Moving slow this morning. I slept decent but still a little groggy. Just a long day yesterday and I am feeling a bit overwhelmed by life right now. I got up around the same time yesterday - 4:30ish - and headed out about 6:20 to go to the client. Only 6 more days of them left for the year based on the contracts they signed. Today, then three in a couple weeks, and finally two more in May. After that our obligation to them is done. Odds are they will sign a new contract but at least this current one will be over and they will be out of my life for a while. Arrived onsite at about 7:40, yes it takes that long to get to them via public transportation. Taught until 4 and headed home. Got home around 5:40. B was already home and she did make me feel good by greeting me at the door with a smile and a hug. I just am feeling under a sea of bills, wedding plans, and the thought of a honeymoon. It's the latter one that's hard. We just don't have the money to go ANYWHERE. Her family are the kind of people who give $10 as a wedding gift. Nor have any of them offered to help do anything for the wedding. Which means it all comes down to me. Pay the regular bills, pay for the wedding, pay for a honeymoon. Sure. Let me go to my money tree. Oh wait, it's dead. See? Just A lot going on in my head. I tried to push it down and be happy but it was hard. She feels bad because her family is a bunch of poor idiots and I feel bad because I can't give her a good wedding. Just a lot of anxiety. Frankly if it wasn't for a couple of her family members we wouldn't be having to deal with this at all. She has a couple of people who are too elderly to travel which is why we have to have a MI wedding. If they were gone then we could do just one. But no, we have to deal with doing this remotely. Breathe man, breathe.
Okay, enough. Off to teach again.
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