Y11 D5

Up. Not really awake. But up. Leaving in about an hour. LONG day of travel today. 5am flight out of seattle, land 11:30 DFW, 3pm to Detroit, land at 6:30. Lots of time travel today. Then I get to leave again on Monday for OH. Fun.

Class went better yesterday as we had a larger room. Made a huge difference. Finished around 4:15, back to hotel, ate leftovers, went to bed at 7:30. Not much happened in between.

Am I home yet?

Y11 D4

I did something last night I haven't been able to do in a long while; I slept with the windows open. Outside air. It's your friend. I still slept rough unfortunately, but I did sleep better. I had the weirdest dream. It was in this small italian village and I was helping this person win back their love interest. Then I had one of my car dreams. I have these on occassion. Where I am at a car dealer looking at vehicles. My brain is weird.

Yesterday was okay. The contact there is a bit off but the group was good. One thing that was super annoying is I had to have an escort constantly. Like even to go to the bathroom. I mean please. You're healthcare not state secrets. But whatever. They did feed me even though it didn't sit well. They had chicekn tinga tacos and while tasty, they made a return visit last night. Rough times.

One more day and then I go home. Home until Monday. Get the full weekend to myself luckily.

Almost June. Only a month until my birthday. This time last year I was getting ready to leave for Australia. This year, OH. Bleh.

Y11 D3

Slept like absolute shit last night. Woke up constantly. Tossed and turned. Time changes. Weather changes. Forced air. Ugh. I am not at my best this morning for sure. Fuck this project. Only good things are the 5000 miles and 3 nights I will make off of it. Everything else can kiss my ass.

Thanks to time travel I was up and mobile much longer than I wanted yesterday. Left the house at 3:30, airport at 4, first flight got me to Chicago with 19 minutes until my next flight boarded. Made it to my gate in 11 minutes. I am glad I went ahead and paid for first on this trip. There were 22 names on the upgrade list for Chicago to Seattle and no one cleared. Both of my flights were full. I think a combination of the holiday weekend and the horrible weather across the midwest made for a lot of extra travelers. Sometimes it's worth paying that $100 upfront.

Got to Seattle around 9:40 and by the time I got in my rental car it was 10:30. Dealt with horrible downtown Seattle traffic. I swear it's worse than Chicago and that's saying something.

Since I was so early, I went to the Funko HQ about 15 miles from my hotel. I got 4 new pops and then had them shipped from the post office in town. I also got a tshirt and a pop for the kid. I specifically got ones that were special edition or limited store only. Anything else I can buy online or off of Amazon.

Even with the detour I still got to the hotel at 12:30. Sigh. Luckily they had a room. And boy what a room. I swear it's bigger than my first apartment. Full kitchen. Full bedroom and living room. I know it's bigger than one of our friend's places back home. Kind of sad. Unfortunately there is someone above me and they are a stompy mcstompy head. I even had to call down and complain they were so loud.

Order pizza for dinne rso I would also have lunches. I called the client to confirm some things for today. She was surprised to hear from me directly. This gig is a resell from another provider. Fuck my stupid boss for not telling me any of this. Oh well. It's his burned bridge not mine.

Went to bed around nine and had a horrible night. Maybe tonight will be better. Yeah right.

Y11 D2

Now that I am past a decade I need to archive those first 10 years. Put them in word format or something. Make sure they are around for the ages. Remind me to do that later.

Off to Seattle this morning. Car will be here in an hour. Time travel day. I have 17 minutes between flights, two terminals over. That's going to suck. Literally.

We had a quiet day yesterday. Stayed inside. Grilled chicken kabobs. They were pretty tasty. Made banana bread. Did laundry. A good way to end the weekend, start the week. Nothing much else to report.

Off I go. Oh and I am going to Funko today. Suck it bitches.

Y11 D1

Up early on a holiday to check in for my flight. Might go back to sleep after. I need the sleepy.

Put together our new grill yesterday. Not too hard. Took me a little over 90 minutes to assemble. I consider that pretty good. I used it last night and everything held together. Consider that a win.

Went to the pet store for fish food. Went to the grocery store for some sides and fruit.

That was pretty much the extent of our day. A lazy sunday capped off with grilled burgers and sausage. Was happy with the food and the new grill. It cooks evenly and heats up nice. Worth the money.

Today I am doing nothing as I have to be in bed by 8 to fly out tomorrow morning. Whee.

Y10 D365

And there it is. 10 fucking years to the day. 10 years ago movers were at my house loading up my life and cramming me into a 2 bedroom apartment in the bowl. 10 years ago I started on a path of self discovery, self awareness, self loathing, and too often, self destruction.

But here we are. A decade later gentle reader. Still together and more importantly still alive. In a house. Granted, said house is in MI, but it's a house and it's a quarter of the price of what I had before while being a bigger size. Me and the cats were just watching the bunnies in the backyard nibbling on the grass.

Ten years. People have come, people have gone. I've bene skinny, I've been fat. At least I am not coughing up blood any more. That's a positive, right?

Still depressed. Whee. But hey, depression isn't something that can always be fixed. It has to be managed and treated, but not fixed. It's still a fight every day. Some days are better than others as you can see from this last week's posts. I have been in a bad spiral. I think it's been from being home and the thought of too much travel coming up in June. Catch-22. Don't want to stay home, don't want to spend every fucking week of my life on the road.

Ah but back to the present and the now. We went to a fair yesterday with B's dad, step-mom, and sisters. Not what I think of when I think fair. I am used to county fairs with 4H, and garden exhibits, and vendors. This was more focused on the rides and midway. A bit disappointing. Around here what I want is only at a few county fairs. There's one in July. We shall see how that one is in comparison. This one was also to fund a good cause - some Polish college/school. There was some good polish food there. I won't deny that.

I got B and her sisters wristbands and they went on every ride possible. It was nice seeing B smile and not be worried about everything.

We spent pretty much the good portion of the day there. When we got home we had leftovers. Around 9 we decided to head to Lowes. Once again B had a wild hair and wanted a grill. Sigh. We got a really nice charbroil that was $120 off for the holiday weekend. I couldn't fit it pre-built so that's my project this morning. Going to go build it in the garage. Wish me luck on that.

So far this weekend has been pretty good. Better than the one I had 10 years ago, that's for sure.

Y10 D364

A somber memorial day weekend unto you. If you stop and think about it, you really shouldn't be wishing someone a happy fucking memorial day. Just saying.

Worked on shit for work. Took a nap. Had sloppy joe's for dinner. Fell down the basement stairs. Hurt my bottom. B's arthritis flared up. She took a bath at 11pm to calm it down. Went to bed at midnight.

Lo, the excitement. Woo.

Y10 D363

Two more days. It will be the marker of a decade. Can you believe it? A decade ago I was wallowing in my own self pity and looking at a whole new life. What the fuck? A decade.

Finished my last class with the group in L.A. Finally. That was a rough six days. But it's done. I can go back to 'normal' times. Oh wait. No. I can spend the next 4 out 5 weeks on the road! Oh boy!

My now (in my mind) former boss sent a whiny ass farewell email last night. Doesn't he realize most of us are like whatever dude? Go do your thing. Go. Buh-bye.

Had leftovers from B's grandparent's for dinner. She went over to work on a quilt and brought me home ribs. I can handle that trade off.

Went to bed around 11.

Meetings today. Paperwork. Post office. Three day weekend. Maybe it will rain. Rain is my friend.

Y10 D362

I actually needed an alarm this morning. Didn't wake up until 7:45am. Of course I didn't go to bed until 12:30. I also didn't eat dinner until 9:30 at night. These classes are killing me. Thank goodness this is the last day. I don't know if I could take any more.

I got into it with our 'VP of IT' yesterday. He's some corporate schill who wants to control things and have everything on sharepoint blah blah blah. I told him sharepoint sucks, kiss my ass, our stuff stays on google drive. That didn't go over well. In the end, my coworker and I decided we're going to do what we want, smile and nod, and ignore him. That works.

B went to bingo last night. Got home around 10:30. She went to bed before me. Her allergies seem to be getting cleared up a bit. Still not 100% though.

Okay. Last day. I can do this.

Y10 D361

Had a mixed day yesterday. The morning group was HORRIBLE. Yesterday was the day in the class where it truly separates those who belong and those who aren't quite ready. The morning group just flopped and flailed and didn't even finish the material. The afternoon group on the other hand finished with 12 minutes to spare. For the whole morning session I was angry and stressed but then the afternoon went fine and I calmed the fuck down. Regardless, I worked until after 8pm. Whole day shot.

I had a dream last night about that. About working from 5-1. Interesting.

B went and got a haircut and a new tattoo. I am not keen on part of the new tattoo but it's not my body and I have no right to comment. She got two - one on her arm which is fine, but then she got this hand tattoo and that's not in my wheelhouse. But again, not my place.

Went to bed around 11. Two more days of this, then off to a fucked up 3rd party job in Seattle which I am not taking very seriously. They can suck it.

Y10 D360

Five more days. End of this week marks end of another year. So much writing. So much said. So little said. Many changes. Many things still the fucking same.

FINALLY had a two hour talk with my real boss last night. Founder of the company, current President and CEO. We talked about how things are changing, my role in this new world order, what will stay the same. We talked about short term projects and long term changes. We talked about money. A lot. It was a good talk. I don't know what's going to happen immediately. Probably nothing. But come July or August, some things will be changing. Let's see how things go.

Worked on some random stuff in between all that. Took a nap. Dealt with B's allergies and breathing issues.

Had Indian for dinner.

The next three days are back to 11-8. Split groups. Fun times. Then I go to a horrible situation in Seattle where it's a third party subcontract. Whee. But at least I make miles and nights. All that matters sometimes.

Y10 D359

The weather yesterday was finally tolerable to me. But not to anyone else around here. It's too wet. It's too hot. It's too muggy.

I like it.

But what I like doesn't matter, does it?

Smashed up my sanity
smashed up integrity
smashed up what i believed in
smashed up what's left of me
smashed up my everything
smash myself to pieces
don't know what else to do.

i tried.

i gave up.

Y10 D358

Let's see, I got up early and went to the grocery store. Then I came back and worked in the backyard doing some weeding and cleaning. Then we went to bed bath beyond for a knife block. B took a nap. We had tacos for dinner then she went over to her friend's house and hung out for a while. I did laundry, watched some tv, and played video games. She got home around 11:30 and we went to bed.

Sounds pretty boring. Yes. Yes it is.

Y10 D357

8 days until a new year. Damn.

Well it turns out this time it wasn't just paranoia and old man grumbling. There really was a problem with our paychecks. Of course no one discovered it until around 8am pst when someone at the payroll company got into the office. Then it wasn't fixed until amost 2pm pst. So yeah, I waited until almost 5pm for my money yesterday. Fuckers.

I went for a pedicure in the morning. My awesome witch lady who has fixed my feet was so proud of how good they looked. Me too witch lady, me too.

Then in the afternoon I had a counseling appointment. I don't want to get into it right now, but I am talking to someone about some issues. Basically the gist of it is adjusting to life here and the recent changes and how it's impacting my relationships. So yeah. When something significant comes of it, I may post more here.

Went to hobby lobby late last night to pick up some tools to build something. Going to start work on a model today and needed some proper tools. I need a damn hobby.

Grocery store this morning is about all that's on my agenda today. Nothing else major going on this weekend thank goodness.

Y10 D356

Where's my fucking paycheck?? I need my money. I may start switching all my shit to this local bank. I am tired of dealing with a west coast bank where everything feels three hours 'late' to me. Drives me nuts.

Day three of six of my 11-8 adventure. Nothing really new to report there. I got through it. My whole day taken up by this shit. Didn't have time to do anything else.

B had lunch with a friend and then they hung out for a while.

Had poached eggs for dinner at 9pm.

Fun times.

Y10 D355

Things got so bad yesterday with B's grandfather she had to get a new phone number, sort of. She got a redirect app that gives her a new number for texting and the like but keeps her original number. This way she can still capture all the texts he is sending without having to read them. I don't know how to explain it but I know that if she ever has to go get a restraining order against her own fucking grandfather, she has documented reasons why. What a bunch of uneducated, idiotic children. I read the texts and if she hadn't told me to stay out, I would have been all in that man's face. He is on my banned list from now on.

As for me, I had day two of 11-8. Fun stuff. That was my day. All day.

One positive - my friend sent me a hard drive I made for her. I was able to copy over about 50-60 of the shows I lost. Seems small, but hey, that's a lot of download and conversion time saved. Not complaining. Anything helps. This weekend I am going to bring my new drive online. I have been waiting until I had everything copied over. I also now have a backup as of today of my stuff. I really need a second drive to be 100% stable but whatever. As you can see, it's not the end of the world for me. It sucks, sure, but it's not crucial to my survival.

Day three of 11-8 and then I get a day off tomorrow.

Y10 D354

I have had it with B's mom's side of the family. They are childish, immature, and deserve to be slapped. Her mother and grandfather are causing my wife to have a complete mental breakdown. What kind of fucking parent drags their kid into their ex spousal battles?? 11pm last night she is getting texts from her racist asshole grandfather saying he doesn't want to see B because she is taking her dad's side. She is trying not to take anyone's side. It's her fucking parents. How do you ask a kid to not love their parents when in their mind they've done nothing wrong to them? Grow the fuck up people. I spent an hour last night trying to calm my wife down because of these people. I am two seconds away from giving them all a piece of my mind which would not end pretty. It's all ridiculous and really starting to piss me off.

As for me, I taught 24 people in two groups from 11 until 8pm. I have to do this 2 more times this week and then three more times next week. The groups are okay but the material was never meant to be split like this and it is resulting in some weird end times. Today is going to be the worst and is going to be all over the place.

I didn't get any kind of real meal yesterday because of this. I snacked on whatever. And I wonder why I am not healthy right now.

I need to get away. Like really away.

Y10 D353

Another day of no alarms. Today it's because this week starts my bullshit 11-8 schedule. The next three days I have split sessions of 12 students each. Repeat next week. Who the fuck thought this was a good idea?? Whatever.

I did nothing yesterday and it was glorious. I went to the pet store to get something for the cats and the post office to mail something to the kid. That was it. That was my big adventure. When B got home from working with her dad we went to Target for her prescription and then Wendy's for dinner. That's our whole day.

My boss (for now) is on his way to London (should have been my gig) and he sends some stupid ass email about us doing things on Friday. Sorry buddy, Friday is PTO for me and it's already booked for my co-worker. Just go ahead and quit already. We need you not.

That's all.

Y10 D352

7:30am on a Monday and I just woke up. Yeah baby. No alarms. No nothing. I got a full 8 hours of sleep! Since I lost my Saturday to travel and yesterday being Mother's Day and had to be spent with family, I am taking today as my Sunday. Everyone can kiss my ass. I will be doing my time sheet and expense report today but that's it. I might take a phone call or two as well, but nothing else.

I did get some good news yesterday morning. One of my friends who I made a backup drive for a while back still has it. She is going to mail it to me so I can get back a HUGE chunk of the shows I lost. Maybe 100-150 of them. Not ideal, but I will take it. Will save me hours of downloading for sure.

Did laundry and cleaned in the morning. Made food to take over to the family gathering.

We spent the large portion of our day yesterday at B's grandparent's house. A good 15 or so people there. Aunts, uncles, cousins. We ate, we talked. It wasn't horrible. A little overwhelming at times given my week, but managed to get through. Got home and B collapsed. She slept from 4 until 7. We watched some tv, had leftovers, and went to bed around 11:30.

She has to work with her dad today which will give me a nice quiet house all day. Yay me.

Y10 D351

Yesterday was rough. I left the room at 2:30, got to the airport about 2:45, got in the security line at 2:59. I was 9th in line. It didn't open for almost another hour. We all just sat there waiting. Got through, got on my flight, and made it to Charlotte around 7. I made the mistake of deciding to wait and text B when I boarded my next flight because I figured she'd be sleeping. Oh no, the anxiety had already kicked in and because she hadn't heard from me, she assumed I was dead. I wish I was kidding. When I boarded my next flight around 9:20, there were six missed phone calls, texts, etc. Ok, time to deal with this. Calmed her down and waited to leave.

We got out on the runway only to have to return to the gate for computer issues. Sat at the gate for over an hour. We were supposed to land at 12, didn't get in until after 1:30. Finally got home around 3.

We went to the grocery store, dinner, and lowes. I was just exhausted. Finally went to bed around 11. And now today is mother's day and we have to go to her grandparents. Some day I will get a chance to rest, but it won't be this weekend. I need to do laundry too. Fun.

Y10 D350

Travel day. Off to airport in 45 minutes. 4:30am flight. Must get through security. EWR to CLT to DTW. Home at noon.

Y10 D349

I had a horrible night. Worst gas known to man. It was so bad I woke myself up farting. Seriously. It still hasn't passed (no pun intended). And now I have to stand up in front of a room full of people all day? Fun. The day went surprisingly smooth. No major issues.

Had my favorite restaurant for dinner. Had rabbit with enough leftovers for lunch.

One more day and I can go home. EARLY flight tomorrow. Have to get through the damn security line fast enough. But then I am home and can deal with the mess B sent me. Looks like we have another mouse but this one was in the house and the cats decided to play with it. Yeah.

My life.

Y10 D348

Yesterday started out a little rough in my class. It was the intermediate group and there were a couple who walked in with an attitude. Luckily by day's end I had won them over and they were playing nice. It was a long day, didn't leave until after 5, but it was a good day. Today and tomorrow I have what could be the most challenging group - two days of advanced. This is the group where some of them shouldn't be in the room and others will think they know everything already.

Sigh.

Went to Don Pepe for dinner last night. For some weird reason there's a huge Spanish and Portuguese population around here and tons of restuarants. They're all a bit pricey, but the food is good and I end up with leftovers so there's that.

Finally heard from my big boss yesterday. "Oh, I've been meaning to talk with you". Yeah okay buddy. I pushed him off until Monday. I don't want to deal with him this week. Enough on the brain already.

TV, video games, bed. Same ol' same ol'.

Y10 D347

Woke up around 1:30 with a massive muscle cramp in my leg. One of those where if I turned the wrong way I would have been in screaming pain. Luckily I woke up when it was just on the edge and I managed to ride it out. I know why it happened. Normally when I am here, it's only for a couple of days of teaching and the walking is minimal. This time though I am here for a full week and have already done quite a bit of walking. I still have three days to go. My legs will both be burning by the end of the week. Fun.

Day one was okay. Two groups, 4 hours each. 30 people total. No issues. Had some room issues but otherwise got through it. Today is an all day class with only 4 overlap from yesterday. So another 11 new today bringing the week to 41. I still have another group Thursday and Friday with little overlap. Should do about 50-55 for the week total.

Went to Dino BBQ for dinner. Had a good meal. I like their food.

Got back to the hotel around 6:30, chilled out, watched some tv, played some video games, went to bed around 10.

No breakfast yesterday as I had to leave early. I am hoping today I can eat. They open at 6:30 here instead of 6 but that should be okay today.

Y10 D346

Slept HARD last night. Woke up a couple of times, but from two different REM cycles. Strange dreams about mobsters and people I don't like. Not pleasant.

Travel day. My first flight was delayed over an hour. Luckily I still had an hour to make my connection. Felt bad for three of the people up in front with me. They were all on the same flight and missed their connection by a wide margin. What sucks is I am on that same connection in two weeks. I hope there isn't a repeat of yesterday.

Got to NJ around 12:30, hotel at 1. My room was ready. Took a nap, ironed, went to dinner. Had a nice spanish paella. Came back, watched some tv, went to bed around 10.

Four days of training then back home on Saturday. I don't expect much excitement this week. But who knows.

Y10 D345

Really stressed this morning. Have an hour until I leave for the aiport and I feel like I am running around like a chicken minus head. Sigh.

First thing - my sister got mugged. Good job america. She's okay. More ego bruised than her bruised. That's the good. Bad is they got her bag. I hate humans.

Yesterday the majority of our day was taken up by one thing - Endgame. The following will be in a white font so as not to spoil anything for anyone:

It was okay to me. Too many years of reading comic books jaded me. I knew what was roughly going to happen. I knew what the plan was. I knew people would die. So some of it was good but overall meh.

Highs:
Lebowski Thor
The power women shot
Brie Larson
The portal opening scene
Bruce Hulk

Lows:
The whole plot line.
Steve's little voyage to the past
Tony's death

After that we came home, B napped, we had dinner, and I went to bed at 8. Get to NJ today around noon. That will be a nice change. Get to be leisurely on where I go for dinner for once. Not arriving at 6pm stressing out. This should be okay. I get breakfast on my Chicago to NJ flight. Yes, I am going backwards to go forwards. Airlines. Sigh.

Time to finish getting ready.

Y10 D344

It's too early to be up. Especially since I have to be up early all week. Sigh. My next 'sleep in' day will be NEXT sunday. Oh well.I will just go to bed hella early tonight to get a full night's sleep.

Yesterday was a busy day. We started off by pulling any last minute things out of cabinets, closets, etc. The exterminator showed up around 9, finished about 10:40. We then had to wait 2 hours before we could put anything back. During that time we went to the grocery store, Lowe's, and Best Buy. All of which were 'weekend' packed. Got back almost 2 hours to the minute and started to reassemble rooms. That took us until 2:30. It was a great deal of work but hopefully worth it. The exterminator did show me where we need to caulk, where there's some poison ivy, and where the nests are most likely to be. He earned his money. For the next 30 days we have to keep a log and let them know if we find anything. We are guaranteed for a year against the ants.

Around 4 B's friend came over. She spent the night because she has some thing to do early this morning in our area and it made it easier for her than trying to get from her house. We had tacos for dinner together.

While B and her firend watched the Ted Bundy story, I went to the mall. I went to Sur La Table to have my good knives sharpened. Two of them couldn't be saved and I had to replace them, but the other 5 were wonderful and we now have a good set of knives again.

Got back and we all hung out in the basement for a while just chatting. We all went to bed around 11. This morning, I have to check in for flights, hotel, etc. B's friend is out of here around 6:45 and we are out of here by 8:30. We're going to see Endgame at 9:20 this morning. Get that out of the way. Let's see if I enjoy it.

Y10 D343

Hi.

Tired this morning but I had to be up early as the exterminator will be here in 3 hours. I need to be dressed and ready to go before he arrives. Still need to do some stuff in my office. I left it to the last minute just because.

He can't come soon enough for my taste. I killed a giant fucking centipede last night and there was a fucking ant on my pants when I went to bed. Nope. No thank you. Fuck this. I fucking hate bugs. Not cool man.

We ran a bunch of errands in the morning, took a nap, booked 4 trips. Yes, 4. Seattle at the end of the month which will get me some good miles and then 3 OH trips in June.No miles for those, but I will have 4 more rentals for the year and only need 5 more to keep status. I will only need about 20 more nights to keep status at Hilton. No complaints on that. 

We went to the mall last night. I got a new denim jacket. I have been wanting something in between my winter coat and no coat at all. I have been looking for a while and hemming and hawing because I have been trying to be cheap. Last night I gave up and went into Levi's and just fucking bought a vintage trucker. Just like the jacket of my yout. Yout? Yeah, yout. 

While out we found a good new italian place to go to. It's the old italian place in the city it's in and it fucking rocks. We loved it. We can't wait to go back.

Got home and we proceeded to empty out cabinets, move things around, etc. Took a lot of effort but it's done. 

Other than the exterminator, no plans for the day thank goodness. I may have me a nice nap.

Y10 D342

Ended up not sleeping yesterday pretty much at all. I had all those things to take care of and then next thing I knew it was too late. Work emails started coming in, shit had to be done, etc. It was a very long day yesterday.

The drive is in fact dead. I now have to catalog all the shows that were on there, see which ones I want to replace, and get a new drive. There's a 10TB at BB for $200. So that's today's plans.

Dealt with a bunch of other shit around the house too while trying to get work done. Did laundry. Dealt with animals. Man, I can't even remember.

Had soup for dinner. Went over to B's grandparents' house to help them with some stuff. Passed out around 11.

I have a driveway guy coming this morning to give a quote. Exterminator comes tomorrow so we have to take everything out of the cabinets. Have to pay bills. Have to book next trips.

I will rest when I am dead. Just like my damn drive.

Y10 D341

Well I am home, but I am unhappy. Been home for over an hour, got here around 3:20am. Left the hotel a little before midnight. Not a bad drive. Lots of construction in OH though which made for some tricky driving since it was raining too.

Why am I unhappy? Oh boy. Let's list the ways:

- Ants in my office
- My archive drive is dead and I lost over 500 tv shows
- The kitchen was an utter fucking mess
- Had to do laundry but there was wet clothes in the washer still
- The litter hadn't been emptied so there was shit on the floor
- Their food was empty. Their water was low
- The fish hadn't been fed

Look, I don't mind that B spent her day helping one of her friends with a flooded house, but not at the expense of OUR household. Do our shit first. Stop being so fucking accommodating to everyone else. I don't have time for it.

My work day was good. I managed to get all the documents finished and approved by noon. I went and had a nice lunch then slept from like 1 until 6. Had dinner in my room, slept again from 9-11.

I am still pissed and need to destress.

Y10 D340

May 1st 2019. Odd words. 2019. Seriously. Think back to 1999. 1989. 2000 was a trip in itself. Now we're closing in on 2020. Weird.

I have been watching The Goldbergs on Hulu lately. Almost through all of season 4. It's one of those shows which also makes me think about how far things have come but more importantly it makes me envious of people who had more normal childhoods. Hanging with neighborhood kids. Having siblings close in age that you grew up with and messed around with. What's that like? I have no clue. Nor will I ever know. I was alone as a child and not much has changed.

My day started off rough. I have a limited amount of time to eat breakfast in the morinng and I expect it to be out and ready at 6am as advertised. 6:03, nothing. I sat there until 6:20 and they still didn't have food out. I was pissed off. Especially since the woman running it was all whatever about it. Bitch please. I need my food. I was so hungry all day. The hotel did give me 5000 points for my trouble especially when I showed them pictures of what my room looked like when I got back to the hotel later in the day. More on that in a minute.

Spent the day finishing up the documents for the client. Got done around 2:30 and headed to a nearby mall for a bath bomb. When I come back this way in June, I will be staying closer to this mall. It's amazing the difference between the two areas. Where I am is so ghetto and I bet I could get a good deal on crack. Where the mall is it's clean and nice and oh my. There's a Hilton right next door to the mall and I may end up there next time. We shall see. Got my bath bomb but unfortunately it was too early to eat. So I took the back way to the closest Arby's near my hotel since I had a coupon. Mistake. Scary part of town. I was waiting for a cop to pull me over because the only reason someone like me would be in this part of town was if I was looking for drugs. For real. It was frightening.

Got my Arby's and got back to my hotel. Only to find that I guess housekeeping's vacuum broke because my floor was a mess. Crumbs from the prior night all on the floor. Everything was clean too so what the fuck. I showed the desk manager and between that and breakfast issues, he was apologetic. Doesn't help a lot, but it helps.

Watched tv, went to bed around 10.

Today I am going in for final doc review and then deciding what to do. The hotel and car are paid for so I don't want to leave early and waste that. BUT I could just go home and get the sleep. We'll see. I will make a decision based on what time I get out of the office today.