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Hey there. What's going on? Yeah? Cool. Oh nothing. Just chilling. Yeah still feeling a bit out of sorts, but you know how it is. I will make it through. I am just glad I am not alone right now. Alone would be harder. Much harder.

Taught again yesterday. Class went right to the wire as I expected. With such a large class it happens. Everyone seemed to enjoy themselves and learn something though which at the end of the day is all that matters. B was getting frustrated yesterday just sitting at home which I understand. She spent a good portion of the day going through Craigslist and other sites to start looking for something. She doesn't want another retail or foodservice job which I can understand but at the same time? Take what you can get. She is tired of just sitting at home but she also doesn't know where to go to look, how to randomly network like I do, etc. On top of it, her bank account is getting low because they took out her registration and insurance on her car. That added to her stress. Luckily sex is a great stress reliever. Oh darn.

After class, we just kind of hung out. She is learning that even though I am just 'sitting' during the day, that I expend a lot of energy doing these classes and I am exhausted when they are over. I don't feel like doing anything right after class. I made chicken and mac & cheese for dinner and while I was cooking she went for a walk to try and distract herself. She wants to do so much but feels like her hands are tied. She doesn't know the area still, doesn't have friends here, and isn't working. While she isn't a prisoner, it's not like she can run around like she did back home.

It's been three weeks already since she got here. Amazing isn't it? Are we happy? Damn skippy we are. From that aspect we are doing great. Honestly. There really is this connection and feeling like we have been together forever. I have to pause myself and stop from calling her 'wife'. It's like oh that's right we are 'dating'. I forget.

After dinner we went and sat in the hot tub for a while. The poor kid worked from 7p-3a the night before and had to do 9p-4 last night. I just saw her and she has been home for less than an hour. She has another night of that tonight. I feel for her on one hand, but on the other, she is racking up the hours. B empathizes with her but is also a little jealous. She wishes she was working that much. She went from working 10-12 hours a day seven days a week to nothing and it's hard.

Sigh. I will shoulder it all like I do. I will make everyone happy.

Special show tonight. This weekend starts some craziness for the next week. I hope I make it through in one piece.