Scream
I have said silence a couple days this week when in fact the minute I hit the road it turned into screaming. From the pressure in the car driving to work. I'm fine until about 30 minutes into the drive and then it slowly starts pressurizing and boom. Screaming. I have tried cracking a window. I have tried driving in silence. Nothing has helped. It's the change in climate, the road noise, the stress of going into the office. Today I woke up with it so fuck me.
I reconnected with an old friend yesterday on linkedin. I haven't replied to his message yet, not because I don't want to, more out of making sure I had the time to reply with more than a sentence or two. I don't know what prompted me to reach out in the first place. Maybe me feeling lost lately. I don't know. I need to process a bit.
I got into it with my new boss a bit yesterday. I was crankier towards hom than I should have been. I have to be in the office Thurs and Fri next week because of some vendor all day training. Something that very easily could be done remotely. This drive is pissing me off and he was unhappy when I said I would WFH on Monday then. He didn't like I was changing my days again. I asked him why did it even matter? "Company policy blah blah blah". Fuck that. 90% of my damn job can be done remotely. I need to be in the office like 2 days a MONTH not 3 a week. I snapped at him a bit about it. But I am WFH from Monday whether people like it or not.
Need to take dog out. Need to pay bills. Need to wait for plumber. Someday I will get a break. Not today.
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