Y7 D190

Yesterday was a really shitty day. I am still not over my sadness and anger from yesterday either. I don't expect today to be much better.

First off my class was awful. One guy was 30 minutes late, then he disrupted everyone for 15 minutes so he could be caught up on everything he missed. We got past that and then while I was working I get a hangout from B. While cleaning she broke one of my Disney statues. One that is retired and no longer available. One that they only ever produced 250 units. She broke the ear off my large Oswald statue. She then tried to unsuccessfully glue it which just made a mess and stained the resin. Needless to say I was not very happy. I tried not getting mad, but that didn't work. Of course this sent her into anger and then sadness. But the worst part is how I felt about it. I feel stupid for having these things. Why does a grown man even have this crap? I could be in a house right now if I hadn't wasted money on most of the crap I am surrounded by every day. I stare at these pin boards and wonder how much that would bring in towards debt and the future if I were to sell them tomorrow. She thinks I am mad about the statue but it's more that I am depressed about how useless I am.

This obviously put a damper on the whole day. I am still not feeling any better. I don't feel much like writing let alone do another day of training. Time to put on my mask and make sure it doesn't slip.