I tried so hard yesterday to not spiral. I really did. I managed to go until 8pm at which point all the thoughts in my head attacked and shut me down. I kept up a good game face throughout the day but just sitting did me in. I lost it. I don't know why. I just couldn't stop thinking about everything and anything and it was too much.
I went out early and did some grocery shopping. That was okay as it was still early and the store was dead. B woke up around 8 and we both ended up falling back to sleep. We were on the couch and she was half awake so I said come on, let's go back to bed. We did. Until almost 11. We then tried to go to Costco which was a huge mistake. She needed Allegra and they can't be beat on their per pill price. I did the math and it was a $60-$75 savings over buying it anywhere else. Unfortunately it was so crowded there wasn't even parking in the overflow lot. We ran a couple of other errands instead. Came back home, relaxed and cleaned. Her great grandmother's birthday was yesterday (96!) and we did a video call with them to be part of the dinner. After we tried to go to Costco again. Much better this time. We managed to get in and out.
Mae chicken stir fry for dinner and then caught up on ALL our TV. I am pretty pissed off at how Agent Carter ended. Tuesday can't get here quick enough. When that was all done that's when I broke. Nothing to distract me but my own head. Yeah. Whee. I ended up going to bed around 10 because I was just done.
Today is laundry day. Maybe I will be able to keep it together. Maybe.
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