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I am so stressed out right now it isn't funny. Yesterday was a huge clusterfuck and I treated B like shit as a result.

It started with Comcast fucking up my class. Around 12:15 I lost internet. Like straight up gone. It was an outage in my area which according to their website "... will be fixed by 5pm PST". Oh that's no good. I had to go outside to make phone calls to let my students know that the last two hours of class were basically fucked. I was freaking out. It finally came back up around 3, but was flaky for the rest of the night. Luckily I managed to get everyone to agree to log back in this morning for the final part of class. Now I have to do a 7-9 final session with this group. Not only was I stressed about it, but the embarrassment of it was too much. But that was just the beginning of the problems.

Around 4:30 I finally got a call back from the place in OR. We got the place. BUT only if we put up a FULL month's deposit. Their normal deposit? $300. What they want from us? $1550. WTF? WHY? Oh this was lovely. It's due to B's credit history. Her non-existent, identity stolen, she supposedly defaulted on a mortgage as a minor, credit history. I have been after her for a YEAR to get this resolved. I knew it would come back and bite us in the ass at some point. I fucking knew it. And yes, I yelled at her. I ranted and raged and was not a nice person at all. It was wrong of me. But it didn't matter. The damage was done. I acted like a fool. She was obviously upset. So upset that I just found her on the couch this morning when I got up.

I ended up writing this sob story to the apartment manager explaining that we have an open case with Equifax and that we are trying to fight it. I am hoping that they take everything into consideration and can lower the deposit even a little.

This is a big deal because with a full deposit, cat deposit, extra two weeks of rent, and moving costs, I am looking at $6000 out of pocket for this move. I was planning on about 4, not 6. That makes a huge fucking difference. These are the things I was yelling at B about. Which turned into me yelling about her not working for the last year. Which turned into me getting upset about everything. I was a monster and it was horrible. I hope we can move past it but it was not pretty around here last night that's for sure.

Add to that my boss emailing me and telling me that the one week I had to pack and move is now gone. I will be out of town from 8/14 until 9/2 between two client trips. First to Pasadena, home for two days, then off to New Jersey for nine. That screws up my plans for packing. Of course I yelled about this too because I am now feeling like all of the packing is going to fall on me.

I don't know what I am going to do right now. I need to sell the motorcycle. If I can sell the bike in the next two weeks that will help ease the burden. If not, we will have a dollar to our name when this is all over. I have worked so hard this last year to put aside money, to pay off bills, and now to have it all taken away because of something that should have been fixed a year ago is upsetting. I am still pissed off but what can I do. I can't yell anymore that's not productive. We did end up sending a fourth fax to Equifax last night. Let's see what comes of that.

Finally with all of this, my ear is killing me. I can't hear out of my right ear and it's sending shooting pains down my jaw. So much fun.

My biggest challenge is trying to figure out the best way to put yesterday behind us and move forward. Plus figure out where I am going to come up with the extra $2000 I wasn't planning on for this move.

Fuck.