Y2 D220

Well I made it. Here we are in another new year. Let's see how this one treats me. Hopefully better than the last. I have some goals for this new year, not resolutions as that implies something is wrong with me and I need to be more resolute about not doing that thing. No, instead I prefer to have goals to accomplish. Here they are in no particular order:

1. Stop screwing around with girls way too young for me. If I am to find a solid relationship then I need to be realistic about who I screw around with. No more 20 somethings. I want something lasting this year.

2. Find something lasting. The Charlie Sheen thing has been fun, but I am done. I need to find a solid partner this year to help me get through those rough patches and to enjoy the good times as well. I do have a date tomorrow so who knows, this may be the start of achieving this goal.

3. Be as financially frugal and responsible as life allows. I will not go through the same things I went through this last year. The stress of being always in the red nearly killed me. I am not off to the best start on this, but that is also due to coming into it not in the best place. I am hoping I have a good first quarter and can be ahead of the game early in the year and stay there.

4. Now it's time for the dumb ones - I am going to let my hair grow. Why not? I haven't had long hair since 03. Let's see how it looks.

5. I am going to lose another 15 pounds. Only because I want to see if I can. I know none of you will approve of this one, but it's my body. And honestly it's a physical challenge to see if I can do it. I might hit 10 and realize any more will kill me, but it's worth a shot.

6. Drink no more than 30% of the year. This means I can have a drink 109 out of 365 days. Or 9 drinks per month. I know that sounds like a weird goal, but given how much I have and can drink, I think this is pretty solid of an aspiration. If I can say I didn't drink 70% of the year come December, then good for me.

7. Try to be vegetarian at least 50% of the year. Roughly 180 days without any meat. Another solid thing to try and accomplish.

8. Save my hips and back. This means I am done carrying things in my pockets. My hips and back constantly are killing me from sitting on a wallet. I always have crap falling out of my pockets. I have things weighing me down in my jacket constantly. So I don't care what society says. I am carrying a bag again on a regular basis. Call it a purse, call me whatever names you want. I don't care. I want to be out of pain.

9. Which brings me to the last one -- be true to myself. I have made great strides in this over the last year and a half, but I have ways to go. This year I want to express myself as I feel without worrying about reprise or shame. This ones is hard to explain. Some of you might know what I mean, but trust me, this is part of why I get so depressed. I feel trapped and can't express myself sometimes. No more. I am going to let myself be happy.

10. Ok, one more -- be happy and positive more than depressing and pessimistic. A simple goal we should all have, all the time...

In other news, great show last night. We had a blast. One of the safest and most sane times I have had on new year's in a while. The show went smooth for the most part, people had fun without being stupid, the kid got to be on stage with us during the countdown, and overall a damn good safe and sane way to spend the night. We shared a bottle of champagne I brought back stage, but that was all the drinking I did. Like 3 glasses of champagne myself all night. I ended up driving a friend's car home since I got a ride up to the show it was no big deal. I need to bring it back to him today. Funny, last new year's it was me who woke up without a car. It's nice to go the other way.

Another show tonight and then I drive the kid home. This time tomorrow I will be heading back to an empty house but getting ready for a date.