Y12 D66

Okay, a lot to cover this morning. Let's start with some karmic retribution. So, did you see who died yesterday? Herman Cain. You know, former neurosurgeon turned Godfather's Pizza CEO turned presidential candidate turned crazy boy turned cheeto boot licker. How did he die you ask? He got the 'Rona. Oh no, and where did he catch the evil 'rona?? Best estimate puts it it somewhere in OK. At a rally. Where he Wore. No. Mask. Look, I know it's not cool to revel in the death of someone. I also feel bad for his staff or anyone who without choice came into contact with him, but there is something satisfying about these anti-masker idiots getting a taste of their own. Especially now that the cheeto is saying shit like delay the election. You know, straight up dictator facist bullshit. Still think Hillary would have been as bad? Still think Biden is as bad? No you stupid fuckers. They aren't. Period. End of discussion. Grow the fuck up.

In other news, we have a friend going through the same issue X2 went through. They found a 7cm cyst on her ovary. Luckily they caught it early and while she may lose the one ovary, she won't lose anything else. The importance of regular medical exams people. It's put her under a great deal of stress so B is going to spend the next couple of days spending the days with her to make sure she doesn't do anything stupid. It's a big deal and I don't wish that on anyone.

Speaking of medical exams, I had one yesterday. Sort of. Had my ears checked because of Tuesday's insane tinnitus outbreak. I went to a place recommeded by the American Tinnitus Association. They did a full hearing test first, checked for lumps in the canal, etc. Good news, while I have hearing loss, it's nothing outside the norm for someone my age and experience of ear abuse. No other word for it. Too many years of rock concerts and headphones. While my hearing could be better, I am not in any danger or having any issues. So that leaves us with how to manage the tinnitus. Unfortunately not a whole hell of a lot has changed on that front. They were able to offer me counseling, management, etc. Basically all the things I do right now. There was some good news. If I am willing to invest, there are newer hearing aids which generate a pink noise to help create a background noise to reduce how much of the ringing you hear. It would also help with the high end hearing loss I have. Except that's not a cheap option. We're looking at $3500 a pair. I will say they are extremely small and barely noticeable but I don't know if I am ready to go down that path yet. It's a huge investment. It wouldn't be a bad thing, but not sure it's the right thing right now. I am still pondering it.

In additon to all that, I finished the second set of workbooks I was building and can now turn my attention to creating of a new class based on the work I did this week. That's today's project. Next week I have 4 out 5 days with full classes which is nice. Just need to get through today, enjoy my weekend, and have a nice training week.

On the workfront, I also ordered two new books which I will be leveraging for this new class. Some good reference materials. Plus a new UPS to keep the internet on in case of a power outage. It's a small one but it will give me 45-55 minutes of internet if something goes wrong.

Made salmon for myself for dinner. B is having a food aversion week where nothing looks good to her. I have come to accept this and not try to force her to eat just because. It sucks making two different meals or adjusting sizes, but it's not that big of a deal. It is what it is.

Went to bed around 10:30 and managed to get some good sleep. My ears have been silent for over 24 hours now which is wonderful. This is also why I hesitate on buying the aids. On tuesday I would have given you any amount of money to make it stop. But the last two days have been good. Thank goodness.

Okay, let's go see what kind of shit the world is in today.

Y12 D65

Sorry blogger, I won't use your shiny new interface. I like the stupid old one. Why do these companies, including my own, feel the need to change things that work perfectly fine?? Tumblr fucking changed their layout recently and now everything is broken. I know why - Marketing people. Go fuck yourselves. Go on. We'll wait.

Spent all day working on the same project. Got a lot accomplished and actually learned a few things. Frustrated a bit at some of it, but did learn some stuff. I still stand by my thoughts that this product was built by and for programmers. It's non-intuitive, it requires a lot of custom coding, and it's clunky AF. But "it's the future!". Yeah yeah, okay.

Made burgers for dinner. Sat outside with B for a while and actually had time to talk. Nothing serious, just enjoyed each other's company. I then helped her with a blanket project. We had good quality time for the first time in a while.

Went to bed around 11:30. Today I will finish yesterday's stuff, then move on to making it into a new class. Have an ear appointment at 2:30. Let's see what that accomplishes.

Y12 D64

I had a really bad tinnitus day yesterday. From the minute I got up and I went to bed, my left ear was screaming. It seems to have calmed down now, but it was so bad that I made an appointment at an ear specialist tomorrow. I want to see what's new in management of tinnitus since unfortunately there's no cure. All you can do is manage it, distract yourself from it, ignore it. But when it was bad like yesterday, forget it. I was so cranky and grumpy in the morning as a result.

Worked all day on some new material. Laying the groundowrk for a new class. Same today. I also did my webinar which went well. 600 signed up, nearly 200 showed. That's a great turnout. Plus my attentiveness numbers were really high the entire hour. Good stats for one of these things.

Had leftover pizza for dinner. I have fallen off the meal prep wagin because I am getting tired of cooking. Need to focus on some meal prep to make sure I don't eat junk every night.

Not much else going on.

Y12 D63

I had another adventurous dream last night but this one slipped away too quick for me to remember the details. But I know it was something cool and I was enjoying my dream. Ugh I hate that.

I was right about yesterday. We ended up finishing 2 hours early. I had some material up my sleeve in case they weren't prepared, but it wasn't enough. I agreed to let them bank 3 hours for future questions. Hey, I'm nice that way.

We ordered pizza for dinner because neither of us felt like cooking. B did some work too which is good. She needs the money to boost her account back up.

Now for the rest of the week not much going on. I have a webinar today, but that's about it. Next week I have 3 solid days of classes. Is it next week yet?

Y12 D62

I had like the most fucked up weird ass dream last night. I killed these two guys at this redneck bar in the middle of nowhere. It was John Wick kind of kill too. Then I played it off like it was self defense because they were known troublemakers. But then I went all on the run and was having this weird adventure where I was like sneaking through office buildings and stealing ID cards and wallets. Then I am in this convenience store buying a bottle of water and end up on the campus of this school where I am in the cafeteria in the middle of lunch. One of those dreams where I fully remember the details upon waking. Freaky stuff. There was more and it's starting to get fuzzy, but it was a movie and a half in my head last night.

B came home last night around 8. Got her unpacked and settled in. I had spent the day not doing much. I wanted the house to stay clean so I kept my actions to a minimum. Watched TV, played video games. That was the extent of my movement. Made swordfish with a mango pineapple salsa and rice for dinner.

Oh look, it's 7/27. I hope someone is enjoying their birthday today. Knowing them they are on a private jet to their private island to be pampered all day. Have fun with that. I know that sounds snarky and petty, but hey, it is what it is. I still do carry anger and resentment. Won't lie or act high and mighty about it. It just is.

Have a possible full day of class today. It's one of those 1/2 day scripted, 1/2 day "mentoring" bullshit things. Which means the second half of the day will either be obtuse questions or nothing at all. Hey at least it goes down on my timesheet as 8 hours of billable work. Make everyone happy.

Y12 D61

I am so tired of the same images popping up on my screen day after day. Not tired in a stop showing me this, but tired in a I can't believe this is happening. People being dragged off the streets in Portland. Cops in riot gear. People without masks on the beach. Death. Murder. Mayhem. It's overwhelming me. I remember a time when things were a lot more fun around here. Before everything got so... fuzzy. The world sucks. This piece of shit cannot win another 4 years. It just can't.

I did quite a bit yesterday. Cleaned the house. Did laundry. Changed the sheets. Baked a cake. Lo, what a cake it is. A banana split cake. Behold:

Layer 1: Yellow cake mixed turned into banana cake and enhanced
Layer 2: Mashmallow fluff
Layer 3: Strawberry ice cream topping
Layer 4: Crushed pineapple mixed with vanilla instant pudding mix
Layer 5: Extra creamy cool whip
Toppings: Caramel sauce, sprinkles, cherries

I had a piece for dessert and damn damn damn it was good. Not as crazy sweet as you might imaging either. That was a fun project that killed some time.

For dinner I made lamb burger with a homemade modified tzatziki sauce. Had some fries with the same sauce covering. I ate well yesterday humans.

I went outside at one point to grab the mail and noticed a spider colony had turned my front bushes into a horror movie. Nope nope nope. Took the hose to those suckers right away.

The weather has been relatively mild and today is supposed to be a little cooler with rain showers from 1pm - 8pm. That will be nice. It's also supposed to only be mid-70s this week. I can handle that. Meh, it's not like I am leaving the house to experience it anyway. Safe inside my hold I be.

I am tired of the cats. I had a rough sleep because they wouldn't leave me alone. I woke up with one on me, and one on either side of me. It's like really? I did tell B that I have to go next. Alone time and away time are different things. I need away from here for a while. I might just take a road trip to OH. Go to a Raising Canes and bring food back home. Just something to be out of the house for more than 30 minutes. We shall see. She is supposed to come home today. I have no plans regardless. Watch some TV and relax sounds good.

Y12 D60

Let's talk about something for a moment, shall we? I was reading last night how the cop who killed George Floyd was busted yesterday for not reporting nearly 500,000 in income on his taxes and now owes 21,000 to the IRS. Derek Chauvin I believe is his name. The same guy who KILLED a man for passing a counterfeit $20 bill. Think about that for second. One man dies for a fake $20 and another walks the street for essentially committing a half million dollars in fraud. Why? Because we have this fucked up and distorted view of what's "crime" in this country. If it's crime against "the man", aka the gubment, then it's okay. White collar bullshit like fudging your taxes isn't only ignored, it's expected. Everyone is expected to bump their deductions a little, forget about that one savings account. Those things are okay. If you're an upper middle class+ white person. Oops. Almost forgot that last part about being a WHITE PERSON. And it's "only a crime if they catch you ha ha". How many of these so called good people are out there every day funneling money from one account to another? If the crime happens on a computer or behidn closed doors, is it really a crime they say? But lord help us a black man, a poor man, a struggling man, steals a loaf of bread to feed their family and the next thing you know there's a knee on their neck and they can't breathe. Or maybe there's a nice group of moms out protesting that knee. Well we can't have that. Round them up! Throw them into unmarked vans and shoot tear gas in their face! Then let's show it at a white house press briefing and act like it's all good.

Welcome to the fucked up world you all created. Dystopia 101. I don't want a basement anymore. I want a bunker.

In other news, my sister's FIL passed away. Kind of sucks. But he was older, in pain, and already suffering so they were prepped for it. Unfortunately they also lost one of their dogs unexpectedly. That part sucks. I knew this dog and it was good dog.

My buddy's dog is also sick. Was just diagnosed with lymphoma and starts chemo on Monday.

Doggos don't deserve shit like this. Assholes mentioned above deserve this but they just get a slap on the wrist. I should mention, he's not going to jail for owing that money. Nope. Set up a payment plan and send them $100 a month for the rest of your life. That'll do donkey.

Took my car in for service. Went to the grocery store. Did laundry. Worked on docs. Attended a 2 hour company meeting. Made torellini for dinner. Went to bed. My life in comparison is a nice boring borefest.

Whee.

Y12 D59

My buddy sent me pics yesterday of his chickens. Major fucking envy going on. They are the most beautiful things ever. I wish so bad we could have chickens here. Bees too. I would love to have a small hive and some stupid chickens running around. Instead I get 700 squirrels, chipmunks, possums, deer, rabbit, and groundhogs. None of whom will let me pet them. Bastards.

Another FULL day of recording. Started around 7 and didn't finish until 5. But I got it all done. Today I have nothing on my plate as a result. I have to take the car in this morning for service, and then a 3pm company meeting, but that's it. So worth the extra time I spent.

I didn't adult very well for dinner. I made myself peanut butter and strawberry crepes for dinner. But in my defense, I had to use the strawberries before they went bad. They were right on the cusp. Another day and I would have been feeding them to the animals.

Speaking of animals, I spent my evening doing B a favor and doing a water change on one of her tanks and caring for her creepy fish. Excuse me, creepy amphibians. That took a chunk of my night. Next thing I know, it's 9:40 and I have to get ready for bed. Whee.

Off to the car dealer. Then maybe a nap dammit.

Y12 D58

Spent the whole day recording yesterday. Didn't finish until well after 3pm. Which means not much going on. I spent the day from 5:30am until 3pm sitting here in my office. When that's your whole day, not much to tell is there? When I finally finished and went upstairs, it was time for dinner. I made a shrimp pasta primevera with some gnocchi we had in the house. Watched a little tv, played some video games, fed the creepy fish, went to bed.

Some things of note:

- talked with a friend of mine who is in a dangerous place right now. I worry for him being around that craziness

- made myself nostalgic by looking through some old pictures. Pics of me and above friend from 17 years ago. I still had hair. Sigh.

- looked at pics of when the kid was like 5 or 6. She's so tiny. My god, when did I get so old and she grow up so fast?

- Got some packages in the mail yesterday. Getting a little tired of everyone's shipping being behind. I still have like six more things floating out there. I blame both the manufacturers and the shipping folks. I know they're all overwhelmed but come on, there's people out of work who could help out. I know, I know. Hypocrite alert. I am not saying put them in danger. Sigh. I can just be patient. Be healthy. Be patient.

More recording today. Another all day project too.

Y12 D57

Stayed up too late last night. I had to wait for B to message me. We were talking last night about making sure she got enough cabin time in case things go on stricter lockdown, if there are problems, etc. At the end of the conversation we decided she would go up today and stay through the weekend. But then she says, well technically what's stopping me from going tonight? Um, nothing? She was right. There was nothing stopping her. At 7pm she headed out. She got there around 11:15pm. This way she has all day today, tomorrow, Friday, and she is going to come home Saturday midday. A little break for both of us. Hey, don't get me wrong, I miss her, but please you ALL know that right now, being in the house for another day with your spouse and kids and whatnot is getting to you. If you had somewhere you could go or send them for a couple of days you would. I don't feel like as humans we were supposed to have THIS much human contact. People need a break from it. Especially those with kids. I was talking to two of my co-workers yesterday both of whom have kids and one was dealing with Boy Scout issues and the other has a very inquistive hyper 8 year old who has decided to learn Microsoft Office. Both of them could use a few days at a cabin alone right now. Honestly I am not judging or picking on B at all for doing this. We both need a break.

Also I am recording right now. I have two classes to get done by Friday and two youtube videos. Each class has two sections, slides and demos. I got the slides done for class 1 yesterday and want to crank through the demos this morning. Then do the slides for class 2 and youtube video 1. That's my goal for today and it's a lot. I need to focus. Less distraction the better.

With that said, let's get to it, shall we?