowed the lawn. Made a chicekn pasta dish for dinner. Time to shower!

ANA Y3 D332

Had the most intense dream last night. Aliens, sentient AI, suicide, time travel, happiness. So out there I don't know what to make of it.

Worked on stuff, took dog for walk, made ahi burgers, watched tv. Nothing exciting. Bills, therapy, life today.

ANA Y3 D331

I finally got a doctor's appointment. Next Tuesday. I took the appointment for a couple reasons. One I worked hard to get it and two even if things are feeling better, I can make sure I am healing well. Not happy it took so damn long but whatever. Slept in this morning. Both of us feel like we're not getting enough sleep. Don't know why to be honest. I have to get up early the next couple of days and I took advantage of today. 

Did mostly paperwork yesterday with a couple of meetings thrown in. We are migrating our LMS system starting May 1st and we're in the planning stages right now. This will be my main focus in May. Roll it out to customers in June. Keeps me busy. We also landed a $350k gig for the company this week which helps. Not enough to keep us going long term, but keeps the lights on.

B came over last night to pick up something and doggo got to meet their doggo. Went quite well. They both got along and had a fun time. I feel more confident about her being around other dog on Saturday now. C wasn't feeling well last night and I made her grilled cheese and soup. I had leftovers. We watched some tv, played some video games, went to bed.

Nothing exciting planned for today. Laundry and grocery store while working.

ANA Y3 D330

My ears are going squish squish, my toothbrush died, and I still can't breathe out of my left nostril. Welcome to my world. Nothing of any real note happened. The world still sucks. The pope is dead thanks to Cringe Lord, and I am fed up with everything. Had a weird dream that made no sense. Made sloppy joes. I am done.

ANA Y3 D329

I didn't get into the doctor yesterday. Right ear is worse. Almost went to urgent care but decided to stick it out one more day. The price difference isn't worth it. Last time I went to urgent care for this shit it cost me $150. I go to my regular doctor it will be $25. Hopefully I will hear from them today. 

Did take it easy yesterday to try and relieve the pain in my head. My right ear is squish squish right now. Hard to focus on anything else. Made salmon with udon last night.

ANA Y3 D328

Ear infection, right ear. Throbbing. Pain. Sent doctor appointment request last night. Hope to hear back from them this morning. Need ear drops. I could feel it coming all day yesterday. Hurting in my jaw, making me cranky. I know my ear holes. I know when they need the meds.

Made my roast, came out nice. Was very happy but sadly had little appetite all day. Didn't have energy to do much around the house either. Weather was false sun. You'd go outside thinking it was warm and nope. Today is supposed to be nicer. Let's see if it is. 

3 more hours before I would hear anything from my doctor at the earliest.