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Less than a month and this year will be over and we will be into year five. I thought about this the other night; do I keep writing past five years? I never planned to be writing four years into it. Is this something that becomes part of my legacy if you will? Twenty years from now people find pages and pages of my daily life? Most of it will feel like strange stream of conscious nonsense to someone even ten years from now. But then again, it still helps me. As long as it helps me, it's worth doing. When that day stops, then the writing stops.

Trained all day yesterday. Class was decent. It's a small class this time around. I can't believe that in 24 hours B will be on a plane to Anaheim and we will be together in my playground for once. No more meeting up in the snow or frankly in the ghetto. This time we get to be together in a realm I am with which I am comfortable. Plus I get to be in Disneyland. Ah yeah baby.

After class I went to Target with the kid to pick up a couple of things for the trip. She is being less bitchy about my going. I think it's starting to sink into her head that this is my life not hers. Plus she is realizing she has the house alone for almost four days for her and the boyfriend to be idiots. Speaking of the bf, he came over last night. I have become resigned to him being around. Still don't like them as a couple but whatever.

Made fish for dinner. Some nice tilapia with a parmesan risotto and green beans. Not bad. I am still feeling fat as fuck, but this is not the weekend to worry about that. When I get back I stop eating. For a month. No more than 250 calories a day for an entire month. That will drop me back down a little bit. At least feel decent about myself.

Watched Grimm and The Following. The following is another one of those shows where I wonder how they are going to take it to a second season. Sometimes I watch TV shows and think they would have been better as movies or really mini-series. No one does a decent mini-series any more. It used to be you'd have four of five episodes of something and boom it was done.

Talked to B and went to bed around 10. Slept better. Still sleeping in chunks but it was solid sleep this time at least.