Y7 D147

I kind of figured out what is bringing me down right now. Social media. All weekend my friends were posting pictures of a con they were at where cast had a booth. Barry Bostwick, Patricia Quinn, and Little Nell were all there. They had things signed by them. They had pictures with them. They had pictures together with each other. They hung out in a bar doing karaoke together. Unlike B who as an introvert doesn't require physical contact with other human beings, I crave it. I was envious, homesick, and feeling like I gave things up all weekend as I looked at these pictures. It depressed me. We have lived here almost 2 months and we have hung out with people twice. Twice. I feel guilty we haven't had people over. I feel lonely we don't have a group of friends we can hang out with any time. I may have been paying way too much for that apartment we lived in before, but I was only 20 minutes away from everyone. I could see people at the drop of a hat. Now it takes 10 hours to do anything. Just missing things. Not specifically those people or what they did, just the camaraderie of having my people to hang out with and do stuff. I need to do something. Not just travel for work. Somehow we need to fix this situation. Unfortunately, I don't know how right at this moment. I have too much going on to fix it. New years resolution number one. Get involved in something or make some new friends or promise to spend more time with people. Something.

Taught yesterday. Group of 5. One is an idiot, the other four I can handle. The one was late, couldn't figure out how to connect to the class, kept coming off mute, etc. Only one more day with this group and I get a whole new set of people to deal with the remainder of the week. Joy.

After class I went to the grocery store. We needed a few things for dinner (which was ham steaks, veggies, and salad) and I just needed out of the house.

Came back, played some Tony Hawk, made dinner, watched some TV, and went off to bed around 10:30. Today looks like more of the same.