Y12 D365

I miss things.

I miss my kid.
I miss drinking.
I miss smoking.
I miss hopping on a train and going downtown.
I miss the smell of a theater on a hot Saturday night.
I miss the lights all shining on me.
I miss sitting on a pier watching the waves roll in.
I miss going to a place where everyone knew my name.
I miss going to places where I knew I was being mocked, but it still felt like home.
I miss Friday nights when an impromptu party happens and everyone falls asleep in a giant puddle.
I miss sushi.
I miss going to a sushi place where I can say omakase and they know what to bring me.
I miss hanging out at a friend's place and laughing the night away.
I miss laughter.
I miss drugs.
I miss walking downtown and popping into shops saying hello to everyone I know.
I miss sitting outside on a patio having a bottle of wine and Italian food.
I miss watching the sun go down.
I miss watching the sun go down into the ocean as the bonfire grows.
I miss walking around downtown with no destination in mind.
I miss riding my motorcycle at 4am with no one else around.
I miss 4am pie runs.
I miss game nights that end up going until 2am.
I miss heading to the lodge and getting in a quick 9 holes.
I miss Wednesday night dinners for $4 followed by poker.
I miss going into places and having them pour my drink as I walk in.
I miss the wide eyed excitement of people who've never seen RHPS.
I miss dressing up.
I miss dressing down.
I miss meals with multiple courses.
I miss cigars on the patio.
I miss everything being in walking distance.
I miss the smell of the night.
I miss the smell of the ocean.
I miss the smell and sounds of an airport at 5am.
I miss Disneyland.
I miss lobster nachos.
I miss pin trading.
I miss mad tea party.
I miss afternoon tea.
I miss going to a goth club at 10pm on a Monday and people watching.
I miss burlesque shows on a random night.
I miss leaving at midnight to be the first in the park.
I miss having people randomly wanting to get together.
I miss wandering around a giant bookstore for hours.
I miss baking at 2am for people still in my living room.
I miss cleaning a theater when the show is over.
I miss the hugs and laughter on a Saturday night.

I miss having choices.

I miss having friends.

I miss me.