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This is weird - using the new interface for blogger. I have been avoiding it for some reason and now I think I see why. Things are in odd places. First world white boy problems...

Yesterday was okay at work. I was able to ride on my previous success from Monday. It was like I had immunity on a tv show. I was immune from the yelling and tongue lashings my colleagues and even my boss had to suffer through yesterday. I also was able to finish the day by successfully completing another major task which should protect me today too. Pretty sad I have to think of work in these respects but it is what it is. Do you realize in a little over two weeks it will be the anniversary of my brother's death? Can you believe it's been a year and not much has really changed for me has it? I have TGF now but otherwise things are pretty much exactly the same. Is this good or bad? I don't know. I do know there are some big differences like TGF and the kid living with me. But overall I am still spinning my wheels. Sigh.

Got home and TGF came over. She is sicker than a dog and I was losing my patience at playing nurse maid. Not because I didn't want to take care of her but because I felt like I worked all day and between her and the kid I didn't get a moment to rest for myself. I come in the house and by the time I have my gear off -- tangent; I bought new gloves at lunch yesterday. I couldn't feel my fingers any more while riding and luckily there's a cycle gear near the office. I was able to pick up a pair of winter gloves regularly $50 down to $25. Nice. Anyway, I had just stripped down when TGF arrived. She was hungry and sick, the kid was hungry... fine I take care of everybody but me. Argh. I did it but I could feel inside I was getting punchy. Finally around 9 I relaxed a little. We watched some bad TV and then I made her take Nyquil and go to bed. She was horny as usual and I told her flat out no. You need sleep. Sleep now.

In between all this I was dealing with some cast bullshit. Seems we bought a new prop truck without discussing it with the head of tech. Whatever. I am honestly considering quitting in January. It served its purpose - it made me new friends, got me out of the house, opened me up to new things, etc. But I have a job already and I don't need to be stressed out 24 hours a day.

Tonight TGF has dance and I am going to take a bath and sleep. The kid has a second round interview at American Eagle today at 4. Let's see how that goes.