Y4 D231

Boring day yesterday. Actually got some new work. I did all the review and prep for it yesterday and will be starting on it today. Some real work. Should take me through today and tomorrow. I am waiting for confirmation also on a PA project. Things are starting to ramp up again. Yay. But that's about it. Kid worked from 5-10. I started my new puzzle last night. Man this thing is huge. 2000 pieces. Twice the size of the last puzzle. It's 30x40 too. It's a damn big puzzle. But watch, I will have it done by Monday. Especially since I have zero plans for this weekend. Need to stay in and hide.

Y4 D230

I am a little hungover this morning, which for a Wednesday morning isn't the best thing, but it was worth it. I let loose a bit and it was needed. I also met the future last night and it wasn't really so bad. It was honestly like a rip in time opened and I saw myself in 40 years. Here's how everything went down...

I was working on docs and classes yesterday for the most part during the day. Nothing exciting but it was work. Around 2 KBF comes over. I really don't like them together. Sorry, but I don't. She acts like a total fucking idiot around him. She forgets to be herself and it's annoying. Around 4 I decide I want to run over to the toy store to pick up puzzle glue and another puzzle. They come with me. I just couldn't take it. They were driving me nuts. We get back ad she starts asking me if I making dinner. It's like what the fuck, I have to feed him AGAIN? Ever since they have been back together I am feeding this kid. Doesn't he have his own place? Plus it was 4:30 and way too early for dinner. She wasn't even hungry. She wanted food for him. I was like no, I don't. Eat fucking leftovers. She gets pissed at me and tells me I am being a jerk. Whatever. Then they go off into the bedroom and that's when I just say fuck it and decided to go out. I went down to the local pub where I have been going lately. I actually enjoy going there because it really is a pub. Food, big tables, fireplaces, people bringing their kids in, etc. It works for me. When I get there last night there are three other guys in the place. Two at the bar and one at a table. I sit at the bar and we all are chatting with the bartender and one guy who I thought was in his late 60s starts chatting with me. Turns out he is 83. Native. Married three times, the last for 37 years to a Playboy bunny. Married when he was about 40-41. He owned companies, had money, lost money, very smart - two masters degrees including one in chemistry -, and just fun to be around. He was starting to get to me after his fourth or fifth beer, but mostly because he started to repeat himself. I don't think he is used to someone talking to him as long as I did. I found him downright fascinating because I seriously saw the future in him. A nice guy, enjoying himself, a little lonely, but harmless. Heck he even was hitting on some 50 year old. I was like damn, look at him go after the 'young girls'. Still smoked, still drank, still had spirit. I HOPE I can be like this guy in 40 years.

I came home around 8 or 8:30 and they were gone. Good. They had gone out for Indian food. I was feeling more relaxed at this point aka intoxicated. Not seriously though. I only had three drinks at the bar but I was definitely less cranky than earlier. I decided to drink two little bottles of champagne I had in the fridge when I got home. That's where the hangover is coming from for sure. I ignored them for the rest of the night as they were off in the bedroom again. I messed around on the computer for a while and then went to bed.

I did learn one thing that may be interesting in the next few months. It seems KBF's company is moving and it would be in his best interest to get an apartment near where they will be moving as it's over a bridge. If that's the case, I have a feeling the kid will start spending more time there which means I get my house back. It could be interesting shortly.

Y4 D229

Got up late this morning. I guess my body wanted sleep. I have always noticed that I am very good at waking up early if I need to but if there is nothing pressing, I could sleep all day. Worked on some training docs yesterday. Made dinner for the kid. KBF came over but then he had to leave because apparently he forgot an obligation for his sister. We watched Once and then went off into our separate caves. I did do one thing fun yesterday. I made these stuffed oreo cookie things. An oreo with a reeses in between dipped in chocolate. Horribly good and horribly fattening. But fun to make. I also bought some other groceries so there is food in the house. The kid doesn't go back to school until next week and I needed to make sure there was enough food in the house.

Another boring day.

I did get into a bit of a flame war on Facebook. It reminded me why I stop posting on there. One of my friends posted a pic of her pin board and I reciprocated with a pic of mine. This led my director to post a picture of an empty cork board with a piece of paper on it saying 'Disney Sucks'. Well excuse me. Sorry that we like something you don't. I know the intent was to be humorous but it got under my skin. It's okay for them to not like and criticize something but don't dare make fun of anything they like. God no. That would start world war three. I tried to make a funny comment that said this, but it didn't come out right. In the end I just ended up deleting everything again. It's easier that way. I will stick to tumblr and other sites where people are more accepting.

I do need to start going out and doing things. I am tired of being in the house.

Y4 D228

I had an okay day yesterday. Nothing of any real issue. I got up, I did shit on the computer, I waited for the idiot and her idiot to get out of bed. I made pancakes, idiot went to work, I cleaned a little, watched some Batman the Animated Series, made a steak for dinner, went to bed. My entire day in three lines. Wow. Sad.

Y4 D227

I had the most interesting revelation in my dream last night. I was with a group of people all supposedly work colleagues which isn't true, but in my dream they were supposed to be. And one of them told me that my management style was influenced by the fact that my first time as a manager was with people who were hourly employees who needed the firmer hand of someone in an authoritative role rather than a guiding or mentoring role and that it has stayed with me all the years without evolving as the people I have had to lead have evolved.

Whoa.

Deep shit subconscious. Not even sure where that came from or why. But there's definite truth to it as I ponder it. Got up yesterday to a still throbbing ear. It's a little better now but not 100%. Finished my damn puzzle! Woot! Now today I need to go get some puzzle glue and finish it up. I am actually going to keep this one and frame it. I bought it with the intent of doing just that and I was very picky about the one I picked for that reason. I knew I should have bought the glue when I bought the puzzle but oh well.

The kid had XBF, now BF, come over last night. Apparently they made up and are trying it again. Whatever. I wash my hands of the whole thing. I really do. She will get her heart broken again and I will pick up the pieces as is my fatherly duty but otherwise I am staying the fuck out. Not worth the headache.

I did learn that my little Disneyland girl just broke up with her boyfriend and will be in the park on the 19th at the same time I will be. Okay, this trip just got significantly better. Booyah. I need to order some pins before I go otherwise I won't have enough traders. I will do that either later today or tomorrow. The person I order from is really good and will easily have them here in time (crosses fingers).

Went to the show last night. Good show. Nothing of any major note. No issues, no drama. Everyone seemed to have a good time and we got out of there relatively early. Smaller audience than we hoped but hey it's the first weekend in January right after NYE parties and it was raining. Can't complain that we had as many as we did. I would say probably 150ish. We need at least 120 to cover our costs and 200 is optimal in size. We did okay given that.

Today I am staying inside and relaxing. Maybe a little house cleaning, maybe not. We shall see how my ear feels.

Y4 D226

I haz ear infection. Now I haz sad. My ear really hurts. I can't hear out of it and it's throbbing. Luckily I have some meds from the last time I had an ear infection. Couple of times per day and hopefully it will clear up by Monday.

Yesterday was what it was. I was very stressed out about the hit on my paycheck. Still am. Was pissed off at having to clean up my friend's puke. I don't mind cleaning up after myself, but someone else? Fuck that. I ended up having to wash a blanket, a sock, and the carpet four times to get it all out. I gave her an earful that's for sure.

Ran a couple of errands. Took the kid to the mall to get her check. Comic book store. Nothing exciting. Worked more on my damn puzzle. So close to finishing it. The kid went out about 8:30 to meet up with NBF and end it. I haven't talked to her yet so I don't know how it went. Should be an interesting conversation this morning.

Went to bed around 10:30. Show tonight. Whee.

Y4 D225

And this is why I don't go out any more on Thursday nights. Especially when I have to be somewhere at 8am on Friday morning. Daddy's head hurts. Or - not now dear Auntie Mame is hung... Either way, that's how I am feeling right now. Most people got drunk on NYE, not me, I wait until three three days later. Whee! Less cops! More booze! Ugh.

During the day I worked on some stuff for an upcoming class. Then I worked on my puzzle. I am almost done with that bastard. It should be finished today if I have my way. Made a nice BBQ pork roast for dinner. Then around 8:15 we went out to meet a friend. Both my friend and I agree the kid needs more options to really figure out what to do with NBF and XBF. She needs to basically play the field. At least see what's out there. We took her to a local pub and when we got there it was deader than dead. All of us were a bit disappointed until at 9:15 they start setting up.... KARAOKE. Yep. Next thing you know she is singing, we are drinking and having fun, and it's midnight. See we had a solid feeling that if we got her in there before 10 no one would card her later. We didn't let her drink, but they check IDs at the door after 10. If you're already in they don't really bother. That's why we got there at 8:30. I don't know if she had fun yet or not. Our friend is passed out on my couch with one sock and a puke bucket next to her. I know she had fun.

I had fun too. I talked to a couple of nice girls. Left one my number. Let's see if anything comes of that.

I just checked my bank account. My check went down $360. Fuck me. That's a huge hit. That's $700 a month. Fuck fuck fuck. Now I am stressed.

Y4 D224

I am completely and utterly stressed out right now. I had horrible dreams and slept like shit and on top of it I am stressed about how much my paycheck is going to be tomorrow. Between the 2% tax hike and social security kicking back in, I stand to lose between 300-500 a month. That's a huge part of my buffer right now. For the next 7-8 months I will be light and this is going to drive me up a wall. I have to be extremely careful. I will know around 3am when my direct deposit hits.

Yesterday itself was fine until the evening. I did some work during the day. Nothing exciting, but enough that I was able to work. I kept all day forgetting it was Wednesday. Hell, it's hard thinking of today as Thursday. Stupid middle of the week holidays. Bunch of bullshit if you ask me. The kid left here around 11:30 to meet a friend in the city and I picked her up around 5. It was on the way home she decided to ask me for advice about NBF. Turns out the little shit is a virgin and the kid doesn't feel that way enough about him to be the one to take his virginity. I basically had to tell her that I am the worst person to ask in this case because I am a whore. I told her to call one of our mutual friends who is closer to her age and has dealt more with this kind of thing. She came over around 9 and they had a long talk. I think the kid is feeling better which is good. One thing less to worry about. Of course now she is probably going to break up with NBF which means a month of moping and sadness around here. I want my alone time back some days. Yesterday was one of them.

Worked on my puzzle for a while as we ate dinner. Watched some Teen Titans. Nothing more. But I feel my head sliding back which isn't good. Especially since I have a show in two days. What fucking day is it?? Argh. I plan to go into hiding again. Only way to not spend money. I can hide in the house and be invisible.

Y4 D223

VERY tired this morning. I think whatever illness the kid had the other day has been transfered to me. My throat is sore and I am very lethargic right now. Can barely move. Everything aches and my head has a low throb. Hopefully I can shake this off quickly.

Did NOTHING yesterday. Worked on my puzzle, made french toast for the kid, and stayed in the house. I did go out for a little while but that was to the grocery store. I am so confused as to what day it is. Yesterday felt like a Sunday but in my head I knew it was a Tuesday. I dislike holidays in the middle of the week. Very odd indeed.

Went to bed early because I wasn't feeling well but didn't sleep well either. Fell asleep around nine, but then woke up again at 3. One of those nights. This weather is lousy too. It's too fucking cold in this apartment.

I changed my OKC profile yesterday. New year, new updates. Let's see if that helps attract anything. I doubt it of course because as we all know, I am destined to be alone forever. Yep. That's how I feel. Whatever.

Y4 D222

Happy new year. So far so good? I am sober and awake despite having done a show last night. Which is just throwing me off. It appears in every way to be a Sunday - home at 3:45, up at 8, but no, it's Tuesday. We all agree that next year no actual NYE show. Too stressful especially since we have another one Saturday. Upside is the next one isn't until 1/26. So almost three weeks of freedom. I am thinking there is a Disney trip somewhere in there. I have to wait and see if I am on the road in January still though. I should find out tomorrow if I am packing a bag.

Quiet day. Worked more on my puzzle. Worked on some work stuff, but not much because no one was really around. Pretty much everyone took yesterday off. I am going as not assigned because it wasn't my fault. I took PTO last week. Not this week too dammit.

NBF came over around 6:30 and we had pizza. I introduced him to the fun of the Kinect. A little bittersweet because the last time I really played anything on there I still had TXGF. Lot of pictures of her and I playing together. I need to delete them. Yes, delete them. I have enough pictures of her already that I don't need my game console reminding me too.

Left for the show around 9:30. Solid show. I did security last night which was more fun than dealing with tech shit. Basically I got a night off. Had to only deal with a couple of drunk people both girls who weren't really causing trouble. Just puking and getting lost on their way to their seats. No one had to be ejected or dealt with harshly. I personally did not drink last night. I figured the last place I wanted to start a new year was in the drunk tank. See? Already making good decisions.

It was NBF's first time at a show. He is getting used to how me and the kid interact a little bit. Like most people his age he finds it odd that we do things together.

Came home and went right to bed. Now to relax today as it is Sunday, no wait, a holiday!