Y2 D345

This year's journal started with some insanity, only fitting it winds down with some too. Now that I am sober, let's recap the last two days, shall we?

Wednesday:
The morning started off like hell. I was sitting and waiting for the call to come from the new company. It was driving me nuts. The fun started when I read an article in one of my feeds about how HP is building a new facility. This is to host the employees from some of the new companies it recently purchased. One of which was X2's company. No more than an hour later, I get my linkedin update for the day - oh look X2 has a new job. Yes, we are still connected on there, no I don't know why other than I don't have the balls to disconnect. There, happy, I said it? I don't have the balls. No other excuse than that. Turns out she has had a new job for a year according to her profile. Boy that made me feel like shit. Here she is completely moved on; new state, new job, new life and I am still spinning my wheels. Not getting the phone call wasn't helping. This sent me into a funk and a spiral. Why can't I move forward? Why can't I let the past go? How is it she can just move on and never look back? That lasted most of the day. The recruiter called or emailed me multiple times too asking if I had heard anything. Nope and please stop rubbing it in. During the day I did my normal work for the new client and tried to keep my sanity. Went home still on pins and needles and feeling like a failure. At 4:55pm the call comes through. After three minutes of explaining what he can do, my new boss makes me the revised verbal offer. Score! I got what I wanted salary, bonus, and options at levels that work for me. I then sent an email to my bosses telling me I was accepting a new offer and to please call me ASAP. At that point, I called some friends and headed to the bar. There's where things get um, fuzzy? I drank way too much but didn't spend too much. My friend picked up almost all of the bill which was really nice. I ended up spending some, but not as much as I normally would have in this situation. I was blind ass drunk too. Didn't matter. I was happy. The thing that got me? No phone call, no email, no nothing from my current bosses. THIS is one of the reasons I am leaving the company.

Thursday:
Woke up feeling like death warmed over and had less than an hour to clean up, sober up, and get into the office. Still nothing from my bosses. At 8:30 I couldn't take it any more and called them. What a bunch of dickheads. After PTO payout, I owe them money for the monthly draws. My expectation was to work until the 15th as a normal employee, then work part time as a contractor to pay off any outstanding. They want to hold my whole check. Which means I keep working and get nothing. Um, fuck you? Why should I give you two weeks then? If that's how we're going to play this, then I should walk right now. After six years of knowing each other, this is how it goes down? I sent them off a proposed solution that benefits BOTH sides which allows me to still get paid on the 14th and for them to have their money in no more than 3 or 4 weeks of side work. I have yet to hear back from them on this. If I don't hear back before monday, I honestly don't know if I am going to bother going into the office. Again, if they are planning on holding my check, why should I? I can just start the new job early and start getting paid there. Let's see what happens today on that front. Came home last night and cleaned the house. I may have a house guest for a while. N needs a place to stay and we talked through an arrangement which could benefit both of us, especially if I don't get paid next week. I also confirmed with my new boss, my pay days will be the 1st and 15th and there is no delay on first check. I will get a check on the 1st. Don't know how much, but I will get a check. I may have to move some payments around and deal with stuff, but I will have money. Watched TV and went to bed at a nice sane time. Have a birthday party to attend tonight. Going to be good for multiple reasons, least of which is I have a show Saturday and don't need to go nuts multiple days in a row.

That's it. Up and down. High and low. Story of my life.