Y11 D315

The whole mask thing is sending me into a depression. I went out thrice yesterday. First time was to the grocery store at 7am right when they opened. Got some stuff we needed and was saddened to see the state of many of the shelves. I was happy to see some shelves fully stocked, but others were scary bare. Still. But it was the mask thing that got me. The majority of people, especially employees, were wearing them. I think those that weren't fall into one of two categories. Either they were people like me who simply didn't have any (yet), or they were followers of the orange one who says that he won't do it. That just depresses me more because what kind of leadership is that? Acting like you're above the needs of the people you're supposed to represent. That feeling got worse when I started reading later of where aid has been going. 17% to FL, 2% to ME. One day of supplies to CO. I mean come on. You overgrown twat. Everyone thought people like us were exaggerating 4 years ago when we said this idiot will kill people. Well, here you go. Took longer than we thought, but here it is. Walking death. Then I started reading about the flu pandemic of 1918 and how it lasted until mid 1920. Then I saw the unemployment numbers. Informtion overload sent me into a spiral.

The second outing was to the fish store to get some amoonia test strips. Unfortunately they have changed their hours and they were closed. I had to go back out a third time when they were open. That's when I realized that in three weeks I have gone exactly three places - 2 grocery stores and Petsmart. That's it. That's the extent of my world.

Add to that B and her sister spending the day sewing and making masks. It was like being in some weird war effort movie. It's really fucking with my head. I did get some new fish for the tank in my office:

I know it's dumb. But like I told the guy at the store, it's a distraction that's keeping me sane. I need all the help I can get right now. And if spending $30 is what it takes, then so be it.

I made ribs yesterday. Why so many ribs? The store had a special recently before all this shit happened of buy 1 get 1 free. I ended up with four packs of ribs. Now's the time to eat them I guess. Easy to cook, good for leftovers. So why not. Didn't do much else yesterday. Cleaned the house. Made crepes for dessert. Helped with the masks where I could.

Next week is full for me. As is the week after. From there, who knows what the future holds.