Y5 D236

Same shit different day. Nothing new or exciting to report. I taught all day, B worked, we napped, we ate, we worked on the puzzle, we got a hankering for cheesecake, went to the cheesecake factory, came back, ate cheesecake, watched TV, worked more on puzzle, went to bed. There. That's our whole day in a nutshell. Seriously. I wish there was something more exciting to write about, but that's it. The days blend together and become one. And it's going to stay that way for a while I hope. 

Look, I am really not complaining. If I go back and read a year ago, two years ago, I was in a shitty place. While things may not be very exciting, at least they are stable. I am doing much better mentally, financially, emotionally, etc. I don't have the spirals I used to have. This is a good thing. I have reached a point of balance. Not every day is sunshine and sprinkles but they are consistent and stable and that's more important. The extremes were killing me and you know it. I was either on the edge of suicide or elated beyond belief. Now I am finding middle ground. Middle ground is good. I don't go out and drink myself to sleep any more. It was just a few short years ago where the only way I could sleep was by passing out. 

I have evolved. I have grown. Or maybe if you look at it another way, I have found peace and acceptance. When you find acceptance you find middle ground. I am happy with the way things are. I could be going like this for a long time and not regret. That's something isn't it?