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At what point does sadness become depression? When do you realize that you're not just feeling blue but in an actual funk? Is it when you lose interest in doing things? When you find yourself bored even though there's stuff to do? When you lack the motivation to do any of those things? When you don't want to talk to anyone or see anyone or be around anyone? When?

I have a headache this morning. I don't know if it is from lack of sugar and processed carbs or from the air conditioner being on all night or from the stale musty smell of this room. But one or more of those is causing me to be in pain this morning. I slept like poop as well. Tossed and turned.

Sat around a lot yesterday morning waiting until it was time to go to the client. I left here at 9:05 and arrived at 9:20. My contact showed up at 10. I told him that it might as well be the middle of the night for me. It was literally just the two of us in the office as everyone else took the holiday. I worked in the office until about 4:15 then headed back to the hotel. I left when I did because I needed to be back on a real network. They are so paranoid about security that I had zero connection to the outside world except the few approved places on their machines. My phone couldn't catch better than a 3g connection, mostly staying at 1x. Their machines aren't even real machines. They use citrix vdi terminals where you log in then have to remote to a real machine. That machine is so locked down it's not even funny. I was doing ppt work on my box and demo creation on theirs and had to have a way to get screenshots off of the vdi and onto mine. That was an adventure. I finally managed to get them compressed and emailed to myself. Which meant I had another 90 minutes of work back in the hotel room last night.

Finished everything up around six and went back for chicken. Better service this time around. Food was good. I will probably have the same thing tonight. Thursday I am doing dinner with friends. Got back ate my chicken, watched tv, went to bed at 9:30. The headache started around 8 and hasn't dissipated yet. Hopefully it will go away soon.

Got through about 1/2 of what I need to do these three days, I am hoping to finish everything today which will actually give me Wednesday free. I am not sure how that's going to work, but we shall see how I am doing around 4 today. I am planning to go in around 8 instead of 10 today. That was just way too late yesterday.