Y4 D172

Yesterday was interesting. Even though I had a great time Friday and Saturday, I felt very disconnected from everything yesterday. We woke up at 7:30 yesterday morning and proceeded to pack and leave my friend's house. We were in the car by 8:15 and I was home by 9. I showered, cleaned up, unpacked, and then went to Target to get some things for the house and to get a gift for the baby shower I was attending later in the day. By the time I had run all my errands and got home it was about 11:30. This gave me two hours to cook a lasagne before leaving for the shower. No problem. I finished at 1:20. Perfect. The kid came home from work just as I was leaving for the shower. She decided not to go because she had done three late workshifts in a row and then yesterday morning. Plus her thing was coming over later in the night to make sushi. Whatever. I am so done with their 'relationship'. It is holding her back and I am about ready to pop that fucking kid in the face (him not her) but I am not saying anything until she knows if she has been accepted to the Disney program or not. She just got another email saying she is still pending. They will make a final decision by 12/14. It can't come soon enough in my mind.

I left and headed over to the party. There were about 15 people but I just wasn't there all the way. I was kind of on the sidelines. I knew I didn't want to drink because I have things to do today. I wanted to be out of there at a decent time and I managed to achieve that goal. But the whole time I was there I was just not there. I went through the motions and smiled and was nice but deep down it was more whatever.

Left around 5:30 and was home by six. The kid was making sushi as promised. I sat and read a book for a little while then played Diablo until about 8:45. Went to bed at nine. I was that tired and just done with everything. Slept well though at least.

Now I have to prep for a week long training class. This week I am training from 6-2 every day. That means up at 4:30 every day. Fun stuff.