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I remembered something last night as I was getting into bed. I remembered when I was a kid I used to be freaked out by all the noises of the night. I didn't know what they were and they would scare the shit out of me. I thought things were coming to get me. I would put pillows or my arm or whatever over my ears to block out the sounds of the night. I had a scarred childhood. Maybe this is what created my need to be in control and know what every thing is even if it doesn't pertain to me. Now I sleep with a noise machine and blackout curtains. Interesting.

I also remembered it was X2's birthday. Whatever. She probably is spending it in "the keys". Hey, at least I don't have a teenager in the house. Small victories.

The big news from yesterday is B and her mental breakdown. I knew that over time something would happen - she would drift further from the people in that area until they were something she couldn't be around any more. It happened yesterday. Staying at her mother's house is not a wise idea. 2 adults, 2 children in a 3 bedroom place about the same size as our 2 bedroom apartment and then add B into the mix. Her mother's no teeth typical white midwestern blue collar male is staying there right now as he is out of work and home all day. But just because he's home all day, don't think he can watch the girls. Nope, that's not happening. Noise. Dirty environment. No space. She had panic attack after panic attack. She had no car. No place to decompress. Finally she got a hold of her grandmother and borrowed their truck and is spending at least last night there. She tried calling me around 8pm last night to talk and I had dozed off on the couch because of the heat. That was a bad idea apparently. She lost her shit. She 'knew' I was dead and sent messages on all social media to figure out where I was, called me, called me, called me. 18 minutes. That's all I was out of touch. But because I don't keep my phone attached to my hand like her, she freaked out. We ended up talking for an hour and she calmed down, but let me tell, that was some rough shit. No more going to MI without a hotel room and a rental car. No arguments.

As for me, I taught my class yesterday, finished around 2:45, went to the butcher where I got a rabbit and a steak, and that was about it. It's been hot here but yesterday it cooled down a bit that I left all the windows open versus air. That's why I dozed off on the couch. It was warm and quiet and bye bye. I was out maybe 30 minutes or as I now call it, long enough to drive your wife nuts.

Day three of class. Then I am probably going downtown for dinner. By myself. Joy.