Friday, July 31, 2015

Y7 D66

I don't know what to type this morning. I have a bit of a brain lock. I have been up for a little while already. Woke up to about 9 emails. Most of them useless, but there's nothing like a whole lot of emails flashing on your phone to jar you up.

Finished up class yesterday with no real issues. I was not a fan of my students this week to be honest. They were just flat. I like students who interact and respond to my questions. This group was just boring. This happens all the time on this particular class because of the type of person it attracts and it always tends to bring me down. Their energy level messes with my energy level. But I got through it.

Got my paycheck this morning. My Q2 bonus was on there. An extra $700 after taxes. Not going to complain. Now I can pay bills. Whee. Reminder to myself - call movers today. I did get final confirmation yesterday I am going to NJ 8/22 to 9/2. That just sucks. Those dates are right in the middle of the final move days and it's going to put a lot of pressure on me to make sure everything is done before the movers get here on 9/4. On the plus side, it's 7000 miles round trip added to my account and 10 more hotel nights. I did book a nice hotel with a 2 room suite overlooking the NY skyline. Hey, if I have to be stuck in NJ over a weekend, I am going to try and enjoy myself. I will be close to Manhattan and may try to get into the city on the weekend. This is a $30,000 deal for my company which isn't bad for 10 days worth of work for sure. I need $40,000 per month to hit my bonus numbers and if I can grab a huge chunk in one trip, so be it.

Packed the bathroom last night after work. No real reason other than I wanted to feel like I accomplished something. This weekend I want to finish a couple of specific areas which should make me feel better about being gone. That should help reduce some of my stress.

Played some video games, watched some TV, ate some food. That's about it.

Today I have docs to work on, and then I think we will have some time to ourselves. We got into it a bit yesterday because being at home is starting to take its toll on me. Plus we have reached the point where we need a break from each other. People don't realize how hard it is when you see someone 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Always in the same place together. Going to an office every day is beneficial. You can interact with other people. When it's just the two of you every day all day, it can be frustrating. At least for me.

Thursday, July 30, 2015

Y7 D65

Yay I slept until my alarm went off at 4:30 this morning. Go me. I was right in the middle of an interesting dream too. First I was in this big parking lot like a WalMart parking lot. I was waiting for something or someone, not sure which and all these people starting coming. I realized they were all waiting for these busses to take them to church. There were hundreds of them all waiting to get on busses. It was weird. After that I went to this restaurant where the kid was and we were supposed to go have breakfast 'at the park' which meant we were going to Disneyland. As we were leaving we went through this game store and that's about when I woke up. Nothing crazy or totally out of the ordinary to be honest. It was just a strange dream. I wish I could have slept another half hour to see where it was going.

Taught yesterday. Boring group to be honest. They are just kind of dull. No problem with the material or issues with the class, they just aren't very high energy which makes it hard for me. I like groups that have some excitement going on with them. This group is just kind of meh. One more day with them today.

After class I napped as I was up way too early. I then played some Lego Jurassic Park, watched some TV and we had leftover pizza for dinner. We watched Mr Robot together and relaxed. After all that and before bed, I sat down and did some finances. I predicted out how much we're going to have after everything is all said and done with this move. Surprisingly we aren't totally fucked. I have been working my butt off to try and get us to a point where we can have a savings and even after everything that's about to happen, we will still have a little left in savings. I was surprised and proud to be honest.

The only thing left to deal with is the bike. We discussed it a little last night. There's some logic in taking the bike and the car to the dealer and seeing if I can swap both of them in for a new vehicle. But only if I can keep my same payment or lower. Yes, it adds length to our payments, but it gets rid of the bike and it gives us a new vehicle. I don't know. On a logic standpoint it makes sense but then again, it doesn't. I would rather have the cash from the bike to put it towards this move and future savings but I don't have much time left. I am going to go the motorcycle shop here in town tomorrow or Saturday and see what they might be able to do for me. Even if I can get $2500 for it, it will help. It truly is the last piece of the puzzle. I could ride it up to OR but then what? It sits in the garage up there? That's useless. I am just not sure what to do.

One more day of classes and then I get a break tomorrow. Let's get this over with shall we?

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

Y7 D64

Been up since 3:30 this morning. I actually woke up at 2:30, realized what time it was, said fuck this, and fell back to sleep for an hour. When I re-awoke, I figured it had to be closer to alarm time (4:23) but alas no, it was 3:37. Sigh. My brain started in as I saw I had 4 regular emails and three work emails. I'm up. Forget sleeping.

I didn't sleep poorly luckily and I am awake, it's just annoying.

Did day two of my class which actually went well because it was a small class and I tailored it to my student's needs. One of the guys had been on Monday's class and I could tell on Monday he wasn't getting enough out of it. It was good I had the second opportunity to show him that the classes do meet what he wants and he left happy. The best part is since it was a two person class, I was able to finish up at 1:30.

We had pizza for dinner, video games, and bad TV. Life is pretty stable right now. Surrounded by boxes and anxious to move, but otherwise pretty good. I could complain but why? There's people who have it a lot worse than I do. I think I have managed to stave off the thoughts starting to creep into my head which is a good thing. Perspective. Calmness. Focus. All the things that will help me get through.

Two more days of classes then a doc day. We are planning a 'date night' for Friday which I am looking forward to as we need the time. Sometimes both of us being home all day makes for a challenge. We see each other 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Anyone who doubts are relationship should always remember that. Most couples can't handle seeing each other 4 or 5 hours a day and yet we make it work with three times that. Again, I am a pretty lucky guy and need to remember that more often than I do.

Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Y7 D63

Bunch of little stuff made up yesterday. Nothing huge, nothing overly exciting. Taught class, that went as well as can be expected. It was a six person intro class and for the most part the students were fine. One was a little slower than the rest, but she managed to come through the day without too many issues. Got confirmation from the new place that they received all of our checks. They sent over the initial holding documents which are now electronically signed. We are solid on that now at least. We discovered a worm in the cat's poop and had to get some pills to take care of that. Not a big deal to be honest, just an annoyance. B was still up at 4 when I got up yesterday and she ended up sleeping until noon yesterday which annoyed me not for any real reason other than envy at being able to stay up that late and sleep in until she wanted. Made chicken for dinner with a shrimp pasta salad. Played some Lego Jurassic Park, watched some White Collar, and generally relaxed in the evening. Got a new comic book in the mail. Issue 3 of FC2. Started re-watching the Doctor in prep for new episodes in September. Lots of little things. A very basic day all in all.

Today should be more of the same. Another one day class but with only two people today, therefore I should finish pretty early. After class today I think I am going to pack up the bathroom. Get one more room completed.

Monday, July 27, 2015

Y7 D62

Packed and packed and then packed some more. But my closet is almost 100% empty, the kitchen looks great, and we made progress on the bedroom. Only 3 three weeks to go. As you might imagine it wasn't a very exciting day. I ran to the store to get mayo and dish soap.

Suburban life. Ah yes. The dream.

Meh, I shouldn't complain. I don't have it that bad. I really don't. You wanna see pain? Swing by First Methodist Tuesday nights...

Brain. Down boy. Behave.

I am antsy. I want to go back on the road. I need away from boxes. Soon. Watched Humans. Made a pork roast.

I should mention B was still up when I just got up at 4. Whatever.

red-and-blue tuinal bullet capsules

Three classes this week. Four days. 2 one day, then a two day admin. Today will be people of potentially not so sharp technical skills. Whee.

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Y7 D61

Look at me sleeping until 6:40. Woo. Unfortunately my ear is killing me still. I need to get some antibiotics from a doctor I feel. But to go to my doctor means an hour drive both ways. Other option is to go to the walk in clinic where it will cost me $100 for the co-pay. Hm. Such great choices available to me.

Got up yesterday and hit the store at about 5:45. I love the stores at that time. Say what you will about the CrapMart, but it is nice at that time of the morning. No screaming children, no messy people. Just me and the employees setting up for the day.

Got back from the store and started in on packing. I have almost the entire kitchen done. We also made significant progress on the patio, the office closet, the master bath, B's closet, and the bedroom in general. That was how we spent the majority of our day. As planned we packed our asses off yesterday. Still a ton left to do, but I do feel like we got somewhere. More of the same is planned for today.

Other than packing, we didn't do much yesterday. It was weird knowing there was a show happening last night and not being there. I think it's going to take a while to get that out of my system. Five years of doing shows the first and last Saturday becomes a habit.

We watched some TV, had soup and salad for dinner, and generally were lazy butts after about 4pm.

Not a bad day. I want to get more done. Must finish this damn packing. Thank goodness we are using professionals though. Even going back and forth to the dumpster yesterday eventually took its toll on my leg. I think that's why I didn't want to do much of anything last night. I was sore and tired and not in a good way.

Now, let's do it again.

Saturday, July 25, 2015

Y7 D60

I used to be happy when I 'slept in' until 6. Now it seems I can't sleep past 4 something. I would be happy to sleep until 5. Old age? Maybe. Stress? Probably. I wake up, look at the time, try to fall back to sleep and unfortunately my brain starts in with thinking about everything I need to get done in a day and that's that. I'm up. Lucky me.

Yesterday was okay. Nothing exciting. I worked on docs for the most part of the day. B went and helped baby sit for our friends as they had a last minute work thing which screwed up their schedule. After working played some video games then started planning on what we wanted to get rid of around the house and what we want to get packed this weekend.

That's my big goal for today. Pack at least a certain number of rooms. Since everything is real and coming together, I need to get things packed.

I did get some more good news yesterday. I beat my second quarter goal numbers by 11% and will get just under $1000 in bonus on this next check. Of course after taxes I will see $600 of that, but not complaining. That's my deposit money right there.

Speaking of the move, I set up our electric account yesterday. When we get there we will have power at least. I need to make a checklist today of everything left to do. I might ask B to do that since she is better at lists than me.

Finished season 2 of White Collar last night. Went to bed around 10:30. Yeah, I'm old. Sue me.

Friday, July 24, 2015

Y7 D59

And sometimes the universe cuts me a break. I bitch when it slaps me in the face and I will acknowledge when it does something nice too.

It would appear that my appeal to the place in OR did not fall of deaf ears. After getting the bad news of them wanting a full month's deposit, I wrote to them explaining the situation and that B was not going to be responsible for any of the financials for the new place. The management company reviewed everything I sent and at 11:32am I received an email letting me know they reduced the deposit back down to $300. SCORE! The amount of stress this takes off me is incredible. That's a $1200 difference. That's huge. So thank you universe. It is very appreciated.

I spent the first two hours of the day finishing up my class. Everyone was really understanding and we got through all the material without any problems. When class was over I started working on some curriculum updates I need to have done in the next couple of weeks. It's why I am up early today. The sooner I finish this, the better.

Around noon we headed out to visit our friend's son in the hospital. He was admitted a couple of days ago due to a flair up of a medical issue. He lives about 40 minutes from us and we figured we should visit. Smart move on our part. He is our director's son and this gave us an opportunity to tell them about the move.

That went better than we expected to be honest. While they're sad we are leaving the state, they approve of our destination and wish us the best. It helped that we did while they were already in an empathetic and sympathetic mood for their son, but I honestly believe they are happy for us. It throws some plans they had for us helping out with special shows out of synch but it's not the end of the world. This also made me happy yesterday.

When we got back I did some grocery shopping, more doc work, and tried to deal with the bike. It's the last thing I need to make sure is in order before we move. I talked to one dealer who was just a dick and offered me $700. Yeah, fuck you. Another dealer offered me $2300 which is much closer to what I want but still a slap in the face. I paid way more for it. I have gotten a good 7 years out of the bike but still. I want $3000. I may have found a buyer at $2500 which while not ideal is better. If I can't find anyone else in the next week or two, it's his.

Watched some TV, made enchiladas for dinner and headed to bed around 10.

B and I had a long talk about my behavior and for now things are better. Not perfect, but better. That's all I can ask for right now.

Now to move and start a new adventure!

Thursday, July 23, 2015

Y7 D58

I am so stressed out right now it isn't funny. Yesterday was a huge clusterfuck and I treated B like shit as a result.

It started with Comcast fucking up my class. Around 12:15 I lost internet. Like straight up gone. It was an outage in my area which according to their website "... will be fixed by 5pm PST". Oh that's no good. I had to go outside to make phone calls to let my students know that the last two hours of class were basically fucked. I was freaking out. It finally came back up around 3, but was flaky for the rest of the night. Luckily I managed to get everyone to agree to log back in this morning for the final part of class. Now I have to do a 7-9 final session with this group. Not only was I stressed about it, but the embarrassment of it was too much. But that was just the beginning of the problems.

Around 4:30 I finally got a call back from the place in OR. We got the place. BUT only if we put up a FULL month's deposit. Their normal deposit? $300. What they want from us? $1550. WTF? WHY? Oh this was lovely. It's due to B's credit history. Her non-existent, identity stolen, she supposedly defaulted on a mortgage as a minor, credit history. I have been after her for a YEAR to get this resolved. I knew it would come back and bite us in the ass at some point. I fucking knew it. And yes, I yelled at her. I ranted and raged and was not a nice person at all. It was wrong of me. But it didn't matter. The damage was done. I acted like a fool. She was obviously upset. So upset that I just found her on the couch this morning when I got up.

I ended up writing this sob story to the apartment manager explaining that we have an open case with Equifax and that we are trying to fight it. I am hoping that they take everything into consideration and can lower the deposit even a little.

This is a big deal because with a full deposit, cat deposit, extra two weeks of rent, and moving costs, I am looking at $6000 out of pocket for this move. I was planning on about 4, not 6. That makes a huge fucking difference. These are the things I was yelling at B about. Which turned into me yelling about her not working for the last year. Which turned into me getting upset about everything. I was a monster and it was horrible. I hope we can move past it but it was not pretty around here last night that's for sure.

Add to that my boss emailing me and telling me that the one week I had to pack and move is now gone. I will be out of town from 8/14 until 9/2 between two client trips. First to Pasadena, home for two days, then off to New Jersey for nine. That screws up my plans for packing. Of course I yelled about this too because I am now feeling like all of the packing is going to fall on me.

I don't know what I am going to do right now. I need to sell the motorcycle. If I can sell the bike in the next two weeks that will help ease the burden. If not, we will have a dollar to our name when this is all over. I have worked so hard this last year to put aside money, to pay off bills, and now to have it all taken away because of something that should have been fixed a year ago is upsetting. I am still pissed off but what can I do. I can't yell anymore that's not productive. We did end up sending a fourth fax to Equifax last night. Let's see what comes of that.

Finally with all of this, my ear is killing me. I can't hear out of my right ear and it's sending shooting pains down my jaw. So much fun.

My biggest challenge is trying to figure out the best way to put yesterday behind us and move forward. Plus figure out where I am going to come up with the extra $2000 I wasn't planning on for this move.

Fuck.

Wednesday, July 22, 2015

Y7 D57

I don't know if OR has stricter requirements on things or if it's just this particular property, but I am *still* waiting to hear if we got the place. Yesterday's update was they were waiting for verification from our current place that we have been good tenants. I have never waited this long. To be fair, I am used to situations where I have rented from larger complexes that have multiple units available at any given time versus one like this that has ONE place available and probably multiple applicants. Due diligence is being done for sure.

Day two of class went okay. We went up until about 2:45 and after class I worked on finishing up some stuff B wanted. She wanted all of One Tree Hill. All 9 seasons. Took me forever to get it all converted and put up for her. But it's there. 125 hours worth. I better not hear from her she has nothing to watch for quite a while.

For dinner we had Vietnamese food. Quite tasty and reasonably priced. The weather sucked all day and I was just a giant ball of sweat all day. We watched some TV when we got back and then I was exhausted as I woke up at 4 yesterday and went to bed right before 10.

Last day of class today. I am going to try and sleep in until at least 6 tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Y7 D56

STILL waiting to hear back on OR. Getting a bit worried and frustrated. I know I technically submitted the app Saturday morning, nothing was getting done on Sunday, and yesterday the issue was when the girl sent over my paycheck stubs she cut off some information and we had to resend because they couldn't see the company name. Ugh. When we moved in here it was less than 20 minutes before we had an answer. I don't know if OR does things differently or if this is more the norm but it's nerve wracking. I just want to know. I need to know if I need to start looking, if we need to stay here for a while, I need to know. Until things are signed and done, I am going to stress out.

Full class yesterday. Some technical problems for a couple of my students and I hope they aren't too far behind as a result. I may just copy over my model to their machines this morning to make sure they are where they need to be. Done. His model should be fine now.

After class B and I packed. Even if we don't have the place we still need to pack. We got through about three kitchen boxes. This weekend's goal is to get 10-15 boxes packed. I think we can do it.

We had sausage and sauerkraut for dinner last night and I am paying for it. I spent a good deal of time in the bathroom last night and am headed back there in a minute. My stomach is not happy.

Went to bed around 10 and woke up at 4. Whee.

Monday, July 20, 2015

Y7 D55

I swear I have had more ear infections in the last year living here than I did in the previous 10 living elsewhere. Why? Having to have the damn air conditioning running 24/7. I just went outside to throw away cat poop and it is already at least 80 degrees outside. When did I agree to move to Hell? It's disgusting out there. Let me stay in the house thank you very much.

We did stay mostly in the house yesterday. I apologized to B for my behavior on Saturday. I didn't do anything 'wrong', I was just in an annoyed mood again. I really had a lousy time Saturday night and it made me into a big old jerk. I was angry at traffic, angry that people are people, and just flustered all together. I finally got over everything yesterday afternoon. Here's hoping this week goes smoother.

We spent some time packing yesterday. I *should* hear back from the new place today. I am still nervous as hell about that. Until they say it's a go, I am going to stress. Just the way it is.

We went out to the store around 5 for some bubble wrap and some dinner. I also decided I needed to bake and made a peanut butter cheesecake. I need to finish the topping today. I will take care of that after class. I have a three day class starting today with nine students. Big week. About a $20,000 week but it's going to be a challenge with this many students.

I went to bed around 10:30 and I think B went to bed around 3:30 based on her posts and messages.

I am hoping for a couple of packages to arrive today too. I ordered some new juice off a new site last week and I paid for 3 day priority shipping. Per their website my order shipped last Monday and I still haven't seen it. I sent them two emails about it with no response. I am going to pick up the damn phone after class if it isn't in today's mail.

Time to get prepped for class. Here we go.

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Y7 D54

And now the waiting begins. Well technically it began at 4:30 yesterday morning when I submitted our applications and paycheck stubs. I hate this part. The part where I stress out and don't know if something is going to come back on my credit that makes moving impossible. I got this place, right? Yeah, but who knows. Who knows what's on B's credit that could cause us problems. I hate this part. The waiting.

I had a lousy time last night. We went out about 5, and it took us 68 minutes to go 35 miles. FOR ONCE can I drive on this fucking freeway without stopping? Seriously. I fucking hate it. Picked up the kid as she is on the way now. She had fun. B had fun.

Me?

I realized that I don't belong or fit in anywhere and that my list of 'friends' is so short it's practically non-existent.

Got home around 1, went to bed around 2. Anything else that happened yesterday is statistically useless to talk about.


Saturday, July 18, 2015

Y7 D53

I am annoyed this morning. Not mad, not sad, just annoyed. I don't know at what. The cats? Bills? Moving? Being wide awake at 4am on a Saturday? All of the above?

I got a call yesterday from the place in OR. They will have a unit come up on the 17th of next month. It will be cheaper to take it rather than wait and stay here for another month. Once I am done typing all this up I plan to do the online application. Wish me luck.

Got through day two of my class. Not bad all in all. There were only a few questions I couldn't answer right away and we finished around 2:45 which is perfect timing for the class in my opinion. A few minutes early, but not too early that people feel they got cheated. I also learned where to speed up, where to slow down, and where I need more knowledge. I need to read some books on P-value and trend lines to really be able to answer everyone's questions. Not a problem. I have had two books in my wishlist for a while on Amazon. Time to buy them I feel.

After class I napped then we went out to Freebirds for dinner. After dinner, quick stop at the grocery store for a couple of things. We of course forgot three things so I am going back out shortly. Alone. I like my alone time.

Damn cat. She's pooping right now and I *just* took her poop out. Sheesh.

Played some video games together then I went to bed around 10:30. Tonight we have a party to go. If I hear back from the apartment in time, we might have some news for people tonight. We will only tell a select few as we don't want to take away from the main people at the party.

That's about it for now. Hopefully I will have more news in the morning tomorrow.

Friday, July 17, 2015

Y7 D52

Made it through day one of class. Finished about 2:30. I am not quite where I want us to be in terms of material but this is the first time teaching this class and I need to set realistic expectations with myself. I don't know yet where the good breaking points are, or where I need to speed up/slow down yet. We still have a ton of material to get through today and I am going to need to keep it at a quick pace to make sure we get through everything.

After class B was sleeping and I went out to the grocery store. 104. That was the fucking temperature outside. I was dying by the time I got back. I was just dripping sweat and dust and felt like shit. It was so bad I had to get in the shower to cool off. It was disgusting outside. And the humans. Ugh fucking humans. I did manage to get everything on our list which is good, but I was just in agony at having to leave the fucking house.

Came back, played some Lego Batman. Almost through the whole game. I am probably going to get some of the add-on packs today. Spend like $15 to get everything. But this way I can fully complete it. There's a new golf game I want and I am debating getting it. I need to read some reviews first. It's from EA and is basically Tiger Woods golf but with some new player front lining. They have always made beautiful golf games. I used to be amazed at how real the graphics were on their games and now I look at the old ones and laugh.

Made a steak for dinner, watched a bunch of White Collar with B. I have her hooked on two new shows - Mr. Robot and Humans. I woke up this morning to a hangouts message from her as she stayed up until almost 2 trying to catch up on Humans. I love both of those shows and I am glad she likes them too. We rarely agree on TV and movies. Although today after class, Ant Man! Yeah, I am going to see Ant Man. Got a problem with that?

Went to bed around 10:30. I have a bit of a headache still that came on when I was going to bed. I think it's a heat headache but hopefully I can shake it before class starts. No plans for tonight other than the movie. The weekend is pretty open too. Packing and a going away party for some friends. Unfortunately the party is 2 hours away and that's the only sucky part.

Thursday, July 16, 2015

Y7 D51

Slept so soundly last night. BUT I did wake up a lot. I think it's because I am doing a brand new class today and tomorrow and I am nervous. New servers, new topic, it's one of our largest classes ever, has the most demos in a class ever, and a lot of important clients. It's going to be a stressful day today.

Thank goodness we had sex last night.

Yes, our dry spell is over. We discussed after and we both acknowledge it is not due to a lack of desire or want just scheduling. I didn't teach yesterday which means I wasn't exhausted as I normally on during the week and up until recently our Saturdays were pretty much gone thanks to shows and obligations. Heck, even this week we have a party to go to on Saturday which won't get us home until probably well after midnight. We both have just been out of sync. For whatever blessed reason everything line up last night and we were both awake and raring to go. Good.

Other important events of the day included the Bekins guy coming over to give us a quote. $3200. A little higher than I was hoping, but still doable. I know that I can't move this stuff with my leg which means we don't have a real choice in the matter of having pros help us. On this end we can wrangle up enough friends, but once we get to OR forget it. We won't have anyone up there to help us. Now I just know how much I have to budget. I took the first step in getting rid of the motorcycle by starting to advertise it. I have had a couple of inquires so far. I would like to have it done and gone by the end of the month if possible. I am asking $4,000 which more than covers the move. Also I should be getting a Q2 bonus at the end of this month which will give us anywhere from $500 - $800 more on my check. Also helps. I am a little less stressed out about the move now. Not 100% stress free, but getting there.

We also spent the day trying to see if there was anything worthwhile on Amazon Prime Day. In the end we found a necklace for B that was reduced 80% but otherwise, meh. It was a bunch of accessories and stuff we had no use for at this time. I am sure some people got some deals and there were some good things buried, but you had to be quick on those. They had some 4K TVs at good prices, just nothing we needed. I tried for a few flash drives and video games but didn't get any. Now of course I have to clear out my viewing history as there's all sorts of random things in there and my recommendations are all out of whack.

Overall it was a nice Wednesday for sure. Need more like it. Wish me luck today. Here's hoping all my servers work, no one calls me out on something I don't know, and that everyone gets through the material.

Wednesday, July 15, 2015

Y7 D50

I got hit by this huge wave of sadness/depression last night. Things were fine and then it just came over me. I started thinking too much about everything going on and everything I need to do and the monies I need to come up with and moving and leaving everyone behind and starting fresh and and and and. I just got so overwhelmed and it knocked me. Too much to process all at once. I shut down. I wish I could say I was over it but I am not. It's still eating at me. So much to do and not enough time or energy to do it. I do want to move don't get me wrong. I want out of this area and out of this place but it's a lot to process. When I went to bed last night I laid there for god knows how long and my brain went through every place I have lived in since I was 21. Every floor plan, every location. I thought about some of the places I have lived and if they would be acceptable to me today. What did I give up living in a nicer place than I should have at certain points. How did I function in some of the smaller places? How did I manage to get through everything with a child? All of these things rushed into my head. I ended up crying myself to sleep for years lost, years missed. All the emotions of the last 20 years flooding into my head.

The rest of the day was okay. Taught my class, answered some emails, and had dinner. B cooked last night. She made meatballs and I made some pasta to go with them. She had hers with gravy. I am not a gravy person and had mine on a bed of noodles instead. It was okay. Her meatballs were good but I was just not feeling all that present while eating. I hope she doesn't think I disliked them. It had more to do with my mindset than her food.

Today I have a guy from Bekins coming over to give us a not to exceed quote. I also want to call the motorcycle dealer and see about making an appointment for them to look at my bike. I need to get rid of it. That would help alleviate some of my stress. Just like with B's car, it will be one less thing I have to deal with right now. I am also going to call the apartment in OR and see if they might have something earlier. Too many things out of my control right now. I need something to solidify.

Tuesday, July 14, 2015

Y7 D49

Hello. Trying to shake the cobwebs from my brain. People think I am joking when I tell them I get up at 4:30 in the morning to teach classes. But if I didn't, I wouldn't have the requisite energy needed to get through these things. This morning is a prime example of that. In two hours when class starts I will be fine, but right now I am just a blurry eyed mess.

Class was interesting yesterday. I had two students scheduled but one of them had audio issues, then she had keyboard troubles and then she just failed to return at all after lunch. I have no idea if she will be coming back today for the second part. She missed quite a bit yesterday and it will be hard to recover. Multiple emails sent had no response. Oh well. Not much I can do if you don't bother communicating. The other student was fine. He had no troubles with the materials nor did he have any technical problems. We finished up around 2:20 and called it a day.

After I caught up on some file transfers, watched Last Week Tonight and Humans. Made a nice pork loin for dinner. We watched some TV and then I finished up some file conversions I was working on. Went off to bed around 10.

We are both feeling trepidation at being back here. It's put B in a funk and I am bored out of my mind. I don't have any road trips planned until mid-August and there's just nothing to do here. We are both antsy to be on our way to our new adventure but it's six weeks away. A long six weeks at that.

I did talk to the movers yesterday. They are coming on Wednesday to give us an official not to exceed quote. I really want to make this work because I can't be lifting and moving things with my leg. At some point I still need to figure out how and when to have surgery. It's been almost a year since the original injury and nothing has really improved. Mostly I have been learning to live with pain. I know I am damaging it further every day but what else can I do? The Go Fund Me made $900 which helped pay off the MRI but it's not enough. I just paid them another $420 on that and still have a balance. The thought of coming up with another $3000 to move is stressing me out. Money doesn't buy happiness, but it sure as hell makes things easier.

Monday, July 13, 2015

Y7 D48

I slept like shit last night. Tossing and turning and cats. We have been leaving the door open at night since we got back to let the cats feel like we are home and the one cat who normally sleeps by herself in the other room has been a huge pain in the ass. She walks all over, she sticks her head in the window, basically anything but fucking sleeping. Add to that the weather difference here and my ears are bugging me, my throat is dry, and I am cranky as fuck right now. Argh.

Mellow day yesterday consisting mostly of doing more laundry, video game playing, grocery buying, and relative mundane stuff. We did go out to dinner with a friend (a belated birthday dinner) which was okay. The company was good, the food was meh. Another reason we hate living here. We ate so well up in OR that everything feels flat here.

I did get a quote on how much it would be to use pro movers for this trip and we will figure it out. Odds are I am going to sell the motorcycle and use the money from that to pay for movers. I have a potential dealer that will buy my bike straight out. I am going to put a new battery in it this weekend and take it out to them. The quote was $2500 - $3000 which is about what I expected. I am hoping we are closer to the low end, but we shall see.

I got a message from another friend warning me about the unemployment rate in that area. Here's where I am fortunate. My company fully supports this move because they want me closer to an airport and frankly they want me happy. I bring in enough revenue AND I am the only one who will travel that it gives me the advantage right now. It's a small advantage, but it works in my favor none the less.

Today and tomorrow is teaching a small class. Haven't had to teach online in a couple of weeks. Need to make sure I still got it. Let the games begin.

Sunday, July 12, 2015

Y7 D47

Ah home. It sucks. We both are sad to be home after a great week. Not only was the weather more to our liking, but the people and area made us happier too. Both of us were anxious and fidgety yesterday with nothing to do.

Our big outing consisted of grocery shopping. Look out. Other highlights include dyeing my hair and starting a new tv show (White Collar). So much excitement.

One thing that did happen last night was some friends came over to drop off our keys (they watched the cats while we were gone) and to get some files. They brought over a 3Tb drive they bought for $60 off Facebook. Sound too good to be true? It was. I plugged it into three machine and it didn't do anything. I shook it to see if there was a drive spinning up and guess what? It rattled. We cracked the seal and found .37 worth of pennies glued inside. I have never actually witnessed that happening to someone, only the stories, but here it was. A case full of pennies. These are the kind of people who look for 'bargains' everywhere and here's why you don't do that. You get what you pay for sometimes and this time they got ripped off. Plain and simple. I felt bad, but they brought it on themselves. For another $39 they could have bought one from a store. Your 'savings' cost you more. I did find a blank jump drive that fit what they wanted and am bringing it over this morning so there's that at least.

Tonight we are having dinner with a friend then it's back to the work week grind. I also need to do my timesheet today. Whee.

Saturday, July 11, 2015

Y7 D46

We left the hotel at 4:07 am. It took us roughly 11 hours to get home which isn't bad seeing as we stopped twice for gas, ate lunch, sat in some traffic, and dealt with a detour in Portland. We could have had it worse as there was a huge five car pileup on one of the freeways on the way home. We were about 1-2 miles from it and got through it pretty quick. I timed the distance on the other side and it was about an 8 mile backup the other direction. Poor people. On all accounts.

B and I split the driving to make it easier for both of us. Look at me growing into a better person who lets other people drive. I drove initially and then when we hit Weed (where we had Taco Bell on principle) we switched and she drove for almost 3 hours.

Once we got home we unpacked, started laundry, played with our poor kitties who missed us so much, grabbed some groceries for dinner, and relaxed. We made a smart decision in coming home on Friday instead of driving to spend the weekend up there. We now have two days to relax before I have to teach (2 students M-T, five on Thurs-Fri) and get the house in order.

We watched a little TV while we ate, then since we were both sore, we sat in the hot tub. For once, we both went to bed at the same time around midnight. B was so exhausted and was able to fall asleep.

The only thing of interest was when we got home there was a note on the door from the management office with our lease renewal papers. I knew this was coming (60 days out). Both of us were in shock that they want to take our place up to 1805 a month on a 12 month. On a month to month it's 2027. Excuse me?? What the hell have you done in the last 13 months to warrant an 11% increase? You've done no internal improvements, no ground work, the pool and hot tub were closed for a good portion of that time - so um, fuck you?

We have decided that even if the place isn't available 9/1 that we want, we are going to put all our stuff in storage. I am hoping to ask my friend if we could stay with him for a short time if that happens (if you're reading this, I am sending you an email next) while we wait for one to come available. Of course I would pay him the same as I would be paying in rent per day, but at least this way we are out of here.

Today is some more errands and house cleaning as well as some packing. Nothing exciting.

Friday, July 10, 2015

Y7 D45

Yes, it's 5pm. We made it home in just under 11 hours. But we're home.

Thursday was good. We started the morning off slow with a nice breakfast then went back and looked at the place we are interested in to make sure it would work. The second time reinforced that we really do like it and want to live there. We visualized our furniture in it, how things would be laid out, etc. Now all we have to do is wait for a couple of weeks to make sure they have one available when we want. I may have to pay two rents for a couple of weeks but so be it.

After looking at the place we went into downtown. We spent over an hour at Powell's Books going through every level. We ended up buying six books and a tote bag. Once that was done we hit the food trucks. B had a great grilled cheese and I had a monte cristo waffle. Can't wait to go back to the trucks and have all of them!

We finished up downtown and headed back to the hotel. B was starting to get a migraine so she took meds and laid down while I went off for a long walk. I was craving a slurpee and found a 7-11 1.1 miles away. Off I went.

45 minutes later I was back with slurpees for all. We had them, relaxed, then went off into Vancouver for Jimmy Johns. Had a good sandwich then came back and packed. I was in bed by 10 and we left this morning around 4.

All in all it was a good trip. Still pissed about people missing my birthday and not getting any messages on any social media. Yeah, that's part of why my birthday sucked. I got NOTHING from people except for one text from my friend. Whatever.

Tomorrow you shall hear about the adventure home.

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Y7 D44

Birthday II - The Sequel was a much better day. Definitely enjoyed it more than I did Tuesday. Sad but true. We got up and had breakfast in the hotel. From there, B had a 10am massage scheduled and I had a 10:15 mani/pedi. I dropped her off at her place, then I walked over to mine only to find the door locked. There's a sign on the door saying "Open at 11. If you have an earlier appointment someone will unlock they are probably inside with a client." Okay, that makes sense. About 10:10, a person and a client come out and she unlocks the door for me. She asks if I have an appointment and long story short, the person supposed to do my stuff was still asleep because the receptionist the other day fucked up and made my appointment for August 12. Still a Wednesday, just the wrong one. The woman was apologetic and offered to call a few places. She got a hold of one 9 blocks up. Sigh okay I will walk it.

Best decision ever. I really loved the place. It took longer than planned but everything was wonderful and it turned out it ended up being cheaper than the first place. Boo-yah. I enjoyed the whole experience. Yes, it was more walking than I had planned, but that's okay. I can handle that. Get back to the hotel around 2 and B is thoroughly zonked from her massage. We both end up sleeping and around 5:30 we go to Who-Song and Larry's Mexican. Great dinner.

Head back, go for a nice walk, grab some popsicles at the corner store, hang out, and come back to the room. We watched Masterchef together and I fell asleep around 11.

Today we are going back to the one apartment complex to confirm we really like it, that we really wan to do this and see if we can put a deposit down today.

OR here we come.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

Y7 D43

That was, without a doubt, the worst fucking birthday ever. It was just fucking awful. I don't even want to talk about how shitty yesterday was for me.

The end.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Y7 D42

Happy birthday to me! Okay, enough with the festivities. Onto the real stuff.

Got up, had a nice breakfast in the hotel, and then came back up to the room to formulate a game plan. Our goal for the morning was to look at a reasonable number of places in a reasonable area. We were extremely picky on our criteria to make sure we didn't waste time looking at too many places. It had to have a certain number of bedrooms, bathrooms, square footage, price, and storage. We were able to with those criteria, narrow the search down to seven complexes. We then mapped out the best route and headed off to the first one.

We loved the first one amazingly enough. Garage. Storage a plenty. It was great. Nice complex. Good location. We had real high hopes if this was going to be the quality of places in this area. Turns out, that one place was one of the 3 best. A couple we didn't even bother looking at because we could tell from the neighborhood and surroundings we didn't want to live there. All in all, out of the original seven, three made the grade.

We found a red robin where took a break for lunch. I had a birthday coupon for a free burger and well huzzah I was going to use it. While we had lunch we listed the things that were important to us and graded the three places on those criteria. The first one we saw one out by a slim margin. It was 57 to 60 points between 1 and 2. Which means if we had to, we could go to 2 if 1 fell through. The third one came in at 51 points. Not horrible, but a good enough chunk down.

Point being is that we are going to do this. It's time. Time to leave behind a state I don't fit into any more. Time to live a new adventure. We got back to the hotel around 2 and B took a nap. I went up to the massage place and made her an appointment for tomorrow then went to the nail place and made me an appointment for a mani/pedi as I desperately need one.

Came back and B got up around 5:30. While I waited for her I watched Episode 4 of Humans. I won't ruin it for anyone but I KNEW IT!

At 6:45 we headed into downtown to have dinner with a very close friend and his girlfriend. They have been together almost 8 months now and I have never seen him so happy. And we have known each other 20 freckin' years. He is extremely happy and looks healthy and good for him. They picked the restaurant and holy shit did they do a good job. (Side note, when we move, we will six miles from them (at least for now) which helps make the decision easier). This place was great. I had an octopus salad, rabbit terrine, salmon terrine, a whiskey flight, oysters, and a cheesecake that was BAM. THIS is why I am okay with moving up here. They like food. Unlike where we live now where I am pretty sure they hate it. That would explain why they deep fry so much of it.

After dinner we went for a nice walk around. The GF is native to the area and she was excitedly telling us about different places. It was nice having a semi tour guide point some stuff out and remind me of other stuff. We walked towards a huge book store, wandered around, then headed back. Said our goodbyes and got back to the hotel around 11. Grabbed B teen wolf which she watched while I slept.

Now today we are off to Seattle to go to the EMP museum. So excited.

Monday, July 6, 2015

Y7 D41

Oh my god! I was so tired yesterday when I wrote that I forgot to tell you about the greatest thing ever that happened. First off the office stuck a card in our door sometime in the morning. It was a birthday card for me. Yay me. Which by the way is in 16 hours and 37 minutes. Just saying. Anyway, I went into the office because I wanted to see what the cost would be to extend our lease for 3 months. Like I mentioned the other day, there is no way we can be out by 8/1 and B and I talked about that when I landed on Friday. We are both in 100% agreement. We need to reexamine the original area, and we need some time to look up here AND we need time to be able to pack. 8/1 just ain't happening. I went into the office and asked if she could give me the difference in month to month versus a 3 month extension. She was like, well I'd like to but it hasn't been generated yet. Which is weird because it's less than 45 days until our lease is up. Or so we thought! We actually signed a 13 month! We don't need to be out until 9/8! PERFECT. And now on to Sunday.

We left off with us getting in the car at 1:30. The first few hours were pretty uneventful. B slept for about 2 hours, we talked a little, the regular car ride stuff. Around 4, I couldn't keep my eyes open. We pulled into a rest area and I took a 20 minute cat nap. That kept me going until about 6 where I was just struggling. B offered to drive and I jumped on it. The best decision I ever made. I woke up about an hour later and switched back. On the way we saw a sign for the Wild Animal Safari in Winston (go back to the archives to June 2011 and you will also read about this place). We of course made the detour. They opened at 9 and our current pace was going to get us there at 9:24. We did the whole thing - the drive around, the walking part, and had some lunch. Great break in the trip. And it set the tone for this trip. We are NOT in any rush. We have a general plan not a specific agenda. Have to remember that. Got back on the road and I drove for a while then we switched off again. That was a good idea this time as I woke up and we were in dead stop traffic. Turns out there was a rolled vehicle that delayed us for almost 1.5 hours and for 35-45 minutes of that we were parked. Ironically thanks to the delay, it put us right on track for our check in time. I was worried we were going to get there too early but nope, we hit right at about 3:45. Tada. We made it.

We are on the 7th floor in a nice corner room away from everyone. We have a beautiful room overlooking the bridge and Columbia river. For dinner we went off to Joe's Crab Shack because it was close. The food was acceptable but the service a little slow. I did complain and we ended up getting our apps for free. We got back to the hotel around 8, I set up the PS4 on the hotel TV (yes I brought it) and we played some Jurassic Lego. B was finally getting sleepy and she fell asleep around 9. I ended up going for a walk as the temperature finally dropped to a reasonable level. B wants to get a massage this week (Wednesday looks good) and the concierge gave me two options. I went and checked them out and will tell B what I found this morning.

Today's plan is breakfast, apartment searching, dinner downtown with a friend.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

Y7 D40

WE MADE IT!! Sitting in our 7th floor room overlooking the river just on the other side of the bridge separating Portland OR from Vancouver WA. It's so fucking beautiful here. Unfortunately, all of our adventures from today have to wait until tomorrow. Ha.

Yesterday however was pretty busy too. I got up around six and took care of house stuff. Remaining packing, cleaning, etc. We hit the store for some last minute stuff but mostly just hung around the house. We napped from 3-5 for me and until 7 for B. At 8 we started finalizing everything and at 10 headed out to the show with a packed car.

The show was a fucking nightmare. We didn't get in until midnight and everything was rushed. While it was our last show and we got flowers and a card, I felt cheated because we had to rush through everything. I didn't feel like enough time was spent saying goodbye. It kind of was an anti-climatic end to five years of my life. Oh well. It's over and done.

Got on the road at 1:30am and that's where Saturday ends. Until tomorrow.

Saturday, July 4, 2015

Y7 D39

Made it home. My first flight yesterday was glorious. There were 4 of us in all of 1st class. We each had our own row and it was the easiest job for the flight staff. So relaxing. My second flight, not so much. Was in row 11 with the common folk. When will airlines learn it's not just about the leg room? It's also about the width. I felt smushed the whole time home and it was annoying as hell. I was also starving and ended up buying a $13 sandwich and bag of Chex mix. I did manage to sleep for like 1 hour but it wasn't a good sleep. Finally landed and got off the plane around 1, got home around 2:30, and then I did 'stuff' - expense reports, mail, time sheets, laundry, etc. Around 6 we ordered a pizza, then we went to target for stuff for our next trip. Finally got home and ended up collapsing around 11. 24.5 hours of being up and moving.

We did make a decision about one thing. There's no way we can be out of here by 8/1. It just ain't happening. We are going to still look at places next week in OR but we are targeting 9/1 or 10/1 as a possible move date. We aren't telling anyone yet though as tonight is our last Rocky show and that isn't changing. We don't want anyone thinking we can still do more shows as that's part of what's causing us stress. We need the time to get things done.

Today is packing and making sure the house is good for us to be gone for 5 days plus the aforementioned final show. Busy day ahead followed by 10 hours of driving. Whee.

Friday, July 3, 2015

Y7 D38

It's officially past midnight PST and I have one simple question - where the FUCK is my paycheck? I would have expected it to go through yesterday given that today is a holiday for the majority of people but no. Well, it's 4:36am EST and it still isn't in. I can't wait until Monday. If it doesn't come through today there is going to be some serious bitching happening. You don't fucking delay people's paychecks without warning. I have rent to pay, bills to pay, a trip to take, etc. I don't have time for this shit. Puts me in a worse mood than I was already in thanks to my stupid brain. Also I am apparently on the world's worst internet connection and I don't even know if this post will go through. Fucking airports.

Sigh.

Yesterday was okay. We did all day mentoring where I showed the client how to build a model based on everything we spent M-W going over. It was in my opinion, a success. By 2:30 they had something useable and were happy. I was out of there. Got back to the hotel and slept from 3-5 since I knew I would be up way too early. Had dinner in the hotel as I didn't want to try and go anywhere. Got back to the room and slept from 9 until 1:45am. Got up, got ready, left the hotel at 2:30. Arrived at the airport around 3:15.

Talked to the kid yesterday. She is doing really well. I am proud of her. She will survive all this and come out a better person. I am confident of that.

Today I land around 1pm PST if all goes smooth. The rest of the day will be spent doing laundry and getting ready to leave again on Sunday.

Thursday, July 2, 2015

Y7 D37

Having a hard time waking up this morning. I am glad I set 14 different alarms. I kept killing all of them. But I am up. Last day on site. I need to check in for my flight soon. I get to go home tomorrow and sleep in on Saturday. Heck all next week if I desire. And desire I do.

Finished the third day of class materials and finished around 3:30. No issues there. Got back to the hotel and decided, after changing clothes, to go on a bit of an adventure. I found where the 'strip mall' part of town is. There I found a White Castle. Woot. Had me some sliders. Watched some random TV stuffs, talked with B, went to bed around 11. It was later than I wanted, but it was because I was waiting for shows to come down. I wanted to be sure I had them to watch today.

That's it. Nothing more on the horizon. Brain is doing okay for right now. Lonely, but not in a bad place really. I can make it.

Wednesday, July 1, 2015

Y7 D36

I am running super late this morning. I just arrived at the client so as far as they're concerned, I am on time, but I only got up 75 minutes ago. 75 minutes and 40 of those were driving here. I woke up at 6:17. Almost 90 minutes later than I should have. Very stressed this morning. The problem is I napped when I got back to the hotel at 5 yesterday which threw me off. I didn't mean to sleep but sleep I did.

Yesterday morning started off with a stressed out wife. The place we were trying to move to has been unresponsive and we haven't been able to secure or lock down a new place. This means our move is completely in flux. We may not get a new place. This stresses us both out, her more than me outwardly at least. We ended up considering a move to OR instead. Yes, that is back on the table. Since we are going up to Portland next week, we figured we would use the time to look at some places up there and see if maybe this is the opportunity to pull the trigger. I don't know if this is going to be the case yet, but it's a possibility.

Class went fine during the day, no issues there. Finished up around 4 and headed back. Slept as I mentioned, then had dinner in the hotel, and went back to bed around 11:30. I tossed and turned and probably didn't actually sleep solid until 1.

Today is day three of four here. I have to check in for my flight tomorrow morning so no bullshit sleeping in late. I do expect today's class to finish up early which will be nice.