I am completely and utterly stressed out right now. I had horrible dreams and slept like shit and on top of it I am stressed about how much my paycheck is going to be tomorrow. Between the 2% tax hike and social security kicking back in, I stand to lose between 300-500 a month. That's a huge part of my buffer right now. For the next 7-8 months I will be light and this is going to drive me up a wall. I have to be extremely careful. I will know around 3am when my direct deposit hits.
Yesterday itself was fine until the evening. I did some work during the day. Nothing exciting, but enough that I was able to work. I kept all day forgetting it was Wednesday. Hell, it's hard thinking of today as Thursday. Stupid middle of the week holidays. Bunch of bullshit if you ask me. The kid left here around 11:30 to meet a friend in the city and I picked her up around 5. It was on the way home she decided to ask me for advice about NBF. Turns out the little shit is a virgin and the kid doesn't feel that way enough about him to be the one to take his virginity. I basically had to tell her that I am the worst person to ask in this case because I am a whore. I told her to call one of our mutual friends who is closer to her age and has dealt more with this kind of thing. She came over around 9 and they had a long talk. I think the kid is feeling better which is good. One thing less to worry about. Of course now she is probably going to break up with NBF which means a month of moping and sadness around here. I want my alone time back some days. Yesterday was one of them.
Worked on my puzzle for a while as we ate dinner. Watched some Teen Titans. Nothing more. But I feel my head sliding back which isn't good. Especially since I have a show in two days. What fucking day is it?? Argh. I plan to go into hiding again. Only way to not spend money. I can hide in the house and be invisible.
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