Shitastic night last. I have an ear infection in my right ear. I don't know why I am so prone to them, but it made for a fucked up day yesterday. Was in major pain all day. Still am. I was grumpy because of it all day. I was lucky and didn't have to teach yesterday but it definitely affected my interactions with B and the couple of people I had to talk to for work. At 9:30 I decided to go to bed because frankly I was tired of being up. No other reason. I fell asleep a little before 10 but then woke up at 12:30. Couldn't fall back to sleep until 1:30. Woke up at 3. Tossed and turned until 5:30. Wonderful way to start a day where I have to teach.
Other than some work stuff, I watched a little TV, played a little Diablo, and talked to a majorly stressed out B. She went shopping for the trip this week. She got some great stuff but of course that stressed her because she didn't know how she was going to fit everything. I can respect that kind of stress. I have been there. It's her other stress about the airport and the flight itself that is getting to me. I need this trip and I need it to be as stress free as possible for me.
Side note - Fucked up situation in Boston yesterday. Of course it made me think of my time there with X2. It's always sad when something like that happens and you have been to a place and you see things you know. I wondered if X2 was upset but then I remembered that, like me, she isn't very empathetic to other people's suffering. One of the few things we agreed on when we were together. Horrible? Maybe but it's fucking true.
You might notice I am starting to hit a dark patch. I am trying to keep it at bay because of the trip but at the same time I feel it creeping in. I swear to God I am like a girl with a period. Every 28 fucking days my brain goes off the deep end.
Time to teach. Lucky students.
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