Y11 D254

You ever make the mistake as you're falling asleep of recounting every mistake you've ever made in your life trying to track it back to the exact point where things really went wrong? Where if you had done this one thing different how much it might have changed the course of everything else to come?No? That's just me? Okay. Because that's what I did last night when I was trying to fall asleep. Went back and back. It all comes down to when I was 16. I made one crucial decision that I think could have made things very different today. Meh. It is what it is. The sad part is you're supposed to learn from your decisions and mistakes but by the time you finally do truly grasp the life lesson's, it's way too late. There's literally nothing you can do to change things, nothing you can do to right any wrongs. You move forward and hope to be a better person, living with the consequences of decades of actions. We always realize things too little too late. Youth is wasted on the young never meant more to me than it does right now.

Slept hard. Had long weird dreams. One about getting in trouble at work (not my current work) but it turns out the person accusing me of doing something confused me with someone else of the same name. What a relief. For once I wasn't the screw up. Then Bruce Campbell was there. That was just weird. He was my boss. Yeah. I know. Also we had a water park at this company. I told you, weird.

Spent the day recording. Got 60% through one of two immediate classes. I may be going to PA next week. I will know more today. Realistically it will be the week of the 24th but either way, out of the house. YAY! It's a full five day session too which means I will be gone for 7 days, 6 hotel days. PA isn't huge for mileage but I will rack up hotel and be out of the house. That's the important part. One trip a month. It's really all I ask. One trip with at least 3-4 hotel days and 5,000 miles. That keeps all my statuses for yet another year, gives me ample time at home, and sates my wanderlust. Not asking for month, now am I?

Made chicken for dinner, watched some TV, went to bed. Pretty much rinse and repeat today.