Most people can't handle being on the road like I am because they can't deal with the loneliness of it. You have to be okay with being alone. I mean like really alone. Once the work day is done you are on your own. Dinner by yourself. Hotel room by yourself. It's a lot of silence and introspective moments. This is too frightening and depressing for most people. I have come to accept it. I don't always like it, like last night, but I know how to deal with it.
Case in point, spent the day teaching yesterday and finished up around 4. Got back to the hotel at 4:30, ironed, then decided to walk around out of sheer boredom. I didn't want to go to a restaurant and eat another meal by myself, and ended up walking around the mall that is near by for a little while. Decided to eat at Noodles again and this time it was better. I got the pan friend noodles to go and headed back to the hotel. All around me I saw people out shopping and having holiday gatherings which made me feel even more isolated but I get there's nothing that can be done about it. It's part of the job.
Came back to the room, ate, and fell asleep watching tv on the laptop. I had some major bowel problems yesterday which wasn't helping my mood out. I spent way too long in the bathroom too many times last night. Other than some texts I didn't even get a chance to talk to B. She worked a long day and I have a feeling she fell asleep herself. One more day and I can be home for a while. I can get through this. Today is by the book in class versus the freeform mentoring we did the last two days which will make the day go by at a decent pace. I also have a conference call at lunch which should be interesting. I will describe that tomorrow depending on how it goes.
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