Y9 D355

My frustration with noise hit a whole new level yesterday morning. I ended up going to home depot at 6:30 and buying wall insulation foam panels and lined the window frame with them. I took the noise level from 52db down to 31db. While I reduced the noise level, I increased the heat. So now I am sweltering during recording sessions and have to break after a good run and go into the other room. But I did manage to get the base tracks done on 7 out of 11 modules. Today's goal is to get all of the remaining slide audio down leaving me just the demos for tomorrow and Friday. I think I can do it. I am slowly starting to come out of whatever cycle I was in. Not fully mind you, but I can feel it ebbing the other direction.

B is starting to feel better. We didn't hear back from anyone on the results of her chest x-rays because that would just be logical. Her appetite is returning as well. These are good signs. She has no voice and is still having trouble breathing though. Bad signs.

I really haven't done much this week except for work on these CBTs and take care of B. I did book a trip yesterday. Next week I have to go to San Antonio. Weds-Saturday. Not a horrible trip, but not fun either. Mid-week trips are always off-putting to me. But I can use the miles and hotel stay for sure.

Did laundry yesterday. First time in a while. Downside of it being hot and me not doing anything substantial has been a complete lack of wanting to wear clothes. I have worn the same t-shirt and shorts all week. But with having to book a trip I needed work clothes which meant laundry needed to get done.

Plus we had a real dinner for the first time in days. I think these small things are helping my overall mood. People without depression or BPD symptoms sometimes don't understand the importance of routine in keeping people steady. Having a regular set of things to do keeps you grounded focused. Disruption to things can cause big issues.

That's it. That's like the most I have written in days. The fog is starting to life. I can feel it.