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In 13 hours it will be one year since my brother died. Fuck me.

Had an extremely stressful day at work yesterday which is not going to get any better today. So much in fact that I am thinking about working tomorrow too just to get ahead. This fucking place sucks. My mood sucks right now. I asked them to do something yesterday in order to reduce the complexity of their requests to able to deliver something that actually works and instead I get this mess that is more complicated than the original design. What the fuck people, are you that stupid? Apparently. The human brain's capacity for stupidity never ceases to amaze me.

Which really sucks because my day started with a text from TGF at 5:45. Her period hit and she was awake and she knew I would be too.

Got home and decided to cook a real dinner since I won't see either the kid or TGF tonight or tomorrow. The kid has her first full day at work today and TGF has dance. Then on Thursday they are both off doing their thing. TGF came over last night and we had cornish game hens, sauteed carrots, sliced tomatoes, and homemade mashed potatoes. We then relaxed and watch House followed by a 1/2 a Buffy and an Angel. We need to get back the X-Files at some point. Still have 100 episodes to go. For the benefit of TGF we discussed rewatching all of Twin Peaks. Not sure I can do it again, but what the hell. And these are the reasons why I am so close to canceling regular broadcast television. With the exception of:

- House
- Always Sunny
- Supernatural
- Big Bang Theory
- Simpsons/Family Guy/American Dad
- Bones

Um... that's about it? Oh and Runway. I don't watch much more than that. Are 8 shows worth $75 a month? That's almost $10 a show. I can get a whole season off one of my multiple devices cheaper than that. I need to pull the fucking plug but my mind is so warped that I can't do it. Ugh.

TGF took two midol prior to us starting to watch TV which sent her into the floopy zone by the time we went to bed around 11. I fell right asleep but she was wide awake. Around 12:30 she woke me up and we cuddled and just kind of held each other until she fell asleep around 1. I was right behind her. When the alarm when off this morning I didn't want to move. The kid is taking today off, TGF has no classes, there is no one here in the office... F. M. L.