Y4 D341

I realized yesterday that thanks to 2012 being a leap year, there will be 366 posts for this year. So TODAY means there are 25 days left.

Yesterday was pretty anticlimactic. Look! Proper use of the word! I was joking with a friend yesterday about anticlimatic and anticlimactic. We tend to mean the second but pronounce it the first. I worked on a new curriculum yesterday. Took a break to hit the mall with my friend. I got three new pairs of shoes for less than $30. Plus I found a new comforter set on sale for $30. I was looking for new sheets and for $10 I got the whole set. Score.

I went out because I want to try a DIY project and needed supplies. I plan on adding glitter to a light switch. Don't ask.

I also got a new shower curtain. The one I had was black and it made the bathroom look smaller. I changed it out for a brighter happier one. Makes a difference.

Talked to B on and off during the day with a 2 hour Skype session last night. Played about 2 hours of Bioshock. I am getting nowhere and somewhere in that game. Since I have no idea how long it is or what's going on, I don't know if I am close to being done or not.

Today is more docs then more Bioshock. Thursday may be crazy. We shall see...

Y4 D340

Can you believe it? 25 more days to go and I will have been writing for 4 years straight. DAMN. I wonder how many words I have written in four years? A million? Two million? A lot that's for sure.

I did pretty much nothing yesterday. I completed the one main goal for myself, but that ended up taking over five hours. I got up around 9:30 and took my time. Around noon I started in on counting and reorganizing my pins. Next thing I know it's 5 and I haven't eaten or showered. BUT the pins are all done. 1,143 of them. Yeah, to the person who got me hooked? Fuck you. Ass bite. Almost 1200 pins in two years. I didn't get the boards remounted, but I did get them all put together and ready. I will mount them some time today.

After finishing the boards, I showered and went to In-n-Out for dinner. Just what I needed. I haven't had a good messy burger in a while. I thoroughly enjoyed it. Afterwards, a little Bioshock while talking with the woman. In bed at 10, skype until 11.

A good day. Except, hmmm... what was missing? OH YEAH! MY SISTER STILL HASN'T CALLED. I COULD BE DEAD FOR ALL SHE KNOWS AND THIS IS BEING WRITTEN FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE! OOOOOOOOO! SPOOKY!!

Yeah, I am in a good mood this morning.

Y4 D339

Okay, I need to go to Disneyland Paris and Disneyland Tokyo. My friends just got back from Tokyo and I was looking through pictures and I just wanted to smack them. Of course they did bring me home presents so I guess I can be a LITTLE nice to them.

Next side note for the day - my sister was SUPPOSED TO CALL ME YESTERDAY. JUST SAYIN'.

I enjoye having the house to myself yesterday. I woke up and started cleaning around 9. EVERYTHING is clean including the kid's closet. I tore shit apart and cleaned like crazy from 9-1. I then napped for a little while. From about 3-7 I played Bioshock. In there I made a chicken sandwich for dinner. Around 7 I got ready for the show. Left around 9.

Good show. It was one of those goofy nights. I have also figured out that the show in some respects has become rote to me. I try to remember everything that happened or if I did a certain thing and I realize I can't remember. And I have had no booze in me for a week so I know that's not the reason. No, it's like when you drive some place you go all the time and your brain kicks into auto-pilot. The show itself for the most part has become auto-pilot.

Not a bad thing, just a thing.

Today I have two remaining tasks - 1. organize and mount the new pin board and 2. if I am up to it, organize my clothes.

And of course, more Bioshock.

Y4 D338

I fucking hate people. I am currently in pain right now because people are assholes. I have a bloody leg,  ripped up pants, and a messed up hand thanks to people. Allow me to elaborate...

I was going to bed last night when as I was sitting here at the desk doing one last check of the internet, I see someone parked in front of me backing out. Right into my fucking car. They proceed to hit my car. I take off downstairs at a tear in my socks but the sprinklers were on. BAM right on my face. They didn't even bother to get out and check their car or mine for damage. I FUCKING KNOW THEY SAW ME chasing them down the street too which really pisses me off. My leg is killing me. I couldn't sleep for another hour because of the pain. And all this was after getting home from a party I really didn't want to go to last night.

I went to my friend's birthday party even though I was exhausted from getting up at 3am. I taught from 4 to about 9 yesterday. After that I did laundry, helped the kid clean the fuck out of her room, went to lunch, ran errands, and basically went non-stop all day. Around 7 I headed out to this party. It wasn't the fact that it was a party that made me cranky it was that it was a THEME party. Ugh. A video game theme party. Everyone (and I do mean everyone) but me was in a costume. Really? While I respect the outfits they come up with, I really don't understand people who cosplay. In essence that's what this was - a cosplay event. Who the fuck has time to put together a full replica of an Assassin's Creed outfit? With working arm knife even! Most of the costumes were full on real costumes that these people had made themselves. I felt so out of place. I didn't fit in at all. BUT I did want to at least make a cameo appearance. This isn't the first time I have felt out of sorts around this particular couple and their friends. It's funny, I can get along with people in their 20s, people in their late 30s and early 40s, and people older. But people roughly 29-34? Nope. There's this like disconnect between us. These people like to 'make' things. These are the ones into 50s retro and steampunk which I just don't get. That was the group there last night. Everyone was nice, I just don't understand them. So I smiled nice, had a soda, stayed for a little while and came home. If I had been less tired I might have had a better time, maybe. I also know that I really don't fit in with those people. Hell, lately I haven't been fitting in with anyone. Story of my fucking life...

The kid is gone until late tomorrow. I have the house to myself. I am going to clean and walk around naked...

Y4 D337

Upside to being up at 3 and teaching at 4? Day is over at noon. Downside? Up at 3am. I was fucking exhausted yesterday by 8pm. It also made for a very surreal kind of day. This whole week has been weird. They still haven't fixed the sprinkler outside my window and 3am it sounds like the flood of Noah happening out there. Let's see, taught, napped from 12-2, played Bioshock, bought a new bulletin board for pins, killed flies, watched Grimm, played more Bioshock, went to bed. My day.

Y4 D336

Yesterday almost ended up being a complete shit pile but it got salvaged at the last minute by B. Things were okay in the morning until I decided to post a pic from Disneyland of us with Cinderella as my profile pic on that stupid ass site. The one I have been staying off of because it's nothing but inane garbage anyway. Silly me for thinking I could post a pic without backlash. First off B freaks because it's a picture of us and she still has friends who don't know and/or ones who don't approve. I explained I didn't tag her in it and only friends can see my pics, but she started freaking out. Fine. I cropped it to just me and Cinderella and that turned into being mocked by people. Fuck this. Delete everything. You can all fuck off. I don't know why I even bother attempting to be sociable. I fucking hate people anyway. After that I sat through a 2 hour webinar as a panelist and had to answer idiotic questions. The number of times I wanted to say 'did you read the answer to the last one idiot?' or 'are you not fucking listening to what is being said?' was astounding. THEN I go on a conference call to discuss an upcoming project and the sales guy is just irritating the fuck out of me.

On top of it I am up already. Was up at 3am to start this class shortly. Wouldn't have been so bad except at 8 I had to meet our sound guy to pick up all the hardware for the show saturday. He couldn't meet any earlier unfortunately. 25 minute drive there, 25 minutes back, all for a ten minute tutorial on hooking up the sound board. Fuck my life.

Got home and talked to B for a little while. She apologized. Fine. Still in a shitty mood.

Y4 D335

Mellow day yesterday. I ran a couple of errands and test drove a car for B. She has her heart set on getting a Cube. I think they are ugly as sin. I promised her I would drive it at least before offering an opinion. Yeah, it's still ugly as sin. But I can see from a practicality stand point why she likes it. It's a good practical car with decent space and storage without being a SUV or a mini-van. Something that will last a while and at the same time adapt to lifestyle changes. Not for me though.

Also stopped and picked up Bioshock Infinite. Started playing that last night. Whee! KBF came over last night. We had mexican food while watching Big Bang Theory. Then I played Bioshock. Talked to B for a while on Skype. She had a great day for once which is awesome. She cleaned her car to start getting shit together to move. During that she found $84. Damn.

Tomorrow and Friday I have to be up at 3am to start a 4am class. That means today needs to also be mellow dammit.

Y4 D334

The ghost of X2 will always come back to haunt me won't it? I got a letter in the mail yesterday from some law firm including a check for $300. Turns out it's a settlement check from a class action suit against Wells Fargo. I got all excited because I could use $300 right now. Problem? Yeah, it's made out to both of us. Hence it's useless to me. I am going to try calling them today to see if there's anything that can be done about it, but I am pretty sure I already know the answer. Cest la vie.

Was up at four yesterday to teach a class. Taught from 6-11. It was a half day class but it ran later with questions and some follow up. Not a problem. Did a conference call at 2:30 about some other stuff and that was my work day. I then watched like 10 episodes of Big Bang Theory.

I mailed out some stuff B got in the park that wouldn't fit in her luggage. That will arrive by Friday for her.

Went out to run some errands before picking the kid up at the train, but just couldn't muster any kind of motivation. I need new boards for the pins, but I don't feel like spending $50 on a new board. I may just switch to binders and get rid of the boards all together. I am having one of those 'this place is too cluttered' moments again. Things may get re-organized this weekend. We shall see.

I have to go write documents...

Y4 D333

While it is really insignificant, I do always enjoy when the number of a post is something fun like 333. Yeah, I am dumb, I know it.

Made it home. So did B. And I knew she wouldn't want to be there the minute she got off the plane. We spent an hour on skype last night where she basically reverted back into her frustrated mode because of that environment.

Woke up at around 6, had one last breakfast in the room. Headed to the airport at around 7:30. She got through security and everything pretty easily. Having priority access tickets will do that. I was on the road and headed home by 9. She made it to Dallas and found her gate quickly (I was still driving of course). I am very proud of her. In four days she did more flights and connections than she has done her whole life. A few more trips and she will be a pro.

I made it home around 2:30 and picked the kid up at work. We had a good time catching up. I brought her home a shirt and a cookie which helped reduce the fact that I went to Disneyland and she didn't. She loved her new t-shirt.

I did come home to 1000 flies which is a whole different battle. Fucking flies.

B and I talked from 7-8 after which I went to bed. I had to get up at 4 today for a 6am class which starts very soon.

Afterwards, driving kid to the train, mailing some stuff to B's sisters, and taking a fucking nap.

Y4 D332

Time for B to go back. NO! Sigh.

She did really well yesterday. Only cried three times. The first was the worst one - we are at princess breakfast and belle come out. That was it. Cue the waterworks. She was so embarrassed but what are you going to do? We did food, then walked all of DCA. We had ice cream and fun. After we went back to the hotel and slept for 3 hours. Okay, she slept for three hours, me 90 minutes. We packed up bags as much as possible and then went back to the park. Got back to the hotel around 11 and crashed by midnight. Not as much sex on this trip as either of us would have liked, but Disney kind of over shadows that. She will be her for good soon enough.

Y4 D331

WHEE!! FUN DAY!! We got up around 6:30 and had breakfast in the room. I had a wonderful frittata. B had rum raisin french toast. We sat by the window with Disneyland in the background. Walked over to the park around 8:45. B exploded as expected. We walked in and saw Alice. We then went over to the new fantasy faire! OMG SO AWESOME.

Okay, I am not going to do detail on the whole day because, well because it was a Disney day. Needless to say, I did good trades, had a wonderful dinner, saw the new Iron Man exhibit, Mad T, World of Color, and had a great fucking day.

I love her. I love my life with her. I love myself with her. Enough said.

Y4 D330

As promised, a full recount of the long ass day that was yesterday. Left the house at roughly 11:50 and got gas. It was exactly midnight when I hit the freeway. For the most part the first leg of the trip was straight-forward. I wasn't too tired because I was going to Disney and sheer excitement was driving me. Disneyland and my woman? Yeah, I can stay awake. At 3 I started paying attention to my phone. At 3:05 I was supposed to start booping the woman to make sure she was up. Her flight left at 5:30 (my time, all this is in my time) and she would board at 5. At 3:03 she booped me. Perfect. She made it to the airport without any issues, through security, but then things happened. Her flight was delayed due to weather. She was starting to stress. See why I put her in first class? One less thing to worry about. She boarded about 30 minutes late, but she boarded. Okay, one issue done. By this time I was down in my old town waiting for my friend to show up. He got there about 7 and we had breakfast. His family owns two restaurants and a bar and the bar is connected to one of the restaurants. We sat on the patio since the weather was gorgeous. I had a wonderful veggie crepe. He refused to take money for the food too. After leaving him, I went to the store and bought B a baby pineapple. She had mentioned once it was something she thought I was making up. I had to prove to her it was real. I also stopped into Walmart and looked at point and shoot cameras. I don't feel like lugging my big camera around today and have wanted a small one anyway. Didn't like what they had and headed towards the airport as there is a best buy on the way. While I was waiting for Best Buy to open, B called. She made it to Dallas. We got her all situated at her next gate. So far so good. Go to best buy at 10 when they open. I found a nice Nikon bundle with tripod and SD card and case for $118 out the door. Not bad. I was able to use my Best Buy card which helped. After that I still had oh, 4 hours to kill. Sigh. I went to the motorcycle store and looked at replacement saddle bags. $200. Fuck that. Then I went to a grocery store near the airport and bought B some roses. I sat and had a shrimp taco while I waited. I also went and napped for 45 minutes. Yes, in the grocery store parking lot. Fuck it, why not? Around 1 I headed to the airport. She arrived at 2:10. We then went to the Verizon store. We decided since I had an extra line on my plan to put her on it. She is paying $45 a month for less features/service where as I already pay $10 a month for that line. She is planning on just giving me the $10 a month. Win/win all around. We were both so excited to see each other. Her face as she looked around at everything was priceless. After the phone store we headed to the hotel. The room is FUCKING PERFECT. Corner room, three walls of windows and a perfect park view. Yeah, B started bawling. She was so overwhelmed. After resting for a while we headed to Downtown Disney for dinner. We had a good dinner. I could tell this part was hard for her. She is used to basic stuff and my world is not basic when it comes to food. She managed though. After dinner we walked around and I took her to the disney store. Overwhelmed again. Wait until she is at the emporium in the park today. I have xanax on me just in case she explodes. She got disney shoes so now we match. I picked up a new AP pin and did some trades. After we walked back to the hotel and had dessert sent up. We were both so exhausted from being up we passed out at 9:30. All in all? AN EXCELLENT DAY. Now it's time to watch her explode in the park.

Y4 D329

Short post today since I am on my phone right now. Waiting for my friend to show up and meet me for breakfast. Been driving since midnight but that will be tomorrow's post.

Trained from 6:30-3:00 yesterday. Full day. Good class. We got through all the material plus some extra. Only five people in the class which made it easier. After class B and I went through a final walkthrough to make sure we both had everything. It was more for her benefit than mine. I am used to traveling she isn't. We got off the phone around 5. She was going to bed at 9 her time and I tried to do the same. Yeah, fail. Instead I flopped on the couch until 8, tried to sleep, ended back on the couch at 10 and slept until 11. So I am running on about maybe two hours of sleep in the last 26 hours. Fun. Got up around 11. The good stuff comes tomorrow.

Y4 D328

Less than a month and this year will be over and we will be into year five. I thought about this the other night; do I keep writing past five years? I never planned to be writing four years into it. Is this something that becomes part of my legacy if you will? Twenty years from now people find pages and pages of my daily life? Most of it will feel like strange stream of conscious nonsense to someone even ten years from now. But then again, it still helps me. As long as it helps me, it's worth doing. When that day stops, then the writing stops.

Trained all day yesterday. Class was decent. It's a small class this time around. I can't believe that in 24 hours B will be on a plane to Anaheim and we will be together in my playground for once. No more meeting up in the snow or frankly in the ghetto. This time we get to be together in a realm I am with which I am comfortable. Plus I get to be in Disneyland. Ah yeah baby.

After class I went to Target with the kid to pick up a couple of things for the trip. She is being less bitchy about my going. I think it's starting to sink into her head that this is my life not hers. Plus she is realizing she has the house alone for almost four days for her and the boyfriend to be idiots. Speaking of the bf, he came over last night. I have become resigned to him being around. Still don't like them as a couple but whatever.

Made fish for dinner. Some nice tilapia with a parmesan risotto and green beans. Not bad. I am still feeling fat as fuck, but this is not the weekend to worry about that. When I get back I stop eating. For a month. No more than 250 calories a day for an entire month. That will drop me back down a little bit. At least feel decent about myself.

Watched Grimm and The Following. The following is another one of those shows where I wonder how they are going to take it to a second season. Sometimes I watch TV shows and think they would have been better as movies or really mini-series. No one does a decent mini-series any more. It used to be you'd have four of five episodes of something and boom it was done.

Talked to B and went to bed around 10. Slept better. Still sleeping in chunks but it was solid sleep this time at least.

Y4 D327

Shitastic night last. I have an ear infection in my right ear. I don't know why I am so prone to them, but it made for a fucked up day yesterday. Was in major pain all day. Still am. I was grumpy because of it all day. I was lucky and didn't have to teach yesterday but it definitely affected my interactions with B and the couple of people I had to talk to for work. At 9:30 I decided to go to bed because frankly I was tired of being up. No other reason. I fell asleep a little before 10 but then woke up at 12:30. Couldn't fall back to sleep until 1:30. Woke up at 3. Tossed and turned until 5:30. Wonderful way to start a day where I have to teach.

Other than some work stuff, I watched a little TV, played a little Diablo, and talked to a majorly stressed out B. She went shopping for the trip this week. She got some great stuff but of course that stressed her because she didn't know how she was going to fit everything. I can respect that kind of stress. I have been there. It's her other stress about the airport and the flight itself that is getting to me. I need this trip and I need it to be as stress free as possible for me.

Side note - Fucked up situation in Boston yesterday. Of course it made me think of my time there with X2. It's always sad when something like that happens and you have been to a place and you see things you know. I wondered if X2 was upset but then I remembered that, like me, she isn't very empathetic to other people's suffering. One of the few things we agreed on when we were together. Horrible? Maybe but it's fucking true.

You might notice I am starting to hit a dark patch. I am trying to keep it at bay because of the trip but at the same time I feel it creeping in. I swear to God I am like a girl with a period. Every 28 fucking days my brain goes off the deep end.

Time to teach. Lucky students.

Y4 D326

Quiet day yesterday. Went to the mall with the kid and got some new shorts for Disneyland this week. It will be 85 the whole time we are there and I do not want to roast my ass off in pants. B is stressing about this trip already. People like her amuse and annoy me at the same time when it comes to flying. She is worried about what to bring, what not to bring, what can go on the plane, what has to be in a baggie, etc. In the end we decided she should bring as little as possible just to reduce the stress level. Since I am driving I can bring all the toiletries she will need and that will take some of the pressure off. This is totally why I have her flying in first class. At least this way I know she will have eaten on the plane, will be near the front for quick on and off, etc. We talked probably a good four to five hours yesterday including a 2.5 hour skype session last night.

I also setup up an old external hard drive for her with 200+gb of movies and tv shows. I plan on bringing this with me for her to have when she gets home. This will stop the random requests for things to watch.

I did have a cool dream last night although most of it is fading already. It included Spike and the members of Pink Floyd. We were all hanging out together discussing some deep philosophical shit. I don't remember most of it unfortunately. I sometimes wish we could record our dreams somehow. Although I think there would be more shootings in the world if people saw other people's dreams. Especially jealous spouses.

Today I have a couple of client things to handle and prep for my training classes Tuesday and Wednesday. I also want to pack as much as possible to get that out of the way. Even though I am driving I do want to minimize the amount of crap I bring with me.

Y4 D325

FUN night last night. Didn't get too wild, managed to keep my mouth in check for the most part. Only one slip of the tongue and I personally didn't think it was that bad. Other than that, I had fun, I stayed within the limits of sobriety, got the car to the kid, and was in bed by 1:30. Not too shabby.

Woke up yesterday around 7:30 I think it was? Did my normal morning stuff, cleaned the house, and then went and ran a great errand. My chair for my desk broke a while ago and I have been putting off buying a new one mostly because I knew I wouldn't be home for most of March. But teaching last week and the fact that I have six classes coming up in the next two weeks pushed me to have to get a new one. I didn't want to spend 100+ on a nice chair but I also didn't want a new piece of shit one. Instead I took a chance and hit the thrift store. I managed to find a decent full back, with arms, good office chair. It was $25.99 which is a 1/4 of what I would have paid in an office store. Best part? Yesterday was 50% off day. I ended up getting it for $14 after tax. Score.

Stopped at the bakery and got a couple of cupcakes and a snickerdoodle for the kid. Was back by 10. Of course I now had 10 hours to kill. I ended up falling asleep on the couch for about 45 minutes. Got up, played Diablo, watched Pan's Labyrinth with kid and KBF, and then around 7 headed to the party. Stopped and had fried chicken on the way. Showed up at 7:54 which for me is good. I am usually really early so I didn't stress about being 5 minutes.

Good crowd. A varied crowd too for once. Since it was at the house I didn't spend a shit ton of money or act stupid in public. Left around 12:45.

Not a bad Saturday.

Y4 D324

41 days to go and this year is done. Another 365 posts in the bad. Almost 1500 posts about my so called life. Drunks say take it one day at a time and I understand that to some degree now. You really do have to take it one day at a time.

Trained during the day yesterday. Another good class. I really do know what I am best skilled at when it comes to work stuff. I have been doing training in one form or another for 20 years now and I have always known it's where I excel. That's not being cocky either. It's simply knowing where your best skillset lies and for me it's training.

After training I ran to the store with the kid to get things for game night. I made a giant nacho platter, taquitos, and a gallon of sangria. Before everyone got to the house, the kid and I watched St Trinian's. EXCELLENT movie. Very amusing. I wish US comedies had the style and wit of British movies. Their movies use real humor versus the fart jokes of american comedies.

People started arriving around 7:30. We ended up with 8 of us total. I managed to keep B in the loop and talk with her both during the day and during game night. We played the new expansion of CAH, had Mean Girls in the background, and had fun. After Mean Girls we put on Beauty and the Beast and the best moment of the night was when we paused playing so everyone could sing the Gaston song. We are a strange lot that's for sure. A couple people left around 10 and we then had a game of Scrabble. That was played with Emperor's New Groove playing in the background. Everyone was out by midnight. Because we were drinking sangria, no one got super drunk or dumb. I have a lot of dishes and glasses to clean this morning, but otherwise, it was a pretty wholesome night. Fun without crossing into stupid without any drama.

Now tonight is my director's birthday party at her house. I have a feeling it will have a lot more excitement as there will be dozens of people there. I am going to watch any drinking I do very carefully. I don't want to be out of control in anyway. I want to have fun but not be dumb. I am going to try and be home around a decent time. Let's see how well I do on that.

Y4 D323

I went to that dinner thing last night and while I had fun, I am paying for it. Not in a bad way, more in a goddamn I am tired as hell way. I didn't get into bed and off the phone with B until after 11. I trained all day then after training, I decided to do my hair before I left. While that was going on, my tax guy showed up with my returns. I need to get those all signed today and in the mail. The sooner I do that the better. Unless I have majorly screwed up, I should net some money back this year dammit. Speaking of money, bill time. Whee. I left the house around 4:45 and we got to the city just a little before 6. There were about 12 people total at this event. The event itself was fun - made spring rolls, beef satay, and curry. I had more fun just catching up with everyone than cooking. Plus I got ice cream from my favorite ice cream place. It was two blocks away and around 8:30 I dragged my boss's wife down there with me. We bought three pints to share and I got a bourbon coke float. I also reminded my other boss about Disneyland next week and that he should look for a couple of charges on the company card. He was good with that. The only real thing that will be on there is B's admission ticket then a couple of meals while we are at the hotel. Otherwise I will behave myself. I don't want to take advantage of a good thing. Never bite the hand that feeds. Less than one week and I get to see her again. This time in my world. Let's play darling, let's play. Okay time to get ready for my next class.

Y4 D322

Another day of getting up early. But today I am super tired. Like exhausted. I went to bed too late, I know it. But I wanted to stay up to talk to B and I really wasn't totally tired until almost 11. My own fault. My ear is bugging me this morning too. Time for another one of my wonderful ear infections I am afraid.

Taught yesterday. Good class. Large class. 14 students. Same group today too. Part 2 of the same class and then part 3 on Friday. At least my days have something going on this week. Next week I have two days of classes. Which means I get Monday to relax thankfully. Best part is I know this material and next week's material pretty damn well. It's not like I am getting hit with out of nowhere questions. So far anything they have thrown at me I can handle. Let's hope that trend continues.

Taught from 7-3, fell asleep for 45 minutes, played some Diablo, made lasagne for dinner. Tried watching Justice League. I am having real issues with that show. I don't know what it is, but it's just not as good as Batman. Maybe it's the inclusion of the extra characters or that it is less gritty, but it doesn't hold my attention the way Batman does. BUT I will make it through because the story arc is important to understand in order to really appreciate Batman Beyond. At least that's what 'they' tell me. Not to mention I want to watch all this stuff I have.

I have realized that it's almost a year since cutting the cable and I don't miss it at all. I have more than enough to watch even if I didn't get anything new for the next six months. Cool.

B got home around 9 and we talked for a while. I miss her. I get to see her in a week though. In Disneyland. Yeah.

Y4 D321

Had a horrible dream last night. Woke up in a cold sweat at 11:47pm. I had been in a plane crash. But it wasn't like a regular plane with seats. Mote like a cargo plane or a spaceship. We survived the crash, but then the fucked up part was I had to try and reach people to let them know I was alive and I was getting confused by time zones and who was up. I was trying to reach the kid, X1, and X2 but for some reason not B. Then I had to unload the plane by myself but they wouldn't let me use the closest entrance. I had to walk through this hotel all the way around to the freight entrance when this guy swallowed a razor blade and was starting to have his insides destroyed. Yeah. I know. Then I had another dream where I was at a small club where AC/DC was performing. That one wasn't so bad. Weird but at least not plane crash weird.

Didn't do a whole lot yesterday. Prepped for my class today (which starts in a little under three hours). You note the time right? I woke up about 20 minutes ago and after all the crazy dreams just said fuck it and got up. I went to bed early last night on top of everything else.

Rambling a bit today. I can tell. Need to focus my thoughts. Did I leave the house yesterday? Let me think. Nope. I didn't. Made pork chops for dinner. With biscuits. Played Diablo. Watched some TV. God my head is all over the place right now and I don't know why. Too many thoughts running through my brain. Need to get it together to be ready for class.

I'm ready to go back on the road. Enough time at home. Next week is Disneyland. I can make it.

Y4 D320

Another boring ass day. Yay! On the sad news front Anette Funicello and Margaret Thatcher died yesterday. Two strong women who will be missed. In my world though, there was nothing exciting going on. I hung around the house all day. Worked with our HR/Office person to get some timesheet updates completed. Got ready for my classes the rest of the week. Played Diablo. Watched Justice League. Yep, that was my day. I did meet a friend for dinner. We went to Chevy's because that's where they wanted to go. Bad choice. Service was horrible. Food was mediocre. But it was what it was. Talked to B who got a serious haircut yesterday. She took off like six inches of her hair. I like it. Everyone around her thinks it makes her look older except her mother who is an idiot. Went to bed around 11. I wish I had more but that's all. I swear my life is so boring during normal circumstances. Also if you have noticed, thanks to having B in my life, things aren't as depressing around here. I don't delve into those dark places like I used to. I manage to keep them at bay. I need human interaction and affection to stop the negative parts from taking over. Sue me. I did get mad at the kid yesterday. She was all pissy towards me because me and B are going to Disneyland next week. It's not my duty nor my fault that the kid can't come with us, yet she was giving me an attitude. I told her that her and the boyfriend should be planning trips. Not expecting me to do all the planning. At her age I was on my own and about to be married. I don't think she should replicate that, but she shouldn't be looking to me to provide her weekend plans. Same argument, different week. Cest la vie. Soon enough she will be on her own and this will all be moot. I hope.

Y4 D319

At the end of a somewhat unexciting day came some good (potentially) news. Around 10 last night I heard from my accountant. He had been finalizing my taxes this weekend. Turns out between fed and state I should get back around 8000. Seeing as I owe the federal around six still, if all goes right, I will net about $2000 by the summer. It will take that long because everyone has to process their shit and take their cut. BUT the upside is that this is it. I will no longer owe the federal government any money. AND I will have enough left over to pay off two of my credit cards in full AND have money left over to put into savings. Let's hope everything goes smoothly. The other upside is if nothing changes this year, I should see roughly the same amount back next year which will ALL be mine and it can go straight into savings. A couple years of that and I will be able to pay off a LARGE chunk of my debt. I will be still on track to my 2015 goal of having everything handled. That was some nice news to go to bed with last night.

The day itself was boring. I had a bad headache for the most of yesterday which put a damper on things. I only left the house to get some stuff at the pet store. I cleaned out all the critters yesterday. I haven't done a full cleaning of them since I left and it was overdue. All the creatures are happy now.

Made bratwurst for dinner last night. That was pretty tasty. Watched some TV and went to bed.

This week I have three days of classes scheduled. So I am going to enjoy the solitude the next couple of days before I have to be back 'on'. But only 10 days until B and I are together again in Disneyland. I can make it.

Y4 D318

No exciting revelations or isight this morning. Just a boring Sunday morning. Went to bed six hours ago. I had fun doing the show last night. Taking a week off was very healthy for me. I didn't feel burdened or overwhelmed last night. Also helped that I didn't have to do music for the first time in months. I got to actually enjoy myself. Without alcohol too. I didn't play with or bother the audience. I focused on doing the show and doing my job. Felt kind of nice.

The day was straight forward. Didn't do much of anything. Went for a nice long motorcycle ride in the morning. Watched some TV. Talked with B a lot. That's about it. Headed out for the show about 9. Got to take the bike because I didn't have to worry about bringing my laptop or anything else.

The only downside is I ruined my last pair of jeans with no holes in the knees. I need to go to the mall today and find a new pair of jeans now. I am too fat to fit into my other jeans. That has me feeling down. I don't want to spend the money on new jeans but I also don't want to look like a fat guy shoving himself into too small pants. Sad panda. I don't know why I have put on so much weight lately. Well I do. It's a combination of cooking for the kid and KBF as well as being on the road. Being on the road I was eating way too much. I've managed to go down about 3 lbs since I got home, but I really need to drop down a considerable amount more. I was told last night I look good, but I don't feel good. I feel huge. I need to work on this.

Today is house cleaning. Whee.

Y4 D317

A couple of cool things happened yesterday. First while I was doing laundry; I had my little laundry card and I thought I had it down to the penny for the amount I needed to do. Turned out I was .25 short. I didn't feel like walking all the way to the machine and putting a $10 on it as that's all I had in my wallet. Out of chance I asked another guy who was doing laundry if he minded using his card and when we met back up in 45 minutes when our clothes were done, I would give him the $1.25 back. He used his card but when we both came back in 45 minutes he refused to take the dollar. Nice. Thanks dude for restoring a small part of my faith in humanity.

Second thing is while it ended up taking me all day, I got the motorcycle operational again. First I needed a new battery. Then it turns out motorcycle batteries need to have the acid added to them. I know, weird right? Then I had to wait an hour for it mellow. Then I discovered that a new battery needs to be trickle charged. Sigh. Back to the store for a trickle charger. THEN the one I buy is bad. But this time I sent the kid and KBF back to the store. They were going out anyway. By the time they got back and by the time the battery was charged it was 8pm. The battery needed to rest an hour after that. All in all it was 9:30 by the time I got the battery installed and operational. But I did it. I rode that sucker last night and it felt good. I plan on taking it to the show tonight if the weather holds out.

In addition to all that, I worked on my puzzle, cleaned the house, and watched the following. My day. Whee.

Y4 D316

Another oh so exciting day at home. Dealt with some timesheet issues. That was fun. Turns out my profile was missing a bunch of stuff which is why I kept having certain periods rejected. Oh well. Not my fault. That was the extent of my day to be honest. I worked on my puzzle. The one fun thing was last night the kid and I went to the store and found these really cool hedgehog measuring cups. They are cute as hell. Useless, but cute. Kind of like me. Also went to target and got paper towels so I can do some cleaning today. Again, not very exciting. I did get a pair of computer glasses. Not readers. These are specifically meant for computer use. They have a tinted lens that reduces eye fatigue, glare, and eliminates blue somewhat to reduce eye strain. I was getting a headache again yesterday and I blame staring at the screen. When my current contacts run out, I am asking for a new appointment instead of just getting a refill. I really think they screwed me up last time. I feel like one eye is too weak and that's why I have been getting these headaches. In the meantime I will try these glasses to see if it helps. Watched more of the following. Not a bad show. Very intense. Went to bed around 10. Been actually catching up on sleep which is nice. Today seems like it will be more of the same but with the addition of LAUNDRY. Go me.

Y4 D315

50 days and this chapter is over. I will have survived 4 full years. It's all about survival really. Survive driving on the freeway, survive a business meeting, survive another day. In the end that's all where doing. We're surviving. Sigh.

I slept for almost 9 hours. A minor record for me. Was up at 4:30 yesterday, at the client by 6:45 again. Sat in the car and watched the season finale of Justified. Also watched another episode of The Following. I am enjoying that one. I did finish AHS finally too. Here's my comments from another site:

I just finished watching both season 1 and season 2 back to back. I will say that season 2 hands down is the better of the two. The story more engaging, the plot deeper, the characters more developed and interesting. If season 3 is half as good as 2, then I will be happy. I was on the edge of my seat for most of the episodes. Season 1 just got boring and predictable and in some cases, annoying. Season 2 kept everything interesting with just enough predictability to keep you interested and enough twists to make things fun. I swear I teared up a bit on the last episode with the scene between Lana and Johnny. Acting. Doing it right.

Worked from 9-5 with the client. Class went well, no major issues. Traffic was mild on the way home. Got home around 6. Relaxed, talked to B, made pasta. Watched more the following, picked the kid up at 10, went to bed.

It's nice to be back home.

Y4 D314

Yesterday was rough on B and her family. They spent the day trying to find a decent and affordable rehab center for her dad. Turns out he has been doing smack for a while and on top of it other stuff. She didn't get all the details, but enough to make her lose all faith in her father. I don't think there is anything worse especially for a woman/girl than to find that the person they thought was the most stable turns out to be just another fuckup. I think that's why I always try to put on a good face in front of the kid. She knows I am not perfect by any measure, but she also knows that I face issues, deal with them (sometimes in a non-healthy way), and I keep swimming. She knows that when the shit hits the fan I will do the right thing. I will step up and figure it out. I won't end up in a pile of my own puke with a needle sticking out of my arm. Puke yes, needle no. Such a fine balance, eh?

Speaking of just keep swimming, FINDING DORY IN 2015!! WHOO!! A Finding Nemo 'sequel' that is worthy. First MU this year then 2 years until Finding Dory. Sweet.

I got onsite around 6:45 yesterday and sat in the car until 8:15. Taught until 4:30. Mixed class. Some really sharp, some not so much. Class went well, nothing exciting. Another day of it today. The traffic home wasn't horrible either. Took me about 40 minutes to get home. Got home to find X1 and her brood in my house. Ugh. Not what I needed. The kid and KBF were there too. They were trying to shoo them out the door when I got home. My clothes all came finally too. Now it's laundry time tomorrow. Whee.

Watched an episode of the following, talked to B and was in bed before 10. Look at my exciting life.

Y4 D313

Ugh been trying to type for the last few minutes and keep getting distracted. Damn you shiny things. I am up earlier than I planned to be but it's all good. I woke up at 4 to the sound of gushing water. At first I thought it was pouring rain which would have been a problem because no more than five hours ago I had told the kid she needed to walk to work this morning. Imagine my confusion when I pulled open the blinds to see no rain coming from the sky. That's when I realized the gushing water I was hearing was a blown sprinkler head. Ugh. Talk about morning panic. But that doesn't compare to the voicemail I woke up to from B. Always start at the beginning...

Got up yesterday and had a good morning. Did my timesheets and my expense sheets. That took about three hours of my day. Yes, there was that much in receipts to go through. I submitted over $3000 in expenses for the last 18 days. Closer to $4000 actually.

When I was done, the kid and I went over to Target. She was off because of Cesar Chavez day. We stopped in the pet store and she decided to buy a new snake. We had to wait until 2 for one of the other employees to come in to help her, and we went and had lunch while we waited. The day was pretty good at this point.

When we got back, she got word her mother (who was in town for easter) wanted to see her. She didn't know X1 was in town until late Sunday night when they bothered to let her know. She resignedly went off to be the good daughter. I was pissed because at 8:30 I had put a corned beef in the slow cooker. Fine whatever. We have corned beef for the week. Which I had for dinner. I watched some TV and just relaxed - still no issues. No, issues have to come late before I go to bed.

Around 10 B calls me to tell me she is going to get keys to her dad's shop because neither her or her mother can reach him. She assumes he is just drunk as he has been getting drunk more lately. He is falling apart. Not because of B, but B's mom. He really didn't think they would go through with divorce and on top of that, they are selling his service masters franchise. This guy's whole world is falling apart. I can empathize to a point. He needs to learn how to self-destruct without dragging everyone around him down the spiral as well. These are the rules buddy boy.

At 12:43 I get a voice mail. Turns out daddy isn't just drinking, he's doing heroin too. Idiot. Yes, I know I sound hypocritical in some ways, but again, spiral alone. Don't bring your family into your mess. I don't know the resolution at this point other than they are going to try and get him into some kind of rehab today.

My broken sprinkler seems minor now eh?

Y4 D312

Today is the day to avoid the internet. Nothing can be trusted. I really dislike April 1st. Always have, always will. Most annoying day around. Yeah that's right I am captain grumpypants when it comes to that.

In the real world, I am in a pretty darn good mood. I slept a full 8 hours last night, waking up only once. Nice to be home.

I got up yesterday around, I don't remember... 7 maybe? And I did my morning stuff, then I tried to go to Target but they and pretty much everything else was closed. Stupid Easter. I did manage to go to the grocery store though. I did really well at the store. I bought a ton of groceries and through skillful use of my club card and digital coupons I saved $68 on my grocery bill. I got almost $220 worth of groceries for $150. Nicely done boy. I told B about that and she was very impressed.

We talked on and off yesterday. She had to go to her grandparent's house for Easter and was doing family stuff. I worked on some movie stuff, did my timesheet, played some Diablo, watched some TV, made a nice steak for dinner, and caught up with the kid when she finally got home around 9:30.

Nice to be home that's for sure.

Today is expense reports. Piles of receipts to go through. Hopefully my clothes will arrive. If they do I will also do laundry today.